>>681484 >βBirth control pills, IUDs and other methods of birth control like that β the bill states that any birth control that could act to stop a fertilized egg from implanting in the uterus is considered an abortion under this bill," Miracle says.
also, who would want miracle as their last name...
maybe I'll go see my dad in early August then ill go to denver and get fucked up and then come back to school/work we'll have a big mushroom party! πππππ
ToN
big titania party
Kirara π
are you gonna come shroom with us, ton
ToN
early august? dang my vacay is like late august maybe i could try and come anyway
who, you and rook? isn't rook in denver i wonder if he still needs a new roommate
Kirara π
yeah rook is denver i think he's livin in a house with some friends i wanna go visit and do some shrooms i didn't realize how badly i want to go do shrooms with rook until i found out about that law
he mentioned someone maybe moving and needing a replacement he was gonna let me know more info but it sounds like he probably got it sorted damn ive been wanting to move to colorado for years but havent had an opportunity
Kirara π
want me to ask him?
ζ
not so much im pretty self conscious about it and about bothering rook
>>681517 ill try to work on a plan so we can estimate costs and stuff
Kirara π
told someone i was excited about the denver thing and they were like "aren't you a substance use counselor" like who cares im not there to stop people from doing drugs idc if they do drugs unless they want to not do drugs and can't stop
!C0.PerkELE
yeah, you must test the things out sonyou can councel about use obviously
So it's a definite plan? Who's all going as of now probably definite for you i mean ive been up pike's peak before i wonder if that vietnamese restaurant is still near the base they were exceptionally good
well my tentative plan is to go but i won't know until i work my logistics out on it tomorrow morning after i have some basic info about what i can do ill start getting info from others interested and start working out a plan, then ill work out an idea of potential costs so we can get a more concrete idea of who can go
jan will probably want to go tilde mentioned he wanted to come with jan and me to utah last year so maybe him maybe sam if he's available id be surprised if blue wanted to go do shrooms
but we'll have to see ill start workin on it tomorrow
ToN
you know honestly i have access to a car without renting one. jtβs just 20 years old and been under modernization ir what have you my mom wouldnt want me to travel with it but maybe i will sometime anyway
>>681527 that's a bad idea you're likely to need repairs and will have to shell out like 800 bucks and wait a couple days in the middle of nowhere while they order the parts
>>681526 im not especially interested in shrooms but the appeal of human contact and seeing my friends is a psychoactive substance for me
ToN
I mean my aunt has been working on getting it drive ready for some time
Kirara π
we probably don't want an old car in the mountains rook might have access to a car or i can rent one i usually just rent us a car when we go on trips since i get discounts and have excess money due to loans speaking of which APA worked out a deal with some companies that can save me even more money
>>681707 im just werking in order to entertain myself at nights i tend to bring my switch so I was enjoying replaying Valhalla >>681708 in what context
Maria
>>681709 In the context of his tower Also how many calls do you get? You have time to play video games at work?
ToN
>>681710 if hes not in the tower go looking for the tengu of ashina right before the gyobu fight help him out and that gives time for isshin to come back from his walk
at night? not a lot sitting on about 28, several of which i forward to the nurse
daytime folks back downstairs encroach upon 160 to 180 these days im glad i got out of there
Maria
>Sekiro, that is what I will name you! Omg ton he said it he said the thing!
>>681711 >160-180 Aaaasaaa How long does the average call take? I probably took only around 40 calls today but most of them are at least ten minutes long
ToN
wait, 28 doesnt include before midnight i probably took like 15 more then maybe 20
ToN
>>681712 anywhere from ... eg probably 5 minutes? but some can take like 2 and others 10+ and a few 20+
ToN
like the combined access folks downstairs take avout 4000 combined regularly
ToN
dokt hold me to those numbers though i cant remember the stats
Maria
>>681715 How big is your city that this can happen on a daily basis?
ToN
>>681717 we cover for more than just this city even several places in Ohio
was there something that happened that caused a grudge between us in the distant past did i do something awful to you or vice versa or just get in a really mean argument im feeling like that happened but i can't recall anything like that when i think about you so now it's really bugging the back of my mind. maybe im confusing it for someone else
i do that sometimes, confuse people
>>681721 we could try hopping a bronze if you want but if two friends are around who play i think thatd be more enjoyably competitive is floop still alive even probably not after easter huh
>>681720 Floop froze in the Finnish winter oh wait he's online
aw damn he has an exam There's one more who might be awake
>>681726 I have two people on /magic/ I got into mahjong but I think they're both asleep One definitely is
Rika could have been a professional mahjong player by now but noooooo Blue could be a BILLIONAIRE if he just stuck with it I have one last shot in the dark He gave up mahjong because he got butthurt over luck once Okay he's busy with a FFXIV raid I think Just a guy I know, and I guess Jan knows now He's not from the liveboard circle Wait maybe Kirino's awake wait no he's asleep as of five hours ago Yeah Kirino I wouldn't be surprised He used to post on /moe/? He like saki and we played mahjong a few times
>>681727 Look on pixiv for a higher res version I downloaded it from there and it said bad image when I tried uploading it so I took a screenshot of that then cropped it Which is the worst but you gotta do what you gotta do to work with pixiv
ζ
dont you have someone from magic gosh why did blue and rika have to get jobs and become real people and leave us neet trash behind they could be playin with us instead of SLEEPING right now
no luck finding someone? i got nothin everyone else is asleep who was it and not from the overarching messageboard circle either? the liveboards have a tight knit little thing going on except meguca it's neat Kirino as in Kirino? i havent seen him in years i think i yelled at him last time i saw him though for treating eku badly that was a lifetime ago
he played mahjong with me and blue and lightswitch on fridays very sweet guy i liked him
>>681722 fug that's not an image I want anyway yeah fukken saved thanks not that I have any particular taste I just like amassing pictures of anime girls for no reason
ToN
>>681720 i feel like i remember you feeling that way but i dont think there is one
>>681729 i dont think so he was really bad at mahjong but just played to fill a slot unless a rando wanted to join >>681729 everyone was drinking heavily anyway so it didnt make much difference if he was good or not i used to play sudoku races with him too where you try to fill out the sudoku faster than the other person i did it kind of just to show off because i used to be a jackass like that but he'd try to catch me when i was overwhelmingly drunk so he'd have a chance good memories >>681729 okay my other friend has returned so we're still at 3 but we're ready could you ask a rando from your rando pools >>681728 yeah i wish i could remember sorry, i used to be really unreasonable and get mad over really petty things
Maria
>length: one game, easy only, two wind match, Vs AI Shit which one is hanchan >>681733 okay
ζ
wind match i'll host since i have both of you as friends if you open up the advanced tab it has a typo of dora as dpra lmao
ζ
oh we can use an AI
Maria
>>681734 yeah but that's boring I have a twitter friend joining don't start get rid of the ai okay we good
My parents are in the other room I wonder if they can hear this All the RONNYAAAAS and the TSUMO DESS
ζ
i wish we had single instance private liveboards just invite people and it's separate from all this
>You can stop that Gmail email from being sent. But you have to be quick. okay but how was I supposed to know that >>681778 probably a little bit maybe your email is cummaster69 or something dunno how much they care over just silly ones unlike that
>>681792 I hope they can afford a crab rave for my funeral
>>681795 only one person died and he died saving trillions so yeah you're right it wasn't that sad Oh Black Widow died too I guess
Marsh shitposting on the go via telephone
Avengers wasn't that sad Come @me
Anno
nah I agree with that
Marsh shitposting on the go via telephone
The people in the row in front of me were physically crying
Marsh shitposting on the go via telephone
Maybe I'm cold and dead inside
Or too autistic to understand these things humans call emotions
Maria
I think "event movies" like this just inspire extra emotions It's the social experience that ties into all of it. People get more wrapped up in it because their friends and their friends friends are also wrapped up in it. It stops feeling like a mere movie and more like a milestone
Now Shazam!, that was a movie I could have shed a tear to Shazam! is so fucking good
there were points where i felt a little emotional but i didn't cry or anything when tony died i felt a little sad because i am just sensitive to death i dont think the movie was very good at stimulating emotions and any emotional response would have to be related to a connection with the characters over the last 11 years
i still gotta see shazam but john wick comes out soon so itll probably be a while before i do
Maria
>>681810 Yeah like You see the guy sitting next to you is crying So now you're crying
Kirara π
my friend told me people were clapping at Endgame (and she also clapped) i made fun of her for it a lot
Maria
The guy sitting next to me kept loudly shouting out RUSSOS when something funny happened God shut up they aren't here they can't hear your appreciation for their work
Kirara π
i went to a dying theater that ive never been to and there were like 5 people in the theater other than me and fish for endgame lol it was awesome
Maria
I had to book seats a week in advance Also that's shockingly low
Marsh shitposting on the go via telephone
>>681813 I thought that was just part of being American
I had best seat top row, middle seat I dunno why the group of three guys who had clearly booked their tickets before me, hadn't booked their 3 one seat to the right so all of them would have the three centre seats Guess whoever booked their tickets was not the brightest lamp
>>681826 You take out a fistful of popcorn and leave it on the counter for him
Kirara π
fun fact: if you tip on a card, the government takes taxes out of the tip so they don't even get the full tip
Kirara π
if you tip with bills then they can claim no tips and then they can actually force the company to pay them (in theory) usually they the company doesn't pay them their full wage
my // the high school i went to is now sponsored by amazon and amazon has chosen their own teachers which will teach computer science at the school, teaching Python and JAVA
showings start at 4pm here we almost always have movies the day before the official release, idk how it works they usually start at 6pm or 8pm though on the first day
>Box Office Mojo has reported that Lelouch of the Resurrection, which is currently in its third day of release, has made a total of $364,204 USD across the country. Opening initially on 478 screens, but then quickly expanding to 488 wow
Anno
That's probably a pretty good return for an anime movie of a somewhat archaic franchise.
