Thread #964506

look at this dude

look at this dude

Look at this photograph

Morning after my second shot and I feel almost nothing at all from it
My arm's a bit sore and I've got some basic muscle wearin
weariness even
But it's hardly something to feel incapacitated from

congrats my guy

No!
No congratulations!
I don't want to come in to work!

The sick I got, I'd rather have been working that day.
It felt awful.

I think it's starting to catch up to me
The muscle weariness is getting worse and it's harder to be on my feet for too long
I'm still fine, and if I was doing literally anything that wasn't physical labour I think I could do it without any impact from how I'm feeling
But this isn't really a fun state to be lugging around boxes in

yeah for me personally it took like a good 12-14 hours before i felt like garbage

easy breezy

playing The Great Ace Attorney Files.
I've been waiting years for this!
It's so exciting! Doki doki suru!

>>>/watch?v=hllGVHWBzhI

my password is out of the box

Still sick
Thanks Biden

>>964523
what did you expect to get better overnight?

must be rough being someone who gets sick
Someone as stupid as me isn't just immune to colds, but to all kinds of things!

But my onometopia theme...
why did you end the onometopia theme

haachama is just built different

was lonely without her

Praise be to KanaCoco for talking her into returning early

she must have been quite demoralized after getting her haatochama lore partially shut down and then at the same time overwhelmed by new rl schedule

i'm streaming in a few minutes!
>>>/watch?v=3scO3z3l1xE

hat you finished heavy rain already?

i did! this is the next david cage game ive got

it was a short game, if memory serves

yeah took me like maybe 8-10 hours?
only three streams
and the last stream i finished it in like 1.5 hours

i think this is about the same

i've only played fahrenheit and heavy rain myself

oh and the very original one the uhh
Omikron Nomad Souls

heavy rain is the one where you have to amputate right

yeah you gotta cut your finger off
that part was great
dik anyhting about this one

and press x to shout JOSH or what was the kids name
and it could reaaaallllyyy bug out

JAAAAAYYYYY SON

>If Ethan chooses not to cut off his finger, he will later be shot in the shoulder by a cop while escaping the apartment. To avoid getting shot by the police, he must cut off his finger.
ah yes
the classic conundrum

lmao
thats so funny

i think fahrenheit had one of the most amusing parts
you clean up a crimescene at the very start
and then you switch to detective investigating it
and youc an go just
"why the fuck did the criminal hide the body in the bathroom, but go out of their way to clean the blood"
"is he a retard?"

and then it turns out you have some mayan/aztec shamans trying to cause the end of the world and shit
or something

also very logical
what are these game designers gonna whip up next

>>>/@Variety/1420051331490848771
A24 pls

>>964548
NZ horror
reminds me of some, I don't know HBO or Netflix series I see ads for on youtube at times
>X(15?) years ago a miracle happened
>shows a kid with wings, kid with horns etc weird monster people being born
yeaah... no

>>964532
It got rocky towards the end, but she was able to see COEXIST to completion
I think it was almost primarily personal things that made her want to take a hiatus. Maybe a bit depressed over Coco's graduation, and the fact that she's going to university is a lot of time investment
There's a NIJISANJI talent who announced a nine-month hiatus that conveniently lines up with the Japanese school year
If there's an outside factor in her need to step away from streaming duties, it's almost certainly school

yup
I definitely would prolly do a hiatus or half-hiatus if I started my first ever uni semester

Finally they put the bloody trim in my unit
There's still the hole in my bathroom but once the paint on the trim dries I'll basically be free to get back to making this place a home

woohoo
progress

>>964552
Cool

i cant believe im unironically enjoying a david cage game

beyond two souls is a definite surprise coming off of the wanna be art movie heavy rain

you should try, if you can get them to work, fahrenheit and nomad souls

is that the game with elliot paige
nice
im eatin a borger
its got the big mac sauce. good balanced choice.

>>964557
Yeah
Noice
>>964555
Now post the second part.

What's the magic word?

>>964556
I see Fahrenheit is on Steam.
I might give it a go.

I was planning on stopping at 8 so I would have time to try to finish the first case in Ace Attorney but I think I have to let that go and just go to bed soon instead.

>>9645591
>>964559
Onegai

Oh yeah, I mentioned to my mom that I wanted to go to the everglades and she said I shouldn't and then listed all the reasons why I shouldn't. None of which I cared about.

>>964563
Domo

i'm going to the everglades with ton and pan in like THREE weeks
i cant wair
wait

>>964559
could toss you a gog nomikron, but my desktop is still dead so can't

>>964565
remember to get hunting trophies

>>964565
Yeah that's what made me think of it. Im really jealous, male sure to have a lot of fun.
*make

we're gonna hunt GHOSTS there

My friend just sent me this.

>>964565
>>>/@bombsfall/1419389683017134082

>>964571
all true

>>964573
i did a call with a survey pusher company today
how tf do they make money off these surveys ill never know

brewskies
yup
back to weird vpn ip
why tho

cloudflare a FUCK

yo momma

yo meng wtf u frontin my momma bro? u frontin???

motherfucker don't start with me
i can pick you up and chuck you like a bucket of bad apples

samm
does the moe server have a mountain nearish to where everything is located?

>>964582
can i come live in finland
is that allowed

>>964582
the server is in freemont, california

>>964583
why doyou keep asking this tard?

>>964584
if you based it on a real life location, why not one with a big city to blow up?

coincidentally, a city in finland, vantaa, commissioned a bunch of minecraft players to recreate the city of vantaa
aacurately
in minecraft

and then they amde the map public

was fun to blow it up

oh do you mean the minecraft server
that one's in Toronto

do you mean IN MINECRAFT
i generated the world on Amplified so theres mountains and shit everywhere

>>964589
how long have you been awake?

>>964583
if you give a burly man a reach around in a sauna you may

anime >>964592 →

>>964590
enough questions squish

girl is gettin mana screwed
what could i possibly do to help her

>>964595
squeeshing grapes has no effect on the questions, tho
maybe squeesh ar ock next time

so there is a mountain near everything, yes?

fuck yo vague ass inquiry bruh fuck yo couch!

oh no, sunset before 9 pm
rip summer

I think
I managed to find the perfect "AI 100% underestimates it" without it being tooc heesy
and boring
fyi
this set up can take like 3 full on chaos armies
no sweat

>>964596
tell her to splash red and just use rituals

anime >>964592 →

>>964603
gl hf rika

goldenlewis dickingson is iikinda hard to play

>>964606
shows that you lack the gold to play the dick

or vice versa

those are the words of a coward, who dares not enter into glorious combat with such greatness as i
and thus
they are words to be discarded and scoffed at

I'd 1v1 you
if I knew whic game you played even
and gotit for free
and could run it

so by hypothesizing a world in which you can even begin to attempt to fight me, you suppose you aren't a coward?

I lack the gold to play the dick

see my own arguments work

which means
you lack the dick to play the gold

and on a completely different topic, but actually the same

what do you say to a woman when you say "you lack the dick/balls" etc

I mean there is "you wouldn't dare"
but
1) boring
2) leaves out the puns like >>964615

regrettably on your part, i shall inform you that there isn't a permutation of words here capable of disproving your cowardice

>>964619
why are you still talking about your small penis?

>>964617
I replace the word balls with ovaries.

