Mhm, thanks. Maybe THIS'll be the week we crunch through the List to get it down to zero.
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Tomorrow has airing for it Tate no Yuusha, Senko-san, and Kenja no Mago, which brings us up to eight. If we can get off another five we'll have three by the end tomorrow. Then Thursday brings Sarazanmai and Carole & Tuesday for another five. If we can manage that we'll have an empty docket by Friday.
>>679080 go to the replay and just yeah like that let's say if it'll open on my phone What hand? Yeah it's not working on my phone
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http://tenhou.net/0/?log=2019043007gm does this work or is that only for me frostexe is the one to watch oh you're on your phone you can wait it's not important 2nd round
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oh he doesn't have any dora at aall oops well whatever i remembered wrong
this is just some stuff i need to outlet, nobody has to come address it or even really pay attention at all, but anyone is welcome to too if they want
my last ditch living situation here is gonna be closing by the start of next year and there's a high likelihood i'll end up homeless with current work factors with health and bad finances, or at the least im about on the brink of homelessness without many options
being on that brink ive been thinking about the fact that my grandparents, with my dad's help, built a second home for my grandpa since he had a bad heart and being in the midwest during the winter would be hard on him. not just my grandpa but it was a summer home sort of thing it was arranged that my aunt would get the home in the midwest (where she's currently caring for that grandmother, who is on hospice and is very ready to go)
and my dad was supposed to have that summer home. but being as my dad died, my oldest cousin has been staying there instead, as he has done for a long long time, taking care of the house and stuff but also living there im not sure how that goes if the inheritance normally would go to the deceased's children or if it'd go to the next of kin instead or something or what, not that it was really a legally binding agreement in the first place, just family planning stuff
i havent done anything to deserve it but that home would save my life if i could get it like planned. or how things would have gone naturally within the plan, that is. even then, though, i dont think i can take care of the place by myself, and probably shouldn't live by myself anyway. id like to talk to family about it but i can't really talk to anyone. i mean, that's why im sharin stuff here im worrited too that /moe/ is drifting apart, and you guys are all i really have left, and kind of all i ever had these past years i hope things will be okay. thanks for reading
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i always start feeling a big urge to want to bring /moe/ more together, and want to talk about some things ive screwed up, make amends and let people know how much i appreciate them but at the // then i realize it could be like "jeez whatever moon, so melodramatic. i dont have a lot of time im just checking from my phone and this is really overbearing" and i think it's the problem
this kind of disconnect is what keeps me in functioning logistically all the time too i really need someone who can make calls and schedule things for me and keep a calendar scheduled and make sure im remembering to eat real food and not neglecting myself too much but like that's a physical role, they'd gotta be here im so uncomfortable in this living environment right now because there's leakage that just floods in and it smells like there's probably mold, the house is unreasonably messy and i cant function in that and it's not good for me psychologically to be handling someone else's laziness for them but considering im about to be homeless i really can't complain about any of that
if i just had a few basic things i needed then none of this would be a barrier idk i can't talk about this stuff then feel right about myself afterwards as soon as i say something i feel this pang of hopeless irritability, feeling like it's excuses that's the effect of growing up with double-binds and manipulative parenting everything is lose-lose and there's no winning action, just soak up everyone else's anxieties for them
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>>677290 is there anything anyone can do to help without being there physically? you're my friend and i want to do whatever i can to help
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>>677294 is there a way you could make calls on my behalf nah that's too much like the services offered with this health coverage, there's even transport. they have a driver come pick you up if you can't get to your appointment yourself but like you gotta make so many calls and do so much stuff there's not enough comfort room in my head to organize all that while still functioning blue cross is telling me to use my blue cross card along with my MIhealth card for everything i do but they didnt send me an // a blue cross card either it never arrived in my mailbox or someone just threw it out or something either way i dont have it and it's already may im scared i might not get to get the healthcare i need while i still can this year but i dont have any money to get stuff and do stuff im so distressed thinking about those things that i have to just not do it or i become frantic
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>>677300 a lot of things i can't call for you because they'll need to talk to you but there are probably some things i could help call for your blue cross card, you will probably have to contact them, they might have a way to chat on their website instead of calling? a lot of people do that nowadays
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i need to sign up for grocery delivery service it's available for like $12 a month or like 80 for the whole year but that means i gotta have 80 bucks available -before- buying any groceries and then the tip too the items are sometimes more expensive for delivery and there's no room in the kitchen to actually store food anyway... i didn't ask for this, sigh and i wish i could stop doing this