!C0.PerkELE
I wonder when it will come out also jesus christ I hate some movies that just have the plot there with no "spoiler warning" instead of synopsis nearly spoiled myself on wikipedia tht is
!C0.PerkELE
come out as in fansub
Kirara π
>>681854 Apparently it's in the top 10 movies for Tuesday at the box office.
>>681858 >Across the seas however, Lelouch has already managed to find its sea legs. Opening in March of this year in Japan, the movie pulled in around an estimated $9 Million USD, or 1 billion yen. The film's story is certainly one that fans have been asking for, acting as both a sequel to the original and a crescendo to the series at large.
!C0.PerkELE
Iw onder how well it did in japan
!C0.PerkELE
also I wonder what the budgets are for movies like that you don't get all that info so easily on non-hollywood movies
say an anime series costs 200k to produce + other costs ofc a movie would require about same level of "work" but obviously you'd but more work into a movie, because it is a bigger deal so I'd guess 2M a the very least especially if sunrise
Kirara π
>According to Masamune Sakaki, a CG creator in the anime industry, an average 13-episode anime season costs around 250 million yen (or $2 million). He also made it clear that most anime can't recoup this expense, and the industry rests on the windfall of a few big hits.Aug 13, 2015
!C0.PerkELE
>>681863 wew though I doubt some low animation sol stuff is a lot cheaper
Kirara π
western cartoons can cost 2mil on a single episode apparently
!C0.PerkELE
>>681865 *US seriously us movies, even B movies have the budget of A-movies here in theo ld world
the new version of Unknown Soldier a classic war story here, cost 7 Million to produce a huge fucking production had it been made in USA it would have been 70 at the very least and prolly still looked the same
the film industry over there is seriously overbloated in everything
Kirara π
>According to Masamune Sakaki, a CG creator in the anime industry, an average 13-episode anime season costs around 250 million yen (or $2 million). He also made it clear that most anime can't recoup this expense, and the industry rests on the windfall of a few big hits. In a July interview, Takayuki Nagatani, producer of Shirobako (itself an anime about anime production), claimed that his show cost 500 million yen (or $4 million) for 24 episodes. In order to make it sell, he had to "advertise it, plan events, and make merchandise." Shinji Takamatsu, a veteran animator, cited a figure of 150 to 200 million yen ($1.2 to $1.6 million). "Expecting to make that up through disc sales alone is a hopeless business model, but that's how almost all late night anime are," he writes
my knee is acting up even though i haven't done anything with it! i must have stepped at a bad angle somewhere at least i can walk on it, it's only a little painful
usually when it acts up, i can't even stand on it for an hour or so
it's ridiculous to me that i can hike up a god damn mountain and walk like 100k steps in a few days without even an inkling of knee pain but then sometimes i just get exploding knee walking around my own home
ACTUALLY EVERY TIME I ACTUALLY GET INJURED IT'S AT FUCKING HOME I ONLY GET HURT AT HOME
I have no idea, but I would guess there is something similiar to the >you stop your muscles ache >you keep going they are warm and don't ache
Kirara π
i can't think of a single time i've been seriously injured or debilitated outside of my home like i've gotten cuts and scraps and bruises but nothing that actually mattered when i was away from home
Well if you ask me that is lucky compared to say being hiking and becoming unable to walk and having to be carried out/call services to get you out or having your knee go bonkers mid driving
i almost passed out once when i was away from home but that was from a respiratory infection and moon took care of me so i didn't get hurt so that doesn't really count either although i did get to spend the next few days high on lean
I kinda wanna take something for my knee pain but I have a client in half an hour who is in recovery from an opioid addiction and it seems kind of fucked up to be with her while on an opioid She'd probably know I'm on something haha
not to mention I should prolly buy some actual desinfectant >having used either 80% vodka or disinfectant ment for washing brewing equipment so far for a year they do work tho
some gamer youtuber cheated on his wife with the ex-wife of another gamer youtuber it's only notable because the wife that got cheated on was blocked on twitter by the cheater who then posted a statement saying he cheated and was going to get divorced the wife found out they were getting divorced through twitter even though she was blocked lol
FormerRei@mobile
Kek
!C0.PerkELE
>>681892 jesus what kinda dousche announces a divorce before adressing their spouse...
!C0.PerkELE
btw is spouse both ways or only wife?
!C0.PerkELE
word in finnish btw is "puoliso" coming from "puoli" or rather "puolikas" in this case puoli meaning side puolikas meaning half so word for spouse in finnish is "your other half"
maybe that is why there are more and more ossan isekais and shit the readerbase tends to be too old to self-insert into high schoolers' so here coems the ossans to adopt cute daughterus
FormerRei@mobile
I think its because the types of people who wrote highschool isekai stuff in the beginning have grown old enough to become ossan.
>>681909 interesting they didn't buy the whole series or maybe the different seasons have some owner issues
Kirara π
there's only one season with 65 episodes but it could be that they're staggering release as part of a deal with sony or something? who knows maybe to get people hype for the movie
!C0.PerkELE
damn just realised that the ww2 day /week by week series will be going on untill 2024 so weird to follow these long series the ww1 was already a journey
>find random necromancer to be turning women into ghost slaves for his "pleasures" >find few fresh corpses not yet turned >"Guess I could give these a decent burial" >without thinking about it, proceed to cannibalize them, loot their bones and flesh from their corpses and then blow them up with corpse explosion into piles of dust >"A job well done"
!C0.PerkELE
and then i am like "huh"
!C0.PerkELE
>>681924 nice how much do you think the beard helps wonder could you do a study of this kinda effect
Kirara π
beard probably helps a little bit because of the whole stereotypical "psychologist rubbing his beard while you speak" image I think primary effect is that i look older than i am so people take me more seriously people take 30-35 more seriously than 20-25 when it comes to therapy for some reason
Talesof !NuKeSlvmWE
>find random necromancer to be turning innocents into skeleton butlers for her "errands" >find few fresh innocents not yet turned >"Guess I could give this girl a decent arrest" >without thinking about it, proceed to get a raging boner, spill my spaghetti all over the townsfolk, and submit myself to being a skeleton >"A job well done?"
Kirara π
very normal
!C0.PerkELE
>>681933 yeah I was thinking that it is more likely a case of "age authority"
Might be clickbait to try and lure you in further. I didn't take a look at front page though to find out what exactly you're talking about.
FormerRei@mobile
>>681947 No it isn't, I've checked them its literally just an image hosting site.