>>964612
you sure showed him

>>964621
mmm
I dunno
maybe?

tasty fried chicken
so spicy
thank u for seratonin

oh no my aoertic valve

and now you die of heart attack

POV
you are a rat
and you need to defend this breach

POV
you are the last defence of the rats

genshin released the japan zone and now i'm addicted again

>>964682
Oh no!

it's a good suffering
any suffering is good suffering if the anime girls are cute enough

inazuma KIIIICM
fuk

>>964717
no regrets
inazuma kiiiicm is now canon

>>>/watch?v=L-6JtWRVxHQ

wowowow WOW WOOw

IT'S LIKE MY TIME WAS
FROZEN STILL

im starting to suspect maybe having the heat exhaust on my PC pointed directly at the cable modem might be causing the cable modem to overheat and die
maaaayyybe.

nah probably not
actually you probably need more heat on it
i'd get a heat lamp probably

Yeah that sounds plausible
At least worth experimenting with to see if it changes

things move faster when heated right
like molecules and stuff
you're probably increasing your internet speed by heating your router

huh you're right
things that are hotter move faster

*extinguishes ciggy on modem's plastic enclosure*

is that why you move so fast?

that's why roy has such good frame data

who's roy

>>964758
Some nerd

ROY'S OUR BOY
ROY'S OUR BOY

Oh Jesus Christ
I forgot how bad Nyquil tastes.

rock that nyquil

sizzurp

what the
nyquil tastes bad?
who the fuck

boy gimme that bottle
lemme grip and sip

>>>/watch?v=JDCB3_k-RBY
we call it heat n sip

Night /moe/

I ain't rock no mic I only rachmaninof
tell these hoes knock it off

feeding time

#woah #blurry

>>964795
love that stock rap sample

or I guess synth
it's in every thing

is that the outback m8

just your run of the mill country
very green compared to what it used to be

I'll take you out back

everything is turning yellow here it hasn't rained for weeksx

It's been pretty wet here the past few weeks
Lots of the greenery here has been looking really healthy
I think August/September are more the dry parts of the summer anyway

woow

what are ya feeding

I think the cattle are gettin their feedin
hmm

>>964815
ye

are there memes about the world cup specifically about england

Yeah
England

zing

oh yeah there was >>>/@NifMuhammad/1414349521526697987

>>>/@beesex_youall/1414351047150252033
lmao

>>964820
>>>/watch?v=ayytZ9uHfv4

this requires advanced uk terminology

crickety bob sam me gfoo
you are coverd in da goo

noo

hatsureu miku

>>>/watch?v=BBjeGKTRK8s

https://twitter.com/i/web/status/1399757883546341376
oo

>>>/@HarlequinWheels/1399757883546341376

>>>/watch?v=aGlDnY7GQPU

a gun

:)

These doughnuts are so extravagant it's intimidating

Ohayou!

>>964832
cute image.

>>964836
decadent.

>>964840
you're a cute image

watching Promare with ton and pan :)

>>>/watch?v=VDXoalF2LAE

>>>/watch?v=O7dHDV8ypF8

>>964843
oo have fun

NO FUN ALLOWED

citizens who have been orderly and compliant will have their daily one (1) fun issued shortlly

I'M A COMPUTA
STOP ALL DA DOWNLOADAN

fillin that pipe
can't throttle the fun train

Blackout curtains were a good investment
This bedroom is now very dimly lit, even in the afternoon with a window which stares directly into the afternoon sun on its way down towards the horizon
I look forward to moving my bed back in here, and seeing how hopefully properly dark it is at night

>>>/@dcastromaia/1222292780312977408

LET'S JUST BURN THE EARTH TO THE GROUND

Hacker voice I'm in

>>964854
Nice

>>964854
loki tiiiime

Been thinking lately about maybe getting a nice Japanese rice cooker
I've got a cheap made-in-China one that's fine, but it's kind of clunky and about as basic as they come
A slightly expensive but nicer Japanese one with some extra features would be kind of nice'

>>964857
YYoYou should do it.
The only reasons I don't have one is that our kitchen doesn't have enough space and aalalsalso tthtttthat I've quit eating rice in a futile attempt to lose weight.

>>>/watch?v=z8K08AcVru0
remastered??

>>>/watch?v=4Ah2I166f_U
crisp

rasps but the joker cannot win

genshin genshin genshin

mushroom mushroom

>>>/watch?v=mP4e98xbphE
meowposting

GET EQUIPPED WITH
CREAMY
HAVARTI

I have some creamy Havarti in my fridge right now

>>964865
beautiful

>>>/@RedFlagDeals/1420452171670241280
rip EB games

>>964870
F

got some truly BS wins as sephiroth
that DLC comeback power

SE
PHI
ROTH

>>964870
To be fair with the brand memery of GameStop and the relative uselessness of EB Games, it kinda makes sense
If I were EB Games I too would want to be GameStop

with the stock goin crazy it makes sense

>>964870
but can I still use my eb games card
questions questions

poor Chrom

nevermind i got savaged by a doctor mario
my ego is destroyed

>>964878
Oh no
Have you tried playing KKaKazKazuya?

no
i can't into traditional fighting games
idk

>>964880
RIP

i prefer to play swordies mostly
marth byleth sephiroth
or ill play like king dedede or ZSS

also good: daisy
game n watch
zelders
i try to pac man but idk how to do anything fancy

would love to get good at steve but idk seems cray

me

>>964883
My friend plays pac man a lot and just spams fire hydrants.

Also I can't get used to Ultimate Link
The fucking remote control bomb throws me off so much.

why not play Young Link

>>964888
I do
I also play Toon Link
But Link has better reach

i used to play toon link in smash 4
and young link in melee
idk why i stopped

oh and i play falcon of course
but not online

also, falco
but im so bad

Kobeni is cute!

its chest day :)

>>964894
Sup
Q

Not sure where tthat Q came from.

qanon

whanon

what are these memes about sia I keep readt ing in yt comments

>>964898
kksk

whoanon

anime >>964902 →

glhf

squatz

post that is more than one word

Same

FOUR more weeks lockdown
thanks gladys

>>>/@Gawker/1420435914216587267
why tho

>>964990
I'm still mad about the outcome of that lawsuit.
>>964992
Yeah and then were sold off by the owners

Weren't they the ones that got sued into oblivion
You'd think at the least if the owners wanted to keep in the business they would have entirely scrapped the brand

didnt they get sued by hulk hogan
on behalf of peter thiel kinda

On the dollar of Thiel
They were kind of scumbags so I dunno, they probably deserved it

they were super scummy

The suit made bad legal precedent.

g

>>>/@Thinkwert/1420365836179677189
vote now

>>965038
The second one.

>>965038
ENTER THE VOID

Night /moe/

goo nig

ht

lt

there was a possum chilling outside
nearly could have got a photo

Really a rainy morning here today
I wonder if it'll rain all summer long

>>>/watch?v=tKBh9LwO02A

>>>/watch?v=F-NoLS-4iSg

Ohayou!

>>965067
kksk

hello
cawfeeeeeeee

to protect the world from lewds on the front page
to unite all peoples against games by David Cage

Twitter is wild sometimes
I'm not gonna respond to this, but it's still funny to me for someone to go out of their way to not just reply to the tweet, but to @ me and acknowledge it's 2 years old
Like come on man

jesse! james!

>>965072
gonna put a signature on all my tweets henceforth

>>965074
Someone I follow basically does that
But only for like, their own tweets and threads, not when replying to others

https://shop.play.date
that indie game console is available for pre-order
for 2/3rds of the price of a switch you can have smol gameboy

I'll think about it
I could probably put down that much for a dumb curiousity, but I'll think it over first

the perfect street doesn't exis-

>>965078
Too much ongoing construction 7/10

i underestimated this client's anxiety
he asked if i go by matt or matthew and i did my usual joke of "matt, matthew, asshole, you can call me whatever you want" and he got really anxious and like, needed me to tell him specifically what to call me

>>>/@Variety/1420805847920242689
woooow
fuckin disney lol

>>965081
thats what ive been saying!!

>>965071
rare koi spotted

>>965081
That's weird
I swear being guaranteed a theatrical release was a known fact before the movie came out
Maybe it's the exclusive bit that's the new news here

Either way regardless of anything, Disney deserves to get sued if they're just gonna ignore an agreement like that

>>965081
Today is the tenth anniversary of the release of E.Y.E. Divine Cybermancy.