!C0.PerkELE
aah finally the moon can be seen from my window during nightime seriously why is it so random and now it is during summer so barely will see it because TOO BRIGHT guess next year it will be during spring
Can I just donate my body to science so they can see how much pain someone can take being sliced open in every single area before dying I would have a purpose
aaaaaaaaaaa >fight really annoying battle where I spend 30 minute gametime 10 or so minutes jsut repositioning my army >rome2 is not responding #8ball (nope.avi)
!C0.PerkELE
well thank you I am not doing it again
why don't games have autosaves after stuff like that for fucks sake... is like fucking skyrim in that category too >no autosave before quick travel or sleeping >crashes after >have to do that loading screen again I wish I could shoot the toes of developers behind this shit
I ment to say after but mind me being fucking livid for having 30 or so minutes of my life wasted and have to fight a battle again that i doutb will go as smoothly this time around and that I don't even hve time to do that fucking battle now so yeah time I could have kept playign 40-50 mins now can't keep playing I can't advance that campaign because the game just fucking decided to crash on alt+tab this time around despite supposedly being "borderless window" a game that autosaves on every end of turn, so why can't it also save at the beginning of every turn especially when its turn times can be up to 5+ mins or >end turn >do 4 hours of battles >real time >game crashes on beginning of turn for some reason >Oh I get to do that all over again yeah
Just fucking add an option for autosave after battles, autosave at turn beginning etc... and also >older games had old_autosave Older_autosave oldest_autosave aside autosave newers don't becasue you know, technology and coding degrades as time passes
I fucking bet you that those features aren't even oversights or bugs I bet some twisted developer is taking out their frustration on the consumers, because he keeps getting 60 hour work weeks making these games
my godson is almost 3 years old and barely has any vocabulary it's his only delay from what i understand
by age 3 a kid should have at least 150-200 words in their vocabulary but he only says stuff like "hi" and "no" and mostly just babbles he got evaluated and doesn't seem to be autistic they were gonna get him a speech coach a few months ago but i guess that hasn't happened yet
well that was a weird experience some lady called me over to her car to ask "do I have any Yoplait yoghurts on my truck" like probably I do but I can't just give stuff away lady
i was going to go visit home and see my mom and my doctor around the same time but i decided not to i'll probably give her a call and try to endure talking about something crazy for an hour or so and that'll have to do she just got a new vehicle recently though so i think she is going to be having a good mothers day weekend
ζ
i keep seeing images of horo used for things with a caption on the image about cat girls idk if it's like double irony or if it's just normies ruining everything
>>682014 I dunno. I can manage my mom reasonably well recently. But I'm really mad at my grandmother so I'm avoiding her right now because I don't want to be mean to her.
>>682019 excuse me little mister but we're having a conversation about *mother's day* here you are not going to just sneak in here, drop that link on the table, then go back to your room alone to play those silly video games. You'll stay out here and have a conversation with us like a normal person or else I'm not going to buy you a google play card this weekend when I go to the family dollar for your front line girls or whatever it is.
ζ
that looks suspiciously like role playing but i promise it's just satire
This looks pretty neat. It looks like some current limitations on the kinds of textures it can make, so it's not full spectrum, but even within those limitations you should be able to do a lot, and really well. It'd be really easy to make a bunch of stock images for instance, though I suppose everyone could so there might not be much demand. I think it's a neat tech though
Anno
I have to take this class on Qualitative Research for my major and while I'm kind of uncertain of how much I can get out of it, I do really like the prof. There are some things I'm realising cooperate well with mental approach though.
>>682026 it seems really cool for just world building. say you're just writing some adventure fiction, just having some scenery to help accompany the story and get a feel for the world they're acting within would be pretty neat.
it would be really cool for backdrops on visual novels too, but it looks like it only really does nature things right now. you couldnt really make buildings or chairs or tables with it.
>>682056 good question. I assume because he's able to get the materials fairly cheaply. I dont think i'd be able to produce it for less than 15 bucks to sell it that cheap.
Maria
>>682056 in case anyone tries to steal your switch
idk maybe they do that so there's serration on the back in case you need to cut rope or something
Kirara π
it's probably because it looks chuuni
Anno
>>682060 >>682064 the sawteeth are just for looks because a knife like size isn't gonna be cutting any fucking wood the aesthetic is borrowed from bowie knives which have them because they are for bushcraft and it adds additional utility to the knife allowing you to use it as a saw
it's available in two language how has no translation progress been made in the past six years still stuck halfway finished i could go learn the language and translate it myself before it gets finished sigh
Anno
You'd think there'd be an official translation project by now, eh. Type-MOON's gotten pretty big.
FormerRei !GURPSRWiTs
>>682072 For some reason they don't do official English stuff for their vns
ζ
>>682072 i know right a modernization port for tsukihime would be nice too it can't even be played anymore without extensive workarounds
Anno
It's a really warm and humid for a spring night here. Fog's setting in pretty thick.
seasonal affective disorder is definitely more relevant being this far north i never thought too much of it before even though saint louis has bad winters but it's just that it draws on soooo long that really makes it tough
>>682080 Boktachi wa Benkyou ga Dekinai Fairy Gone Mayonaka no Occult Koumuin Sarazanmai Shoumetsu Toshi Carole & Tuesday
Everything except Shoumetsu Toshi is on episode five. You're probably going to want to get the [PAS] subs for Carole & Tuesday, I don't think anyone else good is subbing it.
i wish netflix would just die already they're clinging onto this world like they still have a place in it and they're bitter and gonna drag as much as possible down into the underworld with them
Kirara π
why doesn't netflix have a place in the world not liking it is one thing but it's a pretty powerful and very much alive force
that's a pretty meaty conversation to get into and isn't it about your beddy-bye time
i don't think such a vent would be a good use of /moe/ and i probably shouldn't have mentioned it
Anno
I get these stupid sores or something on the side of my tongue every now and then and it makes chewing food a real fucking pain. Like both annoying and an actual pain. What a damper on tasty food.
>>682089 what do you mean kept alive by investments you mean shareholders and stuff?
they have net income every year and they acquire a bunch of assets every year even in the case that they didn't have a net income for a year, they'd still probably have several billion in acquired assets for that year they're massive and still quite successful
The party went through the pocket dimension of my 12-year old author insert to do a goofy puzzle and then fight a boss which was an illusion of past versions of strong characters they know in the real world. And those characters are all really strong so it was kindo f neat.
ζ
that sounds neat i can't come up with creative ideas for stuff like that, it's pretty cool
!PAN/yhxnGc
i punched the young version of our benefactor and stole her panties to enrage her then husband-thing
bang
i will not rest until i have defeated a moe at blazblue ton, find me pan
>>682116 well profit isn't a really indicative thing to look at they can choose to take on heavy expenditures to start engaging new opportunities at any time like they dont just have the revenue per year and the cost of operating that one service
they're actually very aggressive in their spending and their expansion, so yeah, some years they end in the red or they might have overall debt at year end but that doesn't really mean much and when they do have profit, it's like 100 million from their revenue of several billion and their assets are in the tens of billions and their yearly debt if they're in the red aren't too massive eithe, unless you look at like 2017 when they did a lot of aggressive spending
it's just a misleading measure of the health of the company. they're healthier than they should be they're still managing to grow every year, and they've always been huge, so it's probably fine for them
all their aggression is a little intrusive though because they eat up so much bandwidth they occupy so much space and just want to take up more and more of it, and they aren't really responsible about their industrial footprint simply by existing they block up a lot of commercial and legal infrastructure and it's kind of a nuisance they're not very considerate and act like all this stuff is in place just for them to operate their business and keep wanting to push harder and harder
they hit their peak a few years ago and people slowly stopped being so attached to them but they can't stand not being that center of attention so they've doubled down on all of that and went into debt to aggressively expand and promise to be 50% original content by 2019, which i dont know if they've achieved or not but they're moving to a point where they're going to occupy all this space but now also have a giant barrier around them to where third party content can't get through. they dont like that people dont want to work with them in their vision of internet and copyright legislature so they wanna push everyone else aside and control it all themselves. that's what they wanna do anyway, but i can't imagine it working out for them it's kind of pitiful to watch happen and that's what i meant about them just dying already. they can still do their business but they don't need to be projecting themselves this hard. just take what you already got and be happy with it
honestly the way it usually ends up is fish wrapped around selachii and then im wrapped around her or the way it starts at least kind of wake up in all kinds of positions
Anno
Fascinatnig
>>682118 I think the original content thing is them spinning the fact that the licenses they have for third-party content are running low and all the original holders aren't interested in continuing the deal with Netflix without them spending egregious money because the original holders are now interested in their own streaming software.
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>>682121 im gonna buy you guys a plush goblin shark for your wedding gift
Kirara π
we'll need a queen size // kind size /// king size bed to handle all the sharks
also sometimes laz ends up squished between me and fish but he usually sleeps next to my head on my pillow or above my head on my pillow since i often don't use my pillow
>>682122 Yeah. comcast universal and some other traditional media platforms that were doing oldschool TV are starting to direct their attention that way too. netflix got a little heady as the powerhouse of internet media, but the traditional media giants still dwarf them. so other places are trying to position themselves to this platform and there's not a lot of incentive to be selling licensing rights to netflix anymore to host your content. it's not like theyve ever been very gracious to their content providers anyway.
>>682131 maybe i can just taxidermy a real one for yall instead
>>682133 that could be pretty cute. sunfish are a funfish
Anno
sunfish plushie
Anno
>>682131 RIP Kirara he's sleepin' with the fishes now.
This makes me dance harder than any electronic song >>>/watch?v=4tyD29Y7Wsk Those orchestra desires flaming up within me be FYE
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>>682156 I like folding one leg under the other. Can only do it for so long though because I don't have great circulation to begin with. I think I just did it too intensely this time and too much of the leg lost circulation.
Anno
Oh the rain from earlier today's come back again. This is the nicest time for it to come on. Nothing like dozing off to the sound of rain.
Anno
Some day a shooting star is gonna shoot me down Turn these high-rises back into a ghost town
ζ
Um, excuse me, but that is statistically improbable, eckyukyuk
im filling out a health risk assessment for my blue cross program one of the first questions is "how happy are you" i genuinely dont know heh gosh. im pretty happy given my situation but overall probably not pretty happy, very happy, or not at all
it's for my health risk assessment i want to say "not sure what the future holds" but not looking forward is probably a much more appropriate answer gien the changes ive made in expectations for quality of life
Maria
>>682248 Who could answer "very happy" Do such people exist, who can honestly describe themselves as being "very happy" on a consistent day to day basis And yeah the gap between not happy at all and pretty happy is zero to a hundred
i think people can say yes to that it doesn't mean everything is going well in their life or that they're satisfied with everything i think it's more about being meaningfully engaged and motivated, even if the situations you're engaging aren't where you'd like them to be if there's some way you can push forward then i think that makes a person happy
and i'd say very happy would be feeling that way about all your engagements in life somewhat happy would be having to engage a lot of situations which don't offer you that opportunity and unhappy would probably be most situations affecting your quality of life are those which you can't control and don't have a path to move forward
>>682252 We might just be working on very different definitions of "happy" But I don't think I've ever met someone who could truly say that they're consistently very happy. Everyone's sad or frustrated at some point. I wouldn't say that motivation and engagement are necessarily indicators of happiness either, beut I would say that they're an important aspect of someones wellbeing
>>682265 if they did something that // said something that hurt me on a really deep level. if it was heated and they just said mean things on a surface level like that was somewhat relevant to my faults as a person, that's understandable because im sure it's probably frustrating. but if it went a little deeper to invoke shame on who i am as a person, i would not be willing to be around that person anymore because of how it would make me feel, so i guess you could call that stopping being their friend.
sometimes they haven't necessarily even done something wrong, and the shame i feel is from my misdeeds. in those cases i would probably also stop contacting the person because i feel bad for doing so and i dont want them to deal with me anymore.
lastly would be that it's not sustainable, that we've moved apart or hang out with different crowds that there's just not a place for each other anymore and we grow apart. that happens more often than i'd like as my friends mature and disconnect from their youthful endeavors while i really cling to mine and think they're really important.
thanks for your answers, they are really helpful >>682271 that looks like a certain style of an artist I like >>682273 probably so I stopped talking to this guy six months ago though before that we used to hang out all the time
>>682274 if you wanted to talk in detail and get something off your chest im down to listen but i imagine you probably are intentionally not dropping details for a reason
Maria
>>682274 If you haven't talked to them in six months you could just leave it dead if you really want to. If neither of you feel like making contact with the other then why bring it up with them If you want closure then I think it'd be worth at least bringing it up then. Worst case you just confirm your thoughts and end the friendship, best case they reflect on their actions and any misunderstandings can be cleared.
>>682276 ganbatte leave some oxygen in your muscles for the big test
>>682277 thanks, I might consider that, although I might take a raincheck for RIGHT NOW because I want to get home at some point could just chuck a /realtalk/ thread up later I spouse
i would add in response to >>682274 sometimes im not sure how i should act in some situations based on how im being perceived and what's appropriate
there are times when things seem quiet and kind of inactive so i'll start pushing conversation or activity forward a little bit thinking im being helpful and making it more comfortable for the other person/people to talk come to find out later that it seems to others like im being really impulsive and obnoxious because im talking too much
that happened a few times even here on /moe/, id be trying to engage people when they'd come on and make them feel welcome and appreciated, but it might come off as obnoxious or too demanding to @ them every time they said something.
on the same side of things, i feel like if i dont say anything sometimes i come off as really cold or uncaring or people might feel unwelcome whenever nobody responds to them. in that way i come off as really distant to people sometimes. i can have a bit of a temperament sometimes and get frustrated at people but that's because they matter enough to me that they can have that impact on me, and someone i dont care about wouldnt.
all im getting at is they might not be aware theyre being potentially toxic. they might think they're behaving in a way that they ought to given a situation. some people for instance will be really rude and nasty to a waiter if their order comes out wrong, and they feel like they're doing a good thing for the people they're with rather than being passive and letting them suffer for it, not realizing that it's extremely awkward and uncomfortable when somebody at your table makes a scene over something nobody cares about like getting a baked potato instead of mashed potatoes as a side
>>682279 just tell me next time someone from the government is fucking with you We can take them to the Federal Court under s39B of the Judiciary Act and apply for some common law writs
>>682275 HEY blame this guy in fact he gave me the worst pitch on the show I already knew enough about the show to want to watch it but I did a full 360 after he tried to convince me
Or if it's a 'decision of an administrative character made under enactment' we can apply for a remedy under the ADJR (1977) which is preferable to a common law writ because you don't need to apply for a specific remedy and there are wider grounds for review under s5,6 and 7
>>682282 sounds like someone I'd want to clock in the eye
Anno
>>682278 yeah I guess I can go either way closure might stop them appearing in my dreams probably not
Maria
>>682285 How often are they in your dreams? I think what moon's saying at the moment is important too. Perhaps you've raised it before, maybe maybe not, but they might just not know what it is they're doing. They might think that everyone else is in on the joke, or they might think they're laughing with you instead of at you, or they might mistake being a dick for not being a dick You don't have to and shouldn't put up with it but I think you should at least state it
>>682285 thats kind of surprising to hear someone you haven't talked to in half a year is showing up in your dreams i guess they had a big effect on your life? i dunno how dreams actually work though personally i would let sleeping dogs lie if i hadn't spoken to them in so long but it might be better to talk to them if you're still thinking about it after this long that way at least youll have NO RAGRETS >>682289 i don't usually have anyone that i know or recognize in my dreams i guess rarely do i even recognize people as people i actually know in real life anyways
>>682280 ah I see where you're coming from I would like to expand more on but I'm in a limited position right now I think I'll most likely drop it off in a /rt/ >>682286 they appear every now and then last one we looked like completely different people and we were yelling at each other in the street , like we we almost got into fisticuffs but were separated
they were probably my own im here spamming posts all day long even when no one is here and when people are here it just gets me excited enough so i spam even more and they get annoyed and leave i wish people would stick around more
>>682291 I think you're too hard on yourself, bud.