>>>/@frankcifaldi/1420797465293254657
>>>/@frankcifaldi/1420798781818163203

maximum consoomer

>>965085
wow a holiday

old people comin at me today
some guy tried to ask me about the olympics and i literally could not comprehend his speech
some karen got pissed that i bicycled past her on the right side of a quiet road
lmao
gotta respect those traffic rules when im coasting at 5 km/h on a laneness empty pavement

>>965086
Some people just want a book club but for games and that's okay

>>965088
you know what? you're right
maybe i'll get one
i like Panic
they made untitled goose game

Tonight'll be the first time iI -I'll get to sleep in my bedroom with the blackout curtains and bed out of my kitchen and back where it ought to be
I'm looking forward to being able to sleep in relative darkness for the first time in like, months

hell yeah!!!

alone in the dark

when you think about it, aren't we all alone in the dark?

I've wanted to be alone in the dark for ages

Now that I live like, in a separate building, and can not be bothered by The Landlord anymore, I'm gonna start taking voice training more seriously I think
Which will probably... significantly help my ability to not wanna fucking die

Nobody can hear me here

>>965093
yeah that's why you don't think about it.

I will never stop thinking about it.

oh shit imats you should play alone in the dark, like the original, on stream
It'd send people
trust

It's actually a great game
It's aged, a lot, but it's a really good game for the time it came out
It's got like, PHYSICAL DRM though, so you might not be able to pirate it, but I do have access to a legal copy of the game if that becomes a problem

>>>/@dril/247222360309121024

>>965098
never played that growing up
ill check it out

You definitely should

I bet pirated versions circumvent the DRM though
But if it's a real problem, like I said I do have access to a legal copy and can probably get a hold of the information needed

When I say physical DRM I mean physical DRM
Like it came with a fucking deck of card with punch holes and shit, and you'd put them over eachother to generate the code the game asked for at the start and shit
It was WILD

looks like it's on steam for like $15

what the fuck is that DRM
thats crazy

Yeah it's like, one of the first iterations of real DRM
But it's a pretty good game
Or at least it was at the time, by now it might be fucking awful, I don't know, but I know it was real good at the time

>2008
No dude that's not it
I mean like, the one from the windows 95 era or whatever
>>965105
Oh for real+

The 1993 one is on Steam!

Yeah, it's Alone In The Dark 1 on steam

>>>/@joeyyochheim/1420487945300152323

please type in the FIFTH word of page 87 of the OWNER's MANUAL
then, set your decoder ring to position J

Oh yeah that looks to be the right one

>>965107
lmao that isn't even close
This shit literally comes with a deck of cards and several punch cards it tells you to put on top of each other to reveal the correct code

i saw
i never had DRM that bad
nor did i ever get to use a dongle
haha dongle (gets canceled from cushy game reporting job)

im sure someone's implemented the cards in a github somewhere
unless every deck is different :o

Oh for sure
But at the time, it was fucking unreasonable to pirate the game

I snapped my exacto blade at work and didn't really like how stubby it felt with the shorter blade
Fortunately the back end of the knife has a compartment with a spare blade, but for a good ten or fifteen minutes I couldn't figure out why when I tried putting the blade back together, the new blade kept jamming in the sheath
Turns out the compartment had two spare blades in it, and I'd been trying to jam two blades through a sheath only meant to fit one.
In the time they'd spent in the compartment they'd gotten stuck real well together and they're pretty thin blades, so I hadn't noticed the difference

>>>/@A_i/1420829753028747266
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

the wheels of fate are turning
is it DLC or a sequel

looks like dlc

>>>/@nortnaibeli/1363593766796365828

>>965116
Yeah seems like it
I'll take it
Outer Wilds is like a perfect game but I'm more than excited to have more of it

>>>/watch?v=N1gek69Y8ec
wubwub

>>965101
That's not DRM
It's anti piracy measure, stuff like that was common in the 80's.
I think there was a penny aecade about it.

that's what DRM is

>>965124
What does DRM stand for?

digital rights management

>>965126
Is a deck of cards digital?

the game is
it's not a digital method of managing rights, it's a method for managing digital rights

>>965128
But the cards aren't
So it's not DRM
Thats an analog anti piracy measure

you might as well say cd keys aren't drm

oh god sc dont get rei started on thinking he's the end all be all forefront of all knowledge

Rei's a GUY?

gottem

you're not allowed to fuck with me like this, until told otherwise I just see everyone on moe as an amorphous, genderless blob
I didn't realize Rika's a girl until years after I showed up

im not rei's a guy

Am I old?
Is assuming everyone on the internet is male until proven otherwise an old guy thing?
>>965134
Did you know that Kannagi is female?

and lobster
and dash

And the original SC

you're not old you're just uhhhh
dated
obsolete
deprecated
yknow

was SS female too i dont remember

>>965136
I know kannagi's a girl, yeah
kannagi's actually been a real like, rock for m
e

>>965139
I guess this is what I get for only knowing Octave instead of Fortran.

>>965138
hiss

I did kinda assume for dash, and lobster was like... real explicit
So

i miss dash

i don't

:(

I mean I think it's kinda obvious why I don't miss either of the two, really

it's honestly kinda fucked up how I seem to have something against like... all the girls on moe except kannagi

wow what did rika do

I don't dislike Rika but I don't particularly like her either.
IIRC she has some Randian objectivist views.

>>965149
I don't even wanna get into it

i like rika she's fun
>>965151
this is fair

I used to have a crush on Rika, actually
Like bigtime

But at some point it flipped

i used to joke that i had a crush on rika but then she took it really seriously and tried to let me down gently and i had to stop

wow
that's kinda scummy

Kek

i am the scummiest yes

>>965157
Do you also save scum?

no i would never save myself

i'm saying stuff I would't sober, here, but like, I don't think it matters much
It's not like rika's here anymore anyweay

>>965159
That's what Jesus is for.

wow i love scum

yeah she only shows up for anime and then leaves
ignores my happy birthday

>>965163
Yeah that was irritating me for a while but when I imagined what it would be like to have her back it didn't really seem particularly better either.

/moe/s not as fun for me without her here :(

I was gone for a while, so I don't fuckin' know what happened
But at least for me, it's more livable here, now

Iunno if that's related to her at all though, it's not like Rika was really the problem for me

MISS ME YET BITCH?
wow
emoji keyboard won't pull up when i want it

🔪

>>965169
>windows

samu you never left

it's win+.

WOW BIG EMOJI

🔪
I ONLY GET SMALL EMOJI

i actually did pretty much stop posting for like a year
or two
idk

yeah but you're the admin so you don't get abandonment valor

i go through phases of not posting for like 2+ years at a time, it's fine

guess i'll have to make a bunch of blogs about depression and existentialism and Why I'm Taking Down The Site and other stuff for a while then not do it

yeah you'll get clout if you stop paying for the DNS

become the YandereDev of Liveboard owners

as long as you're paying for everyone else to post though, you can't say you actually stopped posting

yeah our posts are your posts

🤔

🤔

you know it to be true, admin-san

look to the heart of the posts, samurai

does brain is just cave shadow wall car door hook hand?