Maria
>>682291 I think that's taking on a ridiculous amount of blame /moe/ has many people and your posts are not the sole determinant of someones quality of experience here That's just disproportionately harsh on yourself
probably, but ever since i stopped drinking and taking my anxiety meds, benzos im just hyperaware of everything i do I'm at all times recounting in my head every time ive drunkenly lashed out at the people who were trying to emotionally support me during hard times, and im recounting all the times after taking my anxiety meds where id freely say whatever came to mind and talk about how i dont have any emotional support structure and how i wish i had friends, not even aware how badly i was treating my friends who were trying to support me i treated moe like my personal trashing ground to just dump all my emotions and try to make me feel better, but wasted other people's times on what wasnt even my pure feelings but just intoxicated pleas
even if things right now arent my fault right now over the long term it has been. ive personally fashioned this into a place where a lot of personal sentiments have become unwelcome, and those that do come do so while leaving some of their qualities at the door, whether they realize theyre doing it or not it's really unfortunate and i wish i could undo a lot of things
>>682303 Holy shit does he have a second form after this
>>682306 Wow Fromsoft should have hired you to write
Stick that in an ingame riddle
>>682302 I think people are more honest than you might be thinking here and that if someone had something to say to you they'd have said it already Don't beat yourself up when every response is telling you not to
>>682304 People are usually more willing to position themselves in a way that adjusts their expectations than they are to ask other people to adjust their positioning to meet expectations
>>682308 You already shuffled positions and made apologies about things though. Communication is a two way street and by this point if someone held something against you it'd be on them to say something. There's no need for you to blame yourself
>>682315 Oh boy is he going to make beast blood real? Can we please live in a future of crazed beserkers piloting gundams Like every time you pilot one you gain great strength but slowly lose your grip on reality And they're made to fight horrible ancient aliens
FormerRei@mobile
Ohio
Anno
>>682309 don't show up to the exam in your underwares
nothing, just most people playing this game can't add, subtract, or find a prime number between 3 and 13
Anno
oh I guess that was more obvious than I thought
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in dota, doom used to have a skill lvl?death which just did damage based on whether the opponent's level was a multiple of the indicator on the skill i think it was 5, 4, and 3 or maybe 6 4 and 2 and man people got so confused by that shit that they had to remove it
>>682329 i mean his mechanics are somewhat intense otherwise but they're nothing compared to the clusterfuck that is thundergod and the final boss of the raid afterwards which pugs usually fare better on
it's just a unique unexpected mechanic and people are sadly VERY BAD at first grade maths >>682330 oh i remember that that's a cool spell concept though >>682334 uhhhh 7
im a little surprised youve been around long enough to know him by the name clg but i dont really get what thats supposed to mean either he doesnt really come here except to do that one thing he just did
Kirara π
>>682304 >pick up a note right before the gate >"go thanos on his ass"
Maria
>>682337 I'm supposed to expand inside the monks ass?
Kirara π
>>682338 wanna come to the US and hallucinate on a mountain or in a cave or something, maria?
Maria
>>682339 Yeah but I'm not willing to spend 2K flying to the us and back
>>682349 When Shakyamuni Buddha attained enlightenment, he announced, "How miraculous! Everything has attained enlightenment!" That's because he knew that we are all god.
And I'm going to beat everything to death with my fists!
did you guys know that raw information itself has thermodynamic energy? or rather that thermodynamic energy can be extracted from information? it makes sense to think that energy is composed of information, but it's in the same way that matter is energy
Well, if I'm saving $6k on rent, I can spend the rest on guns, make land mines, etc. Let me see. For a thousand dollars, I can make roughly 4200 landmines.
i just watched that for the first time last night it was pretty bizarre in a good way theres a lot of cool stuff this season and even the not too cool stuff is still kind of cool there's not a lot of trash
Kirara π
sarazanmai is probably gonna be runner up AOTS for me it's so good based ikuhara
>>682393 i think it's important to be able to cope with things yeah but if you think there's actually something that could revitalize anime, there's no reason not to pursue that
it just seems like theres fewer every day you know, even hatemail chan hasn't thought to write me in almost two years even my biggest critic doesn't care enough >>682395 this part was really fun
one time i got really upset while having an episode when fish was still missing, and i said i was going to leave /moe/ because it didn't feel like the old /moe/ anymore and i didn't feel like i had a place here anymore and you kinda said that i was just upset that things were changing a little and that i couldn't talk to rika as often and i should just accept /moe/ as it is and you were right about that i think /moe/ only really exists here and now, the old /moe/ that we used to have doesn't exist. everything is constantly flowing and changing so quickly that the /moe/ i just said exists here and now doesn't even exist anymore i think we just gotta accept the fluctuating nature of it i dont think accepting it means we can't work to make /moe/ more like the place we'd like it to be but i think accepting it as it is without getting lost in the past is the way to enjoy it right now
Yeah, i know you're right about that. i dont get the luxury of a gentle transition though really. i just kind of wake up with what im left with and it's not at all where it was when i went to sleep
thanks for the talk i gotta get back to work. dont worry about it too much if i make a few more odd posts it's just to get things out of the back of my mind that keep nagging me while working but dont mean a whole lot
>>682407 Haha, wakaranai. My training at this place is completely non-directive. The first day, I just walked around and asked questions and then sat in on a group. Yesterday, I sat in the conference room waiting for someone to come tell me what to do before someone told me I should just go shadow groups more, so I did that, but no one actually had something concrete for me to do. There's a potluck this morning, and then some kind of agency-wide training? And then I think there are groups? But I have no idea. I just know something starts at 10 so I'll be there and I'll wing it from there.
the potluck is kind of weird because it's a going away party for the people im replacing haha i only just found out so i didn't have time to bake anything so i bought some sweets to bring
it's the type of shit chuuni phoney people say and i guess it more technically is crazy but statistically anyone who says it is prolly chuuni af and making shit up so anyone who says it sounsd like that and it's criiiinge im fine with sounding like i legitimately have a mental issue but i dont want to sound like the chuuni attention-seeking sparky type crazy
Kirara π
why's that worse than being looked at as crazy
Maria
well you can't just not say it after bringing it up can't just tease some chuuni dialogue and then not deliver
>>682415 that's the worst thing, being thought of as making stuff up for attention or alternatively that youre not making stuff up but that youre naive and dont know better, or that you dont have any reservation and diligence it's like cringe but it's happening to you in real time
I wont be consuming any, but I'll probably be there. I figure it'll be fun just to hang out. You know, make sure everyone stays safe. mother hen moon shepherding her shroomy chicks back to the roost
I can stop stalking these numbers for now. Nothing too shocking will happen until three hours from now. I can't wait to hit 25k where I can do this a LOT easier. Should be able to do it by next year.
and even if this goes down, I've got my other portfolio that's being pretty successful right now. My spending money has taken a hit so I'm going to be living a little less recklessly until CON SEASON.
reminder that i bought half a bitcoin in mid 2016 for 400 dollars and had to sell it in order to pay a $500 heating bill because my roommate did not want to pay half of it and heat would have gotten shut off otherwise life is such a fucking joke sometimes the heating didnt even work, it was borked. thats why it ran up it worked after the service fee to fix it
Anno
Life only works on the assumption you've got the money to pay for it.
to be fair though my only plan for it was to wait until i had 2k to buy a kilo of bath salts still woulda been a better investment though >>682459 doesnt matter to me i dont even have money to invest in lunch
That satire came off as sounding more directed i just got done finishing tc'ing interviews of an internal investigations on a creepy staff member who wasn't respecting boundaries well, for like the last 10 hours that's where the satire was directed
FormerRei@mobile
Okay
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though it was a pretty odd thing to post about like was she outlandishly tall or something
tall moe is a thing but I think it's common knowledge that I prefer shorter girls
Anno
Six feet feels pretty normal for a girl for me. Like not in it being a statistical norm but I wouldn't look at a girl that height and thing "oh she's tall". Maybe if she was from a background of not typically that tall but that's getting into specifics.
FormerRei@mobile
I mean its not particularly tall. The clerk I saw was like 6'4" or 6'5" though.
i think being too tall is a little awkward. like i dont judge anyone based on it but im a little taller than i'd like to be the taller you get, the worse your circulation is, the less comfort you get out of taking a lay-down bath the more you feel awkward and scraggly
i think maybe two inches shorter would be fine by me. i think short is pretty cute too, for both guys or girls tall girls can be pretty appealing since, in my experience at least, they tend to be kind of athletic and tomboyish. that's a good trait i think
FormerRei@mobile
I like tomboys a lot. They're are some traits associated with feminity that I dislike. *There And generally tomboyish girls don't have them.
Talesof !NuKeSlvmWE
the ideal is being able to rest your chin on top of your partner's head easily.