I have literally no fucking idea what you mean, but brain's actually kinda shut up since I got back on ritalin again

it kinda shuts that part of my mind up
It puts a lot of other stuff into overdrive though, Like I rant a lot
A LOT

mm
gotta get me that ADD diagnosis

I'm basically exactly 1 month away from getting rediagnosed
And I don't really know why I'm even going through with it anymore

>>965188
No I mean
I don't... have to
There's nothing in it for me

Disability is uh... not on the table anymore
Cause like, I can work, and that's all that mattters

So this rediagnosis shit is fucking meaningless, but I'm just doing like I'm told really
If this fucks anything up for me, I'm for real just gonna chug a bottle of vodka and lay down on the tracks, I don't care

nothing better to do

sounds like its workin and you're just used to it

>>965185
Been wondering if it might be worth seeing if I'm a bit that way too
I think it's a reasonable assumption but assumptions are assumptions until proven medically

this is ur brain
this is ur brain on WebMD
any vexations?

haha i lowkey dont care about throwin my life away and im gonna post about it in a friendly way ;)

>lowkey
You have yet to evolve
You are like a baby
I absolutely, openly, do not fucking give a shit about my own existence anymore

If fucking anything goes wrong anymore, I'm just ending this shit, cause there's nothing left lmao

watch HTIS

but that's very clearly not true

haha i highkey dont care and im gonna post aggressively about it >:o

yeah basically
I know it's annoying

if u kno its annoying then why ru doin it~

why wouldn't I

"you're annoying" isn't exactly a big deterrent when you're roughly one significant letdown from getting reduced to paste because a train hit you, man

talk about an externalised locus of responsibility!

that and I kinda like
I want someone to tell me I'm not shitty, sometimes

I'm not reallty in a good place in any kind of axis
so I kinda seek attention, too

i feel ya
we all need some lovin'

No I mean
attention
I don't... really care if you just hate me

I have absolutely no delusions in the direction of thinking anyone actually likes me all that much

attention economy!
love and hate the sides of the coin!!!
that's how i approached morified girl and now they hate me
mortified*
heh

i dont really dislike you

why do you call them girl but then say they hate you?

mortified person just doesn't capture it
also they're they/she and quite lady like

so they're nonbinary or something?

I've actually never like, irl, met anyone who's noticably not cis
which is strange, honestly, I'd kinda thought I'd run into at least 1 other than myself, yknow?

fox news would have you believe they're everywhere
undermining civilization
dragging honest folk into pronoun jail

i fucking wish they were right

fox news wouldn't lie to me right
right?

also, every women's olympic gold was won by a trans athlete
it was inevitable

oh yeah, I mean that's been the case for 10 years by now
after all, men are biologically superior to women in every way, and divinely ordained to rule over all of creation, anyway I'm a feminist

oh good im not the only one who realizes men are superior

Anyway to the extent my self-depricating posting is bothersome I do kinda apologize, but I am also fucked up and it's not like I'm only doingit for attention

gucci golden homie

it's fine
you deserve to have ur problems be taken seriously
you deserve good things
everyone does

iunno about that, but thanks

except rei fuck him

even automatons deserved to be loved

see the way you're saying this makes it seem like you're just making fun of me

i was talkin about rei

yeah i think you deserve good things, i was just expressing how much i dont like rei

i bet rei is holed up inside Chicago Mountain in his lair right now
lavishing in the hate

I guess it just doesn't help that I don't agree

like, i dunno
being honest, I feel like there's a reason I'm like
alone, and without a real future or anything
Even if I don't really know how to pin it down to anything, I feel like there's probably a reason I'm like this, and I deserve it

you dont have to agree you just have to take the good things when they come
>>965223
nah he's probably rubbing his dorito crusted hands all over the arcade machines

mmmm board chow

all my friends are like "found a wife? when r u gonna have kids?"

HEH

i can't ecven use a dating app

i can't even like, date, period

like
I CAN
but I don't wanna
Cause I don't... like who I am
I don't like this
this person isn't who I wanna be in appearance or anything, and I don't wanna date anyone who wants to date this person
because that can't last
cause I don't wanna be this
and I'm gonna change it
so I can't date
anyone

i tire of your self pity
i will go to my steel steed
to traverse this sun drenched jungle

>>965230
have fun

it's not self pity

>>965229
just gotta hop to changing who you are then

yeah well please fucking tell the single institution in the country with the authority to give me that go-ahead, headed by like 5 people, all of whomst are cis pieces of shit

okay im on it what's the number

i don't fucking know, that's not public information

what the fuck is wrong with your country

Yeah we decided to have a single institution responsible for trans healthcare, and then we put only cis people in charge because trans people are categorically mentally ill

oh yeah, like 2 years ago, they did decide you don't need to be sterilized to access HRT, so that's pretty pogged
Or wait, no, last year, so 1 year ago

or some shit
honestly it all kinda doesn't register with me anymore, cause every time I learn more about what I'm up against, I feel like it's already too much, so it all just goes in a big box labeled "obstacles", and I hope it goes away eventually

Who the fuck knows

have you considered moving to a better country somehow

>>965211
For real?
Futurama predicted this

>>965241'
snort

>>965243
i'll consider this a no

The idea of there being a "better country" than Norway or scandinavia for this shit is laughable on its own, is all
This country SUCKS, but that's not relative to anywhere else
IT's just that everywhere else is even worse

idk im sure there's somewhere that you wouldn't have to deal with goober ass beuracracy over all this

you lemme know when you figure that one out
the "sodomy is death penalty" countries don't count btw

sodomy does sounds like a good way to die, though

the problem is I think they consider me with another woman to be that
I don't fucking know
I don't speak the language anyway

Like I'd rather live in misery here, being questioned about my sexuality every time I have the stupid idea to talk to a psychiatrist, than being reported to the secret police because I'm either no into men, or because I'm not into being a man
c

so that's a no to russia then

I'm not moving to the "yes we are actively going to kill you for not being a cishet person" country, no

really though, I don't know if I'm ever gonna like
actually try again

as fucked up as it seems, I'm way more likely to just go "fuck it, there's nothing for me", and take cyanide or something, rather than having to meet with

some cis woman interrogating me about my sexuality for 2 hours only to tell me to get a fucking job and get out of her office, again

seems //
ill hold
seems like more the reason to give it one last try then if you hit the fuck it stage

you have to understand, hen I said "5 people" earlier I fucking meant that

that's not hyperbole

there is a single institution in this country that deals with trans healthcare, and it's headed by... 5 cis people
and I'm not like, I don't fit the criteria, and I'm not straight, so I'm kinda fucked

like yeah, I cried myself to sleep when I was younger, but I don't for this particular reason anymore
and I'm not good at articulating it, so when talking to some cis piece of shit who just goes "yeah I know nothing about this" to me as the opening statement, I don't fucking have a chance
but it hurts, man

wow but im a cis piece of shit
mainly just sounds like they stuck 5 people into an instiution they didnt want to even be in and now they take it out on the people coming to them for help

i mean really their reasoning is meaningless to me

i was told i'm in insufficient pain, and need to get a job, and that was it
and since then I haven't tried again because it was kinda... unpleasant, to not be overly dramatic

id consider calling it unpleasant to be under dramatic if anything, cause it sounds more like it's fucked up

well yeah, most of it was an interrogation about my sexual life, but like I don't wanna say it was traumatic

and there's no right answer
"I'm into guys"
oh so you're just gay, lmao get outta here
"I'm into girls"
fucking fetishist, get outta here

the right answer must be both them
then

I can't say anything for sure, but I'm pretty sure claiming to be bi would just end up in a denial of that, too

I don't know how to navigate this fucking system
I just want estrogen so I don't hate what I see in the irror

are you gonna have the surgery
like that's not your business
fuck you?
that's something I'll figure out alter?

Fucking hate the whole medical system

yeah bi would probably also be written off as fetishist
are there no other means of getting estrogen in norway other than through this instiution?