>>682480 you'll never get to experience the joys of standing on your tip toes to kiss someone or being able to rest your head on their shoulder or to be the little spoon
>>682497 if you did come to denver we could finally hang out i never got to meet up with you it'd be nice to i'd really enjoy that
i guess im talking too early though since i dont even know if i can afford to go but yeah im totally sober now too so i dont do all those stupid things i used to do
Anno
It would be good to have some sober people around too to keep the shroom'd folks from getting carried away.
okay one of you responsible people im about to (try) to call and cancel an appointment with one doctor, find a new doctor near me, and schedule a new patient appointment with that new doctor
How do I do: 1.) ANY OF THIS 2.) same
Anno
Probably something like, "Hi, my name is <NAME> and I'm calling to cancel an appointment on <DATE>" If they ask you for a reason the fact that you're no longer living in the State anymore is probably more than a good enough reason for it.
The rest of your problems are kind of specific to your location and probably some stuff that is dependent more on American healthcare culture so I'm not sure how well I'd be able to help, sorry.
I think the first thing you should do is find the new doctor. Schedule that appointment and then cancel the other one. It feels a lot more assuring to cancel something when you've already found the replacement.
Kirara π
>>682502 >>682503 so first, denver is a large city there's no like middle of nowhere denver second rocky mountain park and pikes peak are also not middle of nowhere third, i can't oxycondone your face bitch
>>682510 >>682511 do i need to do something to get my medical records to the new place? how do i find a psychiatrist in my network and who would treat me? a lot of them look like they only deal in certain issues or certain age groups >>682514 the clinic i currently use is in another state. is there an alternative way to do that? i have a feeling they're going to ask me to FAX something i cant do that
typically you can sign a written records release at the clinic you currently use and then tell them where you want it to go (or you can have your new clinic send them a release you'll still need to sign something). As for finding a physician in network, the best way is to ask your insurance. Yes we know that's a pain but they're the ones who would know. So probably try to find some physicians you might be interested in.
>>682513 sign the release at your new clinic of choice and they'll send it to the clinic you went to and yes they will likely fax this but the clinics here at least have fax machines for this purpose.
Anno
>>682512 I was just jooookinnnng (mostly) about it being the middle of nowhere. Ain't nowhere really the middle of nowhere that assumes nowhere is one single contingent space. Being out deep in a relatively uninhabited place like the park and Pike's Peak would be a good way of avoiding troubling strangers though!
don't become a doctor. i dont see any benefit to making such a decision for a career change. there are lots of ways to move upward within the medicine industry without being in medicine. knowledge of systems and procedures is enough to warrant keeping you in the industry and applying skills you already have from compsci. there's no reason at all to go back to school for a different degree.
i know it was probably a joke but i felt like typing that post out because it's easier than thinking about what i should be doing
Kirara π
there's a counselor here i met today with arms thicker than my head this dude is MR MUSCLE like the fuckin Rock or some shit he was like super marine spec ops sniper dude but he got fucked up and had to get new hips and shoulders so he got discharged and decided to become a counselor he seems cool, he specializes in VR therapy he has a high powered rig in his office with a VR headset and a driving wheel and shit like that if this chris redfield looking motherfucker punched me in the head my head would probably fly off
also i saw a client walking around who can't stop saying things in a sing song voice? isn't psychotic so wtf? nobody knows
like they're just singing words instead of saying them? is that strange? i mean it's not something people do all the time but it's not something i think is really bewildering to see maybe im misunderstanding
Kirara π
everything they say, they say it in a singy sort of voice yeah they're singing everything it's very strange people do not usually sing every single thing they say and they want to stop but they can't
ζ
it sounds like they're incredibly nervous when im nervous and preparing for something im uncomfortable to do i'll say things to myself and when the nerves get too stimulated it's easier to // >>682526 like not just there at the clinic but all the time you're saying?
Kirara π
no they cannot stop doing it there's like something wrong that is causing them to have this problem in all situations it's not a compulsion or a tic it's just that they can't stop doing it if they grunt they do it like they're singing all of the noises they intentionally make with their mouth come out like they're singing those noises
Kirara π
>>682525 yeah all the time apparently their PCP told them to see a psychologist about it
ζ
i thought it was just constantly, but episodic here at the clinic which would make sense if they were nervous and now there's so much attention on it they have no way of calming down but yeah i see now
Kirara π
im pretty sure it's gotta be some kinda brain problem idk maybe a tumor or something i cant think of any other reason it could happen recommending neurological eval
i mean it could be a muscular thing or laryngeal thing where a steady state can't be held so the only natural motion is to modulate the pitch and enveloping like it could be horribly uncomfortable and a conscious thing or the muscles involuntary reacting to the strain of speech by contracting and the neurologic impulse carries it through impulsively by muscle memory as singing which the person would have to fight really hard to try and resist it could be an issue with the motor nerves, i think the vagus nerve does the voice and swallowing and stuff but idk motor nerves spasming in certain environments or under certain triggers or under certain physiological duress a neuralgia of sorts, not unlike the spasmodic behavior of the trigeminal nerve that leads to visual aura and migraines
im not sure, just throwing ideas out there. it sounds terrible though, poor fella
Kirara π
haha yeah it's fucked up like crying but musically
well everyone has something similar in response to heavy emotional stress or sympathetic overload people get cracking voices and overmodulate when they're talking while crying or really emotional just in order to preserve speech as the sounds are more clunky and you have to carry it through the pitch a bit i would immediately think that either's he's constant in severe severe distress, possibly because visits to the doctor are incredibly stressful and that's when he's being observed and he doesn't talk much at home
or that there's some effect on either the laryngeal muscles or the vagus nerve. that could be directly from the brain, basal ganglia or brain stem or something, or it could be something totally different like insulin levels or liver dysfunction causing imbalances of gluconeogenic enzymes or like idk a lot of things. nerves require a lot of stuff going on to make them work right. and maybe it's a combination of being in mild distress plus any sort of other condition and of course, maybe he's faking it to get out of jury duty
im trying to make an account for this transportation thing so that i can actually get a ride to my doctor's visits if i ever can get one it asks who's filling out the registration and theres a selection for SELF so i click SELF and it fails to register saying that self registration isnt allowed
but any other selection, including sibling, parent, child, spouse, friend, relative, et cetera all work fine and it's run separately from my health program gosh it's gonna be one of those things where nothing ever works. my plan is Healthy Michigan Blue Cross and where it says to choose my plan (for the transportation) it has Healthy Michigan Michigan Medicaid or AmeriHealth Blue Cross i dont show up under healthy michigan or michigan medicaid, but i have no idea what amerihealth is other than it not being anything to do with my plan. but it has blue cross on there so it has me under it if i do the search
im getting really bad vibes about this
ζ
im not sure about this kind of research
FormerRei@mobile
So the people I'm staying with in North Carolina have a 24 pound cat.
the one time i actually try to communicate with my mother and do something nice despite our toxic relationship what the fuck kind of question is she asking what's wrong with her
I was able to positively remove my position from a sinking ship before the market closed. I have to hold a day trade mark on my account for a week but I should be fine. so much tension at the end of the day
Sounds like you're making some dangerous choices instead of doing those long term investments you were talking about? Did you get intoxicated by the gamburu?
I'm doing both. The long term ones were the ones that really pushed me over the $400 mark. The short term stuff is only like... less than 10% of my collection. But sometimes you gotta go hard. If I had just left it at the 300 I put in, I'd have lost money rather than made any. In any case, fuck BRS. it's a sinking ship and it's got five months to figure out how to get to $1 and they'll fail unless they do a reverse split.
the harms of this practice that has been going on for thousands of years and has been considered helpful and beneficial across nearly every culture and civilization in recorded history one of the only things that is actually considered beneficial universally and throughout time
it seems much more likely that poor mental health and improper meditation (e.g. ruminating instead of actually meditating) would be the link
the reason there is very little literature on the harms on meditation is that none of the studies that actually examine meditation in a standardized setting and train people to meditate don't find harms when they look
in fact meditation is probably one of the most studied practices in psychology which is the reason the majority of widely used treatment modalities in the past 20 years have had a focus on mindfulness which includes meditation
i got a set of keys for work and i don't know what they go to i asked the person who gave me them and she told me one was the master key which it obviously was but for the other two keys, ill have to figure out what they're for what does that mean
Anno
I guess it's some kind of orientation game they play maybe?
it's more like "i don't know what those keys go to so you'll have to try them out on things" that's the impression i got also two of the keys look exactly the same and when i look at the keys other people have, they all have three keys just like me but the two keys that aren't the master key look different? mine are shaped like normal house keys but other people have ones with square bottoms
FormerRei@mobile
It's not that weird for the bottoms to be different but the key part to be the same.