Not that I know of
the whoe medical system is nationalized here

Also it's on my record now, so every single other medical thing I talk to from here on out will question me about it, which is exceptionally Cool And Good, and not at all demeaning or anything

all the way down to the "drug addiction\home help service" I talked to because I struggle to like, keep my living space clean and in order
Yeah of course they ask me about my "transexualism"
Of COURSE
Yeah that makes sense

FUCK

i can see why it would go on file, because it is important to know, but kind fucked that it's accessible all the way down to something like that

it'd be fine if not for the fact I was just outright rejected from anything that addresses it

Like why the fuck am I on file as "transexual" and also denied all forms of like, ANYTHING to address it

because apparently they think the "cure" for being transexual is some good ol' labor

im gonna give it one more go anyway, once this moving situation is done
if that falls through, fuck it, i'm done hoenstly

as grim as it sounds, I'm kinda done

I'm permanently unemployed, I'm never gonna be happy in my own fucking body, and all the shit THAT carries with it
like what's the point at that point?
I can barely listen to myself talk without feeling like I'm stabbing myself in the back just by opening my mouth

Cause I know this is just what my voice is like, but every time I talk, I'm reminded of not doing anything to change it

can only really give it so many tries before it just feels pointless i guess, especially with such joke feedback from the instiution
i guess you could try to make progress on changing your voice but honestly that shit's really hard to do unassisted because habits formed over a lifetime

i'm gonna at least try now that I live a bit separated and have privacy

but it's a lot of work
and even best case scenario like

i still look like this

ill root for you, good luck!

who knows, given time maybe you'll stop looking like that

i wish

here's to a better future then

thanks I guess
I'm gonna probably get another appointment with my doc and ask for a referral again soonish

I just wannaget setled and stuff first

too much at the same time freezes me up

no problem with that at all

im gonna chess
chess those chesters

ran out of time
rip

I'd Chess You, but I'm way too sloshed to like, play anything

fight me
https://play.chess.com/3YF2R
ill play a bad opening

o you don't understand
I'm not capable of like, staying in the game's tab long ebnough to finsih a game

and u don't seem to unda staaaand

honesty was never my strong suit, in fairness

Anway, sorry to go off like that, but thanks for talking to me about it, anon-san
I'm not really the most social person, so it's not like I have this large social circle to unlead my problems on, it just tends to come out when I drink
And a lot of it happens at once cause I drink a lot less often lately

that and I just generally feel like I'm being annoying just for existing, so anyone acting like I'm not is appreciated

no problem, my pleasure

train sim world 2 free on epic gaems
i wonder if its any good

SHIT that reminds me I should play more of The Cycle
That's actually a pretty good game

It's like an objective based 1vEveryone BR kinda thing I guess
Lotta fun

>your account does not own The Cycle
First of all, Epice
Yes it does, I only have one Epic account
Second of all, The Cycle is a F2P game, literally everyone owns a copy whether they have an account or not
Fuck is wrong with you, I have hours logged in this game

Modern gaming is a disease
Used to be you just downloaded a video game and played it

Oh actually, here's something that might seem counterintuitive, I actually really like MoxiFloxi, the musical artist
Which is like
Highly sexual in lyrics and general energy
I mean really I could do without the lyrics really, but I like the sorta deep beats they go for a lot o f the time

It's repetitive, sure, but I'm kinda into that

doesn't seem all that counterintuitive

Does it not?
I thought I gave off a kind of prudish energy
Which I mean, is kinda deliberate, sure
But it's really kinda selective

>5GB update on a 10mbit connection
I am going to become the Joker

i'm readin about the infamous cat lickin beer off their fur Dorf Fort bug
hehe

Jesse...

apparently the bug was that beer spilt on the floor was tracked as being a full pint of beer
and cats would walk in it and get a beer coating on their fur
and try to self clean, but every time they did it they would consume a full pint of beer
so all these cats were dyin of liver failure

I mean not to sound awful, but was that a real problem?
Are cats mechanically significant in Dwarf Fortress?

yea that sounds pretty mean
they kill rodents and also they take over your fortress and destroy your frame rate

so you're actually makin a point in that they're mechanically subtractive from the overall experience

seems like a bug in the same way mccready giving you +100% accuracy in vats was a bug

>>965304
Kek
Never 4get
Oh also I have strep
Whoooo

>>965309
F

>>965310
They gave me antibiotics
I haven't had strep in like 15 years mybe

>>965311
whoa u got drugs!
big W

Oh speaking of strep
I was told that if I consumed dairy my mucus production would increase and I don't care sso I had pasta with a bunch of cheese
I'm sure I'll regret that later.

lemme taste ur mucus

>>965314
Sorry, I don't have enough in checking to send you a bottle of my mucus with dry ice in the box to keep it fresh.

Homucus

>>965315
ILL PAY GOOD MONEY
CASH
UNITED STATES OF AMERICA LEGAL TENDER

Send genetic abominations in the pursuit of the ubermench

MoxiFloxi's good tho

we appreciate power
we appreciate power

Ghost Data too

>>>/watch?v=OXljeaktnDA
F

waddaryudoin' posrting a 25 minute video

ok
lemme tell you about this video
strap in cuz this video is gonna be long but worth it
but first
let's talk about my sponsor

I'll show you a long ass video worth watching
>>>/watch?v=3zD7rBcgduw

im just gonna link you this instead
>>>/watch?v=XppT7y3FuLA

>>965324
>>965325
TL;dr
Long running fan Wh40k thing is ending because of games workshop bullshit

pk is going to be sad

Yeah they're sending C&Ds to a lot of people.
Games Workshop is fucking retarded as usual.

and you don't seem to understaaaand
guh
GUH
i wanna write something
im PARALYZED
why cant this be easy

WH WH WH WHADDAYA WANNA WRITE

idk i wanna be the guy
I WANNA BE THE GUY

you wanna write a IWBTG fanfic?

i have been puttin off writing code for so many months now
because of stupid ass deployment problems
and other ADHD excuses guh

I'm gonna wirte about my fuckin' anime girl wife

oh, code
code's boring, i thoguht yu meant like, wrirting

oh writing's easy
just use the AI bam
the next Great Gatsby is yours
no clever ideation or memoir of a life ill-spent required

don't tell that to tilde

I mean the reason I was interested is cause i've got ideas spinning through my head too, but I'm bad at putting it to words
I don't wanna write to write, I wanna write to put my own thoughts into words
>>965342
"write a book"
yeah no ToN that's the issue

>This is the story about a girl named Isabella. The game has some in-game choices, but you don't get to know the consequences if you pick one of them. It's definitely a game I recommend for any age and for any gender. It's a great game to just get lost in.

write a light novel

One day Isabella's father got a new job. They had to move to the other side of the country. The only thing Isabella could bring with her was a backpack. She didn't want to leave her friends, so she didn't tell them goodbye.

Isabella had to start a new school where no one knew her. She made a new friend named Megan. Megan was a very nice and caring girl.

Isabella and Megan became best friends. They did everything together. When they were together everything seemed to be perfect.

Isabella was really happy, but that didn't last long. Her father died in a car accident

i can pump dis shit outto all day

>>965340
you gotta put in the hours
write ten thousand hours worth of bad writing

the world in my skull is too important for the first release to be anything short of exactly what I want
It's too personal, yknow

you don't have to release anything

>too important
🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄

it's too important to ME SAMU

yea of course to you
every author is the same way
it feels good in your head and then you go to the pen and what is this trash

yeah well published authors clearly not

>>965350
why is there count dracula in your attorny game

>>965350
🤡
thats some good jokerfication

I'm starting to understand how ytou guys can idnetify people without them putting anything in the namefield
I knew that was samu

uh oh
SC is developing a theory of mind
at this rate we're finished

gonna burst your bubble if you mean the guy who was talking with you one on one earlier

well no that wasn't samu obviously I think that was tilde

i got some ice cream mochi shit
it's so good
im gonna eat one tonight for anime :)

nah fam tilde would probably have capitalized some words
>>965357
rsa!
rsa!
rsa!

that was def not tilde

i honestly have no idea who that was
but im bad at people in
could be any sympa anon

well I'm gonna attribute it to tilde

you could say it was quite possibly anonymous

anonymous isn't real
anonymous is just a temporary identity, we all become some fucking pile of detritous eventually

I'm not saying it was anonymous but rather only possibly anonymous

it was prob PAN

no it wasn't pan

ok well i give up

it was PAN

what if it was ... P-Anon

absolutely no way it was pan
pan does't like me

i just checked and that's 1100% pan

bullshit

ive been typing online with pan for half of my entire life

PAN is the person who said he jokingly crushed on Rika at 7 pm eastern and continued to type on /moe/ afterwards
he is also the person who joked about half an hour later about the superiority of men

yeah well then pan's lying to you

wtf i was right
im a fuckin idiot genius

ton and i know pan well enough that if we say it's pan it's absolutely pan
if pan was even gonna be a dick or just fuck around we'd know

also "except rei fuck him" is absolutely pan too
I can hear his posts in his voice

i guess if you want o belive that, that's your choice

IT'S NOT A BELIEF lmao
this is a straight up fact

quick maths
ton + pan = brew

All I know it can't be the case cause Pan doesn't like me at all, or at least that's what my memory says
So it wasn't pan

hello yes am pan

oh hey pan

i mean tilde doesn't like me either, but tilde's chaotic so who fucking knows

>This is the story about an internet poster named Pan. And about the people who reply to him.