Kirara π
it's kind of weird for an organization that gives keys to its employees to have different types of keys that do the same thing it doesn't make sense and if they were all the same key, it wouldn't have been hard to tell me what they were for and why do i have two of the same exact key? it's weird
work was alright it seems like everyone has really high expectations of me the big bossu asked me if i would do an MMPI for every single intensive outpatient (IOP) client we have and continue to do them as we admit more people to the program and someone else asked if i would do MMPIs "retroactively" for IOP clients and i don't know what that means exactly but i guess i'll find out then some other guys came up to me and started asking me if i would help design a system of evaluating client progress in a specific program we just started. it's the first instance of the program in the country for the organization that the clinic is part of and they're using us as a test run because our clinic is considered really good and people fly from out of state to be at it but the people running it aren't clinical psychologists so they don't know anything about testing and they want me to basically come up with a short, simple test battery that they can do for the clients to track their progress and prove that the program is resulting in improvements for the clients and they want to monitor depression, anxiety, traumatic stress, interpersonal difficulties, isolation, dissociation, derealization, and a bunch of other symptoms
also apparently i might have to go kayaking with the clients in that program? i don't really understand but the person in charge of that program said it would be necessary for a clinical person to do that starting maybe in a few months and that it'd probably be me so i was like haha okay
anyway it seems like i have an opportunity to do tons of work and i haven't even started seeing clients officially yet
ζ
a system you say
Anno
Kayaking is fun and a good upper body workout definitely worth.
haha well the clients in that program are all big tough war vets and retired cops that need to be deprogramed so they can participate in society again
and i'm a dude without too much macho posturing shit and i also happen to not like cops or troops so i don't know how well i'll mesh with them but i'll do my best
even the name of the program made me cringe internally the guy was explaining it to me like "the idea is that there are sheep and then there are those that step out of the herd to fight the wolves" and i was like "haha yeah for sure"
and when i have to go kayaking and stuff that'll be on saturdays apparently? i still don't know if that'll happen and it's not really a problem if i have to give up my saturdays sometimes but it feels like i'm being tied into a lot of obligations behind the scenes! they haven't even had a chance to see how good my clinical work is but they're already relying on me for so much! it seems like a bad way to do things for them.
i'm pretty sure working at this place is gonna raise my level pretty high though it feels like power leveling i'm gonna get so much experience i'm like level 20 right now as a psychologist but i'm gonna be like level 60 by the time i get out i'm gonna be ready for lategame!
Yeah, I'm probably gonna be really busy. It's too bad I don't get paid there. But if I want to use assessments we don't have, I can get them to buy them for me, which is cool.
I'm gonna be working with lots of different people, too. \ There's the big Rock looking guy, who does VR there's the guy who asked me to find assessments for the sheepdog thing then there are like two therapists i'll be working with in groups, one of them is from Honduras. She's really cool and expressive so the clients get wrapped up in the pace she sets. I can't do that kind of thing because I'm not very expressive. Then there's the big bossu, the dude who had that failed TV show. and then the clinical coordinator and the psychiatrist? i don't think i'll be working with the acupuncturist/chiropractor or the message therapist
The team is really tightly nit, and everyone is always bantering with each other. It seems like a really fun group. I usually feel a little out of place with new groups, especially when they're tightly nit, but I feel pretty at home and I was bantering with everyone like I've known them forever. It was cool.
We're expanding a lot, so I might get to work at a sober house, too. It's really easy to get caught up in the rhythm of the place and I feel a lot of freedom, so it doesn't feel uncomfortable at all even though I have no idea what's going on right now.
Fish is probably gonna be mad that I'll be so busy, though.
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think i might have fractured something in my hand it still hurts to bend my fingers
yeah i think i'm really on their wavelength they were already teaching me how to trick insurance into actually helping people
and they even acknowledged that we had to trick insurance into helping people and were complaining that we have to exaggerate people's problems sometimes in our notes so insurance will help them
>>682577 i got into a scuffle with the tree and lost >>682578 yeah probably, I worked the day after with minor inconvenience >>682580 it was very much on purpose and now i pay for my disrespect towards nature
>>682587 you have a good point, but i learned this really cool piece of smarts when i got my masters degree and it's that contrary to popular belief, breaking your bones is not good and you can cope by doing something like breathing or using a grounding technique instead
well thank gosh for kratom i can just choose not to feel any of this right now that's pretty handy and if that doesnt work ive got half a liter of methanol and a few seasons of precure for a really rainy day
I found my truth and it filled me all up. For the past few months, I've felt really good. I faced myself and admitted to myself the things I didn't want to. I know where my happiness is now.
You'll find your truth, too. I'm happy to see you starting to put yourself out there a little more and having the resources to do that.
Kirara π
>The first soundtrack album, covering the first 12 episodes and comprising 20 tracks, is to be released on July 10, 2019, and on digital services on May 29, 2019. The album is to consist of songs written for the series' characters by the contributing musicians.[11] holy shit, C&T is going to have 20 tracks just for the first 12 episodes
>>682594 it feels like a down tick to me because of how abrupt and jarring a lot of it is. i haven't had any time to acclimate and all the dependencies i left in place, socially and logistically and healthwise, arent here now. ive only had a couple of weeks it's really hard to figure a lot of things out that i wasnt here for
I just preordered the C&T vocal CD vol 1. It's kind of expensive, but every single episode has had something so beautiful that I teared up or almost teared up. I have to support it.
>>682596 From my perspective, for the last few weeks, you've seemed more alive than you have in years.
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I really liked the songs from this week's episode. Both Carole and Tuesday's and Angela's songs were nice.
The show is just so beautiful. The direction is amazing. They bring out the beauty of every song with the direction. Every time they sing, I get emotional.
I can't imagine anything being better than this show this year. It's a shame Ikuhara chose this season for Sarazanmai because it's totally outclassed when it comes to AOTS!
>>682608 You haven't seen me really in a long time besides these past few weeks i came out for a little bit when i watched cross ange but that was just for a spell it was back in early 2017 when i was in a really satisfying spot, but i could feel it was slipping away so i shut off i said bye to you guys and everything but you probably just thought i was being weird that's where i left everything at and it's changed a whole lot which is what made me really uncomfortable
i did a lot of really awful things to you guys while i wasnt me and i pushed away people i really cared about. it's kind of horrifying and i still get the phantom sensations of friendships being where they were then and i try to reach for it but it's so awkwardly clumsy because it's changed and things arent there so im way overshooting boundaries and not knowing why they exist or what caused them. on moe but in real life too. the memories are accessible but it's not really there, i have to work to go find them and work things out.
im really happy to be back to being me but it's incredibly hard to stay like this without some external grounding which hasn't been easy to find. i think it probably sounds crazy, or probably more chuuni than crazy, but it's not like i havent been saying it forever now. and even if it's not a real physiological thing and it's a delusion, it's still convincing enough to me to have a tangible functioning impact in that way. haven't we gone through this before several times? we must have
I see what you mean now. It doesn't really seem chuuni to me. You're just describing a phenomenon you're experiencing the best you can.
But with that context, the ways you've seemed different lately make more sense to me.
>>682607 I don't know how identity disorders work, but I've mentioned in the past that I generally take what people tell me at face value unless I need to be suspicious for some reason. If you experience there being two of you, then that's what you experience. I have no way of verifying that, and there's no point in doubting it, so I just accept it as your experience. Objective truth is something I can never grasp, so it's not something I'm concerned with.
However, from my perspective, it's hard to imagine there being two of you, so I guess I treat you as one. Sorry if that's offensive. When I say hard to imagine, I mean, because there's only one of you physically, my brain naturally assumes there's only one of you regardless of how many of you there actually are. I naturally see the opposite, being zero, as being one as well, because of the physical body. If that makes sense.
I've just said it in the way that makes it the most digestible with the least conceptual confusion. It's a logistically inaccurate description but I dont wan't to drag you or /moe/ through obscenely long monologue about very formless concepts. there's not much point nor is it really my place. im the one that yearns for human connection so im trying to be as human and relatable as possible to my friends for sustainability purposes. i really missed you guys a lot but i can't really live down the way a part of me has been this past period and what it's done to you guys or the position it's left me in. it's really unfortunate. im trying hard to be good at this again though and i dont particularly want to drive a lot of stiff awkwardness around this into ubiquity
but to just hitch it back onto the initial point i was trying to make, having kratom to fill that gap of phantom sense is helping me not fall back to that dark place where i can't do anything i try not to rely on it and try to push myself to the space i need for agency but it's not a smooth transition because of that gap im being really socially clumsy a lot here too and keep doing awkward things so i hope you guys understand a little bit
sorry ive had the strangest urge to watch precure i think it's just because of the op
it's really just a functional response though. it gets mystified or sensationalized a lot but just early traumatic events and stuff. if you dont want to fully lose your humanity, you partition off the part you want to save and you fight really, really, really hard to protect it and nurture it, and try to make a world where it's safe to be that again. it's really not that strange i think, and i think everyone does it to some extent, but the point of disconnect is a rather extreme one. i hope it also explains why ive sometimes been so awful to some of you guys in the sense of protecting bad stimuli from penetrating very deep into me or not letting people get too close it doesnt really make me a better person though.
i would be happy if someone could please take over the spotlight here i feel embarrassed so i feel like i have to keep talking and it's making it worse
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Sorry Moon I'm walking to the pizza parlour so I'm on my phone. Buy Bit hard to be spotlight-y on that platform.
>>682618 Just extra cheese and sauce with some sweet garlic and pepper seasoning on top. They've got a walk-in special for a single topping and since there isn't really any topping I like in isolation, I just go for extra cheese.
The extra sauce and seasoning is free of charge so I like to take advantage of it.
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>>682617 tbh if i have one topping, mushrooms or onions actually arent bad, provided theyre the good mushrooms and not the shit ones maybe you should get olives just an olive pizza
marcos keeps sending me 50% off coupons "up to $20" but their code is backwards so it only applies the coupon if you're above $20, to no limit, 50% off it's a ridiculously good deal but even then it's a bit harsh on my budget
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>>682621 Hah hah I don't really like mushrooms or olives much. Onions are great though I do love me some onion. I'll consider it for other pies in the future.
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If I'm going on a pizza I really like onions and some kind of chicken. In the past I'd tried putting bell peppers on it too but that gets the individual slices too heavy and kind of a hassle to eat. So I changed to just getting extra cheese.
The place I ordered from does green olives and Kalamata olives, but no black ones, unless that's what Kalamata are colloquially known as.
Anno
>The Kalamata olive is a large black or brown olive Well maybe they are.
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kalamata olives are not the black olive or green olive whether or not they are black, black olives are a type of olive
Anno
Wikipedia provides a whole buncha olive varieties but doesn't really help make clear what of those kinds typically go on pizza without reading the actual variety articles hah hah.
what do you guys think im cheatin hard with this coupon to save over 20 bucks but tax and delivery it still ends up bein 30 bucks that's kind of a lot but that's also a lot of food i could totally eat for like three days off that
i could go to family dollar and buy a shit ton of food for 30 bucks but i dont think those products are very quality and ive been doin it a lot idk this is probably a waste i shouldnt waste money
Kirara π
yeah go ahead and treat yourself it's okay once and a while
>>682636 nooooo eww >>682634 i dunno 30 bucks feels like a lot i wanna remove the salad but then i see that only changes it by like two bucks cuz the coupon and i think dang thats a good deal the 2-liters are like 2.50 with the coupon i could just buy like 30 of them at 1.25 each
Kirara π
you gotta beat the meat if you're making him a steak
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weird I put on my sunglasses and now I can't read my computer screen????
Kirara π
>>682639 yeah but 60 liters of cherry coke isn't as filling as pizza and salad and stuff
yeah but all the guys i know are clients hmm well there is a hot hispanic guy i know he's hot and has his shit together an all around good guy almost everyone i know is a woman though haha
for the money used on this pizza i coulda bought fresh blueberries, bison meat or chicken thighs, brown rice and a bunch of vegetables, some cubed pork belly, those juicy mushrooms and made a big stir fry with uhh some mapo dofu on the side and throw it all in the trash because there's no one here to enjoy it
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I'm fond of a good chicken onion pepper stir fry. We've only got an electric stove though so it's not perfect for stir-frying.
>>682669 electric works fine for stir fries man i used to haev // have a big wok and a pizza stone and really good knives and a bunch of cool kitchen stuff and i had to get rid of all of it after moving so many times i miss cooking so much
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I can cook enough to sustain myself but I don't have a lot of complex cooking under my belt. The only real claim to fame would probably be Tikka Masala from relative scratch. It was some good Tikka Masala though.
Koi
>>682663 yeah that was like the big thing That's what really got me hurt. I wanted my Junji Ito game
you know what i havent had in a long time? a big juicy early morning grapefruit it's such a good way to start the day do you like a grapefruit blue
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My dad's really fond of that. I was joking with Kirara about him bringing up some Florida grapefruits for him but he would probably be really happy with those. My granddad, before he sold the winter home he had in Florida, had a grapefruit tree on his land lot. On the rare time we visited them down there when I was a kid I remember being able to just eat grapefruits literally off that tree for breakfast.
looks like ive been kicked off /moe/ for the night by ton! how cruel! im going to go cry into my pillow in the bed im definitely not about to go to sleep it im leaving because of ton so don't get confused and assume im going to bed just because my patterns of behavior historically having me go to bed at 9pm don't get the wrong idea
no friday shows right? or is it a "sometimes" thing? probably consistently no im guessing
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Used to be a sometimes but more recently seems to be a no dice. If we are watching stuff the new stuff would be Hitoribocchi, Senryuu Shoujo, JoJo's, and Fruits Basket.
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and what days does jan join us
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Hm, Fridays are more not than often I think. He's usually around Saturday night but Rika's almost always out then. I think he's around Sundays most of the time though. He's been working his MMO job a lot these nights though so he's been busy with that.
i could invite some outsiders to join next season to save anime but one comes, one left if another comes then rika might leave too i dunnoooo
kinshi isn't that much of an outsider though i should bring him to /moe/ sometime
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I'm not too worried about Rika abandoning anime I think she rather enjoys watching. Ika might just need something to revitalize the spirit a bit. Or y'know. Absinthe makes the heart grow fonder.
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he dipped on such a good season though and he's stuck it out through so many of the bad ones
actually i think last time i was watching with you guys was, uh when granblue was airing haha he was so excited for that i remember
and i could probably bully kannagi into joining us a little bit at least one or two days
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Well she's talked about wanting to occasionally in the past, so yeah, not impossible I'd wager. Lining things up with the time leap across the pond would be the hindrance I suppose.
i think it'd work out she's more of an AM person anyway, and she doesnt have that ridiculous commute to that shitty bank anymore snagging a few hours in the AM is probably doable. just needs a little bit of nudging in the right direction otherwise she forgets what she was doing
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Yeah that's true. Even if she's up at 06:00 she can probably catch the second or third show onward.
oh i could always invite that guy from my last dota team that always wanted to ask me about anime! you know, the one with the quarter-flipping randomness and the "pff how bad can it be? have you heard of goblin slayer??"
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Yeah, I remember. That one might be a bit of a left-field entrance though. At least Kannagi and Kinshi are kind of familiar or at least /moe/-adjacent.
yeah def not, that guy got on my nerves quite a bit i prolly shouldn't talk so openly, anyone curious enough to google me would end up here and could scout around
kinshi's a pretty avid watcher though. he's pretty low key about it all and isn't really outspoken but he's pretty much the same and alaska hours would sync up real easily for viewing pleasure i wonder if sammy ever has time to tune in
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I think he came by for an episode of Dororo last ... season? Or was that him watching by himself maybe that was it. I don't think he's watched anything recently. Oh he tried out a bit of Darling in the FranXX because that was a Trigger show. He seems out and about if not working late most nights though.
Oof. i always overassume how much pizza I can comfortably eat. I'm generally a slow eater so I'm good at pacing myself and stopping where I'm getting full. But I can eat pizza faster than my stomach can process it so it ends up making me feel excessively full for a long time after.