Most of the time, the “Pan” in question is the real-life person who goes by that name. He is an avid online commenter who posts on sites like Reddit and 4chan, often using his real name.

The other “Pan” is a fictional character, a person of questionable existence who has been communicating with the Internet for more than a decade. In this version of the story, Pan is a god: an omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent deity who lives up to his name by ruling over everything online.

Sometimes, it’s hard to tell which Pan you’re dealing with.

The most serious Pan-related incident occurred in May. A man named Gary B. said he encountered Pan in a Baltimore bar. The person claiming to be Pan told Gary to get on his knees and worship him.

>>965385
tilde isn't chaotic
tilde is true neutral

>>965386
the only part of this that is false is the fact that PAN would never go to reddit

or so you thought!
dark side reVEALED

well its not like not like it matters antyway

if I'm wrong, I can't tell anyone apart, so my opminions on anyone doesn't matter
If I'm right, see above

>As a test of his identity, Gary said, Pan asked him a question only the real Pan would know: What was his (Gary’s) favorite Star Wars movie?

Gary said Pan then asked him to leave the bar. He did, and called the police.

I'm pretty decidedly PAN

that's a lotta PAN/proof

how much pan would a panpan pan if a panpan could pan pan

What’s the answer to this equation?

A. Zero

B. A panpan

C. A lot

D. I’m sorry, I don’t speak panpan

E. All of the above

>>965394
panpanpanpanpanpan

HERLOCK SHOLMES really is a master detective

>how much pan would a panpan pan if a panpan could pan pan?” was less a question about the ontology of pans, and more one about the ethics of pan-handling.

I don’t think that’s quite the case. The question “how much pan would a panpan pan if a panpan could pan pan?” is a question about the ontology of panpanness, which is a rather different matter. If I asked you “how much money would you have if you had almost no money?” the answer would be “I would have almost no money”

thanks GPT3 ur a useless oracle

gotta go find some fooooooood
gotta bicycle off into the sunset

the sun has long since set on me
i live in a world of TOTAL DARKNESS
INPENETRABLE NIGHT
a soul pledged to the shadows

>>965401
utage's gonk dank massive milkers

what the fuck even is biology at this point

BAGS
OF
FLESH

HUGE

wow an imats post, censored
spoilered

i wish the bartenders would let me just saunter over the bar and empty the beer tap into my mouf

THE MASTER ASCENDED THE HIGH SEAT AND SAID
"WITHIN THIS LUMP OF RED FLESH RESIDES A TRUE MAN OF NO RANK, WHO IS CONSTANTLY GOING IN AND OUT OF YOUR FACE. THOSE WHO HAVE NOT WITNESSED, SEE IT!"
THEN A MONK CAME FORTH! AND ASKED "WHO IS THIS MAN OF NO RANK?"

THE MASTER GOT OFF HIS SEAT AND GRABBED AHOLD OF THE MONK, SHOUTING, "SPEAK! SPEAK!"
THE MONK WAS CONFUSED AND THE MASTER PUSHED HIM AWAY, STATING, "WHAT IS THIS SHIT STICK OF A TRUE MAN OF NO RANK?!"

yeah just do like me and buy like a bottle of rum to have for a week, but empty it in one night

that sounds like too much beer

just open ur throat
there's a throttle somewhere in those big brewin cylinders i can hear it

>>965408
the monk was like "MU, BITCH"

let me tell you a little story about a guy we all know very well
his name is a name you'll all find very familiar
and that name is gutei
whenever gutei was asked a question about zen, he raised a finger
one day a visitor asked gutei's student a question about what gutei had spoken about in a talk and the boy raised a finger
GUTEI HEARD ABOUT THIS MISCHIEF, SEIZED THE BOY, AND SLICED OFF HIS FINGER
THE BOY SCREAMED IN PAIN AND GUTEI RAISED HIS FINGER
SEEING THIS, THE BOY, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? HE WAS ENLIGHTENED

i can also ask GPT3

>THE MASTER REACHED INTO HIS SACK AND FISTED THE MONK IN THE MOUTH, THEN YELLED, "THIS SHIT STICK OF A TRUE MAN OF NO RANK!"

ONCE MORE THE MONK CAME FORTH AND ASKED "WHO IS THE MAN OF NO RANK?"

THE MASTER REACHED INTO HIS SACK AND GRABBED A LARGE STICK, BEAT THE MONK UNTIL HE WAS DEAD, THEN YELLED, "THIS SHIT STICK OF A TRUE MAN OF NO RANK!"

>>965413
oh fuck
slice that finger off yea

didnt realize zen buddhism was a anything goes school of martials battle for dominance

oh yeah

Once the monks were arguing about a cat
Nansen lifted up the cats and shouted "Monks! If anyone can say a single word of zen, I will spare the cat. Should no one speak a word of zen, I will cut it in half!"
No one could answer and Nansen cut the cat in two!
Later that evening, Joshu returned - yes, that's right, the joshu of "mu" fame! Nansen told Joshu of this incident at which point Joshu REMOVED HIS SHOE AND PLACED IT ATOP HIS OWN HEAD! Then, he walked away.
Nansen mourned, saying "ah, if you had only been there, the cat would have been saved!"

I'm pretty sure Zen is a joke religion
like they taught a guy wrong on purpose, but accidentally he got a real following

Zen isn't a religion! Usually.
Zen is about unlearning everything.

you've given two stories aliready that indicate it's botha joke and a religion

how could you say such a thing to a practitioner's face?!

Yeah, I'm an ordained zen buddhist.
Next year, I'll become a monk. Probably.

zen is about ... wait fuck i gotta take this call...

it's a joke thing, even if there's some esoteric meaning behind it all

If zen is a joke, that's only because life is a joke.

zen is about making a lot of rice and hiding a dog inside the rice and then the dog dies :(

well yes

But you can't go "I'm gonna kill this cat if you don't say the zen words" and then go "ah yes, putting a shoe on your head, that's the zen words" and pretend you're not a joke

There are no zen words! Zen can't be zen! When you use words, it ceases to be zen!

As for the cat, well, there wasn't really a cat.
Just like Gutei didn't actually cut off a guy's finger.
They're metaphors.

That's not a metaphor, tha'ts just a bullshit story

you know everyone's always doing stuff based around the metaphors
when are we gonna get some folks who try to go for the anti-metaphors

You just don't understand the metaphor because you don't study zen.
It makes perfect sense to me.
Cutting off the finger is a very succinct metaphor that describes the job of a teacher.

If you gotta study zen to understand the metaphor, the metaphor fucking sucks, because obviously the metaphor isn't for people who already study zen

Koans aren't for people that already understand the teaching of the koan.
They're there to be learned by practitioners.
The student works on the koan and by doing so, they come to understand the metaphor intuitively.
Just because you don't understand zen doesn't make it all a joke!

I started zen because I wanted to understand the Heart Sutra.
But everywhere I looked said that the Heart Sutra couldn't be understood without meditation practice. So I started practicing zazen.
The reason these things can't be understood is because the conditioning we go through in our lives loads our brains up with all kinds of ideas and stories and concepts and phrases. Zen is about breaking free of those.

sounds like a fucking cult to me, man

A cult that's principle teaching is to kill the cult leader if you meet him on the road?

And yet you have yet to bludgeon your teacher to death

I bludgeon him to death every time I see him!

presumably

yeah well taht doesn't count if he's alive afterwards, does it?

Of course it does. The meaning of "If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him" isn't to literally kill the Buddha.
It's to kill your idea of them. To have no attachment to that idea of them.
As soon as you meet your teacher, leave him.

You're being way too concrete. To the point where it almost seems like you decided zen was bad and are working backwards from that conclusion to justify that belief you hold. But that can't be right, can it?

you can't go "it's not a cult cause it says to kill the leader" and then backtrack to "well
by 'kill' i mean argue against sometimes"

I have never said zen is bad, I just think it's way too esoteric and nonsensical, and seems cultish
You do you, man
But it seems cultish

Esoteric, definitely not.
You don't have to be a buddhist to be a buddha
You don't have to study zen to achieve kensho
Zen is just one path up the mountain, of which there are many paths
Zen doesn't claim to be the only path or the best path, it just claims to be a path.
We don't recruit people, and in fact, we often encourage people to remain lay practitioners. We also don't ask for money or anything like that. I mean, there are certainly false masters that use the word zen to amass cults, but zen is just zen.

kirara did you know it is monopoly mermaid monday

maybe i'm just too materialistic

The idea of a spiritual level to this existence just rubs me the wrong way to begin with

>>965445
but its friday my pomudachis

Zen isn't really about spirituality in the modern sense.
Zen is about this material world at its core. And being here, together, with that world.
It's about getting rid of abstractions that pull you away from this material world.
For example, when a bird is singing, you hear it, and you say "that bird is singing"
When you say that, your head is full of abstractions of that bird. You're several steps away from that sound and from that bird, you're in your head.
Zen is about hearing that bird without the idea of a bird.

I dunno, that sounds like it's abstracting it more rather than reducing it

Abstracting it more by perceiving it without abstractions?
It's hard to talk about because to talk about it forces you to use words and phrases.
Zen is direct experience.
My words are not the things my words represent, it's hard to get these kinds of meanings across through text.

But if I clap my hands together, you'll hear a sound.
Hearing that sound is the answer. You hear the sound before you interpret it. When you interpret that sound, you've already left direct experience behind.

you can also drop acid
that's another way to somewhat similar experiences

I mean you say this stuff like it's not like, default stuff
I don't really get it at all
Like yeah, when you hear a thing, you go through a process to figure out how the thing came a bout
But what does cutting off that process do?

>>965451
Not at all

>>965452
It allows you to experience those things.
It gets you out of your head.
Someone like you could really use getting out of your own head!

>>965453
yeah huh

>>965454
My actual experience is pretty external to myself, I'll have you know

how do you think I've developed a distinction between myself an """brain""" if it's all internal anyway

Right, but you're so stuck inside your own head that you're troubling yourself all the time, aren't you?
Always thinking about things, nonstop, to the point that it ends up bothering you.
I mean, there are topics that, if brought up, would send you spiraling down right now. That's because you're stuck in your head. Zen is just one of many ways to get outside the head.

well yeah but that's because I know how people perceive me
That's not my fault, that's just social awareness

Dog haets lettuce

ok that last part isn't fair, that's not my fault

I didn't say it was your fault. I just said that's how it is.

>>965459
You seemed super convinced earlier that someone you were talking to couldn't possibly be Pan because he "doesn't like you", but it was still Pan.

yes you did!

if that was pan pan changed since last I had any sort of indication I was talking to pan

and I can't be blamed for someone changing and not even indicating who they are

Pan hasn't really changed.
In fact, just today, we were talking about how much he dislikes people that he disliked a long time ago too!
Pan has been Pan for as long as I've known him.

>>965466
Are you sure? Is that what your social awareness is telling you?

pan didn't like me last I knowingly interacted with pan

I'm not sure of fucking anything when it comes to my memory but I have to trust it because it's all I have

I don't remember not liking you

See?

see that's confusing

areyou associating me with someone else in your head?

Why is it confusing?

because in my head, pan doesn't like me
that's the box ticked

doesn't like me

I don't keep records of why
I just know that's what it says, y'know?

In zen, we talk about having shoshin, beginner's mind. We want our mind to be open to any and all possibilities, never becoming an expert on anything, because when we view ourselves as an expert, even on ourselves, we limit ourselves.
Because you believed so strongly that Pan dislikes you, you couldn't believe it was Pan you were talking to even when people told you it was.
That's what I mean by getting out of your head.

well pan was jotted down as not liking me for a reason

you even recognizing someone beind an anon label is itself a betrayal of what you're preaching, anyway

Well, if Pan had shown up and said "that wasn't mean", I'd have said okay and moved on.

I'm willing to be wrong and have been wrong before.
So it's not really a betrayal.
But even if it is, I am only human.

In either case, I don't like, have the memory capable of knowing why
I just know I jotted down pan as not liking me
And I see no real reason to not keep that
I don't know how to recognize anyone here anyway

Pan saying he doesn't dislike you isn't a reason to stop believing that he doesn't dislike you?

ANON saying he doesnt¨' dislike me

BUT THAT
IS PAN

I am pan, it's true

how am I supopsed to fucing know

because we're telling you and he's telling you
we are all telling you that that is pan

well i don't want to pretend anyone likes me, so I'm keeping it as is

Can't you see how insane that is?
Pan is saying he doesn't dislike you.

it's not insane

Why am I so sad person says as they reject the idea that anyone could ever not dislike them

There's a difference between not disliking someon, and liking someone
if pan just does't dislike me, that's fine Ingues

it better be fine because you'd be moving that goalpost from 10 posts ago otherwise

>>965490
there's no fucking goalpost

>>>/@JoshCrewsReally/1420842187613302785
gigaoof

I'll just have to keep the trip on, then

>>965492
pfffft

see, that I can trust

>>965493
oh my god

>>>/@tokkyusan/1420941713959383043
uiharu

UIHARU!

i just don't really get whyit's so strange for me to not trust people saying "this person doesn't dislike you" when my own brain tells me they definitely do

my Valve Index should come tomorrow
(:

>>965499
ton and i know pan a lot better than you do
pan has been my friend for almost 15 years

yeah sure but my own brain woudln't be jotting down someone as disliking me for no reason

do i have to say it with my trip on too?
also >>965500 yeah if there's any two people to trust regarding me it'd be kirara or ton

>>965501
Brains do stuff like that all the time.
That's why I don't trust brains. They're garbage.

But why is it weird to trsut my own brain before you two
That's noraml

It's like if you were getting work done on a car, and the mechanic said "oh, your radiator's gone bad" and you said "but my brain tells me i just need an oil change so you must be lying"

I don't really think I interact with you enough to be someone you would think has any reason to deceive you

>>965506
oh, no, I trust imats way more than you, no offense

o-ok

>>965505
That's an unfair compariosn, and you know it
I have no basis to claim my carn's not fucked in whatever way, but if I've decided someone doesn't like me, there's a reason for it somehwere

hey servo geek. need an oil change?

>>965509
You could have a reason why you think its an oil change you need, too.

sure but I know I don't know a lot about cars, but I'm pretty confident in my ability to suss out if someone like, wants me to go away or not

You don't know a lot about Pan either!

well no
but I know that at some point, for some reason, pan was jotted down as not liking me
and neither you, ton, saku, rika or even lobster was

and I'm pretty sure lobster wasn't a big fan of SK either

really im pretty sure lobster and rika both would dislike me now even more, but htat's besides the point

I don't keep detailed recorsd of people's interactions with me, I just kinda have an overall feeling of how they feel about me
Everything else is kinda superfluous

have you considered that your perceptions can be incorrect

I can be wrong, but to be that wrong there'd have to be like, basically no interaction at all, and the few that exist would have to be bad
whcih would still mean the overall vibe is they dislike me

So it kinda evens out

Are you sure its not just because pan is an asshole to almost everyone?

name 5 people that pan is an asshole to

Am I supposed to give a fuck about wheteher someone's an asshole to everyone or just me?

>>965520
Me
Louisville
The Frenchman
Maria
Hazy

>>965516
>>965518
Seems like you've just mislabeled me, I don't know
>>965525
fuck man i was gonna
but even then
>>965523
I'm never an ass to maria, we banter back and forth, but I otherwise have a positive opinion of him
Also I'm only rarely actually an asshole to LV, otherwise it's also just bantering with him

who the heck are THOSE

inb4 >people

I DON'T KNOW is the thing
I just know that's whqat my squiggly brain says
it says pan doesn't like me

that's all I know
I don't know why
I just know it said so

And I have to trust that

Ooh I got that sick post number glitch.

but if everyone's sure pan doesn't dislike me, and pan too, then I mean I'm gonna have to try to update that
even if I don't get it
because somehow pan was noted as not liking me, and clearly whatever that was changed and I don't get it

I can't see why you'd trust it when I'm right here to tell you it's demonstrably false.

yeah well I don't have... anything else

I can trust you about now, but for the past I have to trust my own memory or i have nothing

i hope tilde shows up for anime
hes been offline a while

there are times where i have had dreams that i later remember and cant tell if they really happened or were dreams

I had a dream that I was hunting a guy named Leavenworth and a bunch of cops were trying to get to him before me.
His name really stuck out to me for some reason.

>>965531
you can have my word that I didn't dislike you in the past either

yeash well the lot of you have the benefit of knowing each other

>>965534
thats the kind of name you can yell really dramatically into the sky

>>965537
Press X to shout

Deshou? I hope I get an archnemesis named that,
and we can fight to the death on top of a plane or something

>>965535
you can't make me believe that

>>965540
you'll come around

I won't, because I genuinely despise the person I was when I first showed up on moe
I'd bludgeon myself to death if I met myself at the time

Yeah, but around the same time you showed up, I'd more or less left /moe/

...maybe that's why
you weren't aroung maybe

so i just assumed
that makes sense

Could be
From like 2014 to 2019 I only showed up sparingly and typically only when Ika asked me to come back

arongus

ah yes
PAN
one of the many /moe/s that have yet to fight me in a fighting game

i still remember the squidposts

so it's not really that you disliked me, you just weren't around in general

real bang hours time to sleep

@kirara
i haven't eaten yet so i'm running down the street to grab a sammy
if anime starts just do a show that you all do that i don't
like higurashi or something

>>965550
Pretty much, yeah
Anything I knew about you back then would come from ToN mentioning which would typically be him saying "oh i got a message, oh it's spaghetti cat talking about [Game]"

hai hai
i dont think tilde's here yet so we might be delayed anyway if rika does show up

>spaghetti cat
lmao

i remember when i made cards

Or maybe it was Pasta Cat
either way

it was spaghetti kun before lol

true but i definitely said pasta [something] and honestly still do
lately it's pasta-chan

or pasta gal

Yeah it was Pasta Cat, then
He always called you pasta cat and I'd go "who" and he'd go "they post a lot of cats"

why cat, ton
i don't mind but why cat

remember that one cat image that you liked that was a gray cat and i put it on the yugioh card
>>965565
probably?

the pallas cat?

anime >>965564 →

>>965566
good luck have FUN RIKA

glhf

I miss blue.

i dont
he's on discord i see him there

I dont'

pan too fast

this?

yeah

yea fair enoguh

anyway sorry fpr thinking you had something against me pan
iunno why, but something or other mad em ethink so

Anyone know what this iis from?

>>965579

It's fine, don't worry about it

>>965581
FF14

>>965585
Sasuga

but why'd I think pan didn't like me

we'll never know unless you dig up the memory, i guess

i gues
was probabløy nothing

ive always been kind asensitive so maybe yo just aid somethintg about something

I dunno

There's probably a pretty good shot at that, I don't filter my thought salad very well sometimes

i mean neither do i
I onlty ever stopped posting because like imats said earlier, some stuff that got too much sent me intop a suicidal spiral just by being mentioned, so I had to stop being here

Probably i just assumed everyone who didn't directly interact with me, disliked me

Which isn't unreasonable
If you really don't want someone around, ice walling them is a good option to get them to leave

>>965601
Makes sense to get away from triggers, so it's understandable to do
>>965632
I'm pretty open if I don't like somebody I don't shy away from making it known.

Yeah but I read into everything

Socially paranoid, I guess
Cause I have to be

Hopefully someday you won't have to be.

It'd be nice
But I'm not an optimist
I think hell on earearth is here, and we cannot. Escape

Then I'll hope for you.

who keqing here

this mochi ice cream is so good

oh yeah that's right
everything was going to shit last episode

i was expecting at least a little bit of business-as-usual stuff after graduation
where we see what oh

Other thread Bang

>>965669
Are they like mochi balls with ice cream inside, or ice cream with bits of mochi mixed in?

>>965668
is that like jelqing

>>965673
Mochi balls with ice cream inside.
They're amazing

>>965678
Yeah I've gotten stuff like that before
A grocery chain here has a variety of flavours
The salted caramel was kind of whatever, I don't know how but it made the mochi shell very tough and flavourless
But the strawberry ones were great, soft, and strawberry and mochi is a staple combination

The mochi shell on these are like, perfect.
And each ball is only 100 calories.
Amazing!

Ugh
Drank too much water

>>965676
the only thing that jelqing and keqing have in common is the idea of making my dick bigger
unfortunately jelqing doesn't produce the same results
and mostly just causes irreperable damage

>>965695
oh no youve got hyponatremia
>>965712
local anime has one weird trick to make your dick bigger
doctors hate her

good thing I didn't start making plans or anything
fuckin work fuckin timesink

Let's burn all work to the ground

maybe I'll just sleep in the mall
it'll be like I never left

like two bees in a pod

>>>/watch?v=wCdBtEM3E7Q

>>965801
Kek

>>>/watch?v=cXwoLeUqJDA

Night /moe/

usagi
>>965920
ihht

>that tfw your roommate starts talking politics and you want

to open the car door and jump out
at least I get a lift to buy food

>>965924
get owned with facts libtard

Man
I took AAGES to drive home today

some selfish cunt just had to crash his car on the freeway

You should've told them personally they were being selfish

I would have but they were hiding away in an ambulance like a fuckin puss

jump in and fight them
what's stopping you
>>965925
for some reason he has to repeat the same shit 24/7
autism probably

The law, probably

>>965930
I am the law

No you're a lawyer
There's three whole letters of difference there

>>965929
lol why do you even live with this wanker?

you can make the law your own if you think hard enough
>>965934
Stockholm syndrome

Does Marsh really strike you as someone who can think that hard though

>>965932
I'm not even one of those yet.

Yeah I kinda guessed
Still, you're more along the route than probamaybe any of us
You'll get there yet

ask me next year.

Okay

>>965939
Next year?

>>965936
>>>/watch?v=zCs-OkicOWw#t=23

>>965940
ye
I'll have finished my post-graduate accreditation for practice by then.

unless i fail.

really bad spam on the front page

like I don't think that's cg
ther

there's that other anime spammer too
my fingers can't hit the report box unfortunately

oh good thank you mod

yfw mining money

>>965947
THIS is my mining money

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>>965949 →
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