Man Tonight in boxing we were doing body sparing Which is like sparing with only shots below the neck And i socked the other guy so good he had to call for a brief time out Highlight of my last few days
cos if you only do body shots, you aren't really sparing the body
Marsh shitposting on the go via Telephone
But to be completely honest it wasn't 100% Since he'd just been going hard against another guy and was still worn down for that And before him i was paired with one of the girls so i was taking it kind of light and not using much energy.
>>704858 I do kickboxing during the day which is part of my regular gym membership and costs nothing extra and isn't that serious Just bag drills And then i pay for regular boxing classes in the evening Which is a bit more serious
!C0.PerkELE
>>704859 except millions of people watching kitchen nightmares
Anno
>>704862 well you don't do it when they're FILMING, obviously
Marsh shitposting on the go via Telephone
AND i did yoga Fucking Mr social group fitness today
>>704878 scoring one WAIS takes about 30 minutes, a WISC is about the same ill have two WAIS and two WISC to score so that's two hours got two BASCs which can take 15-30 minutes each to score
>>704880 yeah i probably will i might not do alana IQ testing because she was just in a car accident too
Next week, I only have one individual client on Monday and no Monday groups so I'm going to take it easy that day, I think. I've been working 50 hour weeks for a few weeks now.
luckily clinical internship prep is a class so i can use that hour to be productive on something else like writing a report usually admin mh serv is somewhere i can be productive too but i'm giving a presentation for 1.25 hours there this week
Oh, I don't get paid with money. I get paid with experience. I make my own schedule so I could put in a lunch break if I needed it, but I have so much work to do that there's no point in it.
>>704896 Yeah. I work 40-50 hours a week, doing doctoral level work, for free.
I bet a mandated lunch break would pay the whole faculty with experience of not hating their weirdo near-slavery workspace not assuming your workspace is that way but like yo let every working human being who needs food and water have a little break doing stretunous shit thanks capitalism
if her music and behavior is any indication of her future, she'll burn out way before she can become the next big teen hit probably get addicted to something
the best music is usually made by degenerates anyway so maybe she'll be really good after her first couple rehabs
Anno
>>704925 the lewdness I'd assume anyone with a huge fanbase would have creeps following them though anyway her music just seems like tryhard 2deep4u edginess
>>704938 grey reminds me of a nearby lake so I guess you're the one responisble for making me cry so now im going to go die in a headshot video game see you nah like, rainy and endless not the genuine colour of the water but the way it reflects a thunderstorm peace
My lake smelled like a pure ocean free of pollution >>704948 both will happen I will win every single one of my games here we go #flip (true) CALLED IT HAHAAAAA
>>704949 metaphorically, not literally, it is just a phrase though there's probably quite a lot of dead stuff in there, mostly rotting trees and some algae is the smell At least I think so anyways
>>704962 isn't that a shit way of doing that, you have remove the screws and use up glue just put a fuckton of cheese between the slices and make it not apparent from an angle
>>704963 don't ask me, i ain't a "food artist" for these ads
ζ
>>704963 those are small concessions to make for a good picture they do crazy stuff to make food look good for cameras
!C0.PerkELE
also I think for an actual ad, they add some colouring agent to the glue-cheese mixture it looks too white or maybe they correct that in editing/with lighting?
>>704954 I actually won 4/4 of my ranked games after typing that shit out to you so you're my good luck charm now
Kannagiβ
>>704965 It is super dissapointing seeing food pictures and the actual food. I think it is one of reasons when I was younger that I didn't trust adverts or companies at all. along side a lot of things tbh
I think best well worst is most frozen/premade meals the cover vs the actual thing those can be so JARRING even if the product is actually tasty
Kannagiβ
I got a chinese self-heating hotpot, it is super cool watching it self-cook with just a little water. but when I tried the hotpot, the food is so perfumy smelling. I can't stand the smell.
>>704971 I wonder why it is more appealing like that compared to the full quality video I really like pixel art.
!C0.PerkELE
>>704975 even if it was just regular version, but with just chika cropped against blank background I think it would appeal more than the original removes lot of the noise and let's you really concentrate on the animation
!C0.PerkELE
but I'd really like to see the footage of whoever danced /// I'd really like to see the footage they used for tracing and then animting that scene who danced it and so on
ζ
rotoscoping/flattening like that is really cool they did that for Ghost Trick to make really impressive visuals for a low-res 2D game >>704979 yeah i mean, it's been used for a long time like prince of persia, the original
and isn't even that expensive so one has to wonder why they don't use it more? even most game studios have now realised the 3d-body capturing really helps in modeling after NaughtyDog used it bigtime in their games >>704978 I guess it just is about culture and unfamiliar things scaring and ofc, the first time you do it, you prolly have to get a lot of new equipment for it so it most likely isn't an investment you'd easily do as a studio
But if you look at say disney when they still drew their stuff, they used a lot of modeling, tracing, and so on to get their shit done and it isn't like that chika dance is the only case of rotorscoping in japanimation, but it still is damn rare
ζ
>>704979 there's not a lot of equipment needed im not sure what the barriers are really
it might just be higher frame restrictions with hand-drawn animation you can probably tailor it for lower frames per second, but need to commit to a higher FPS for realistic stuff
>>704981 Well... how many animation studios have good camera equipment on hand really? as in video recording stuff, cameras they prolly have a dozen for research etc but I doubt many have good enough video cameras for something like that nor the space to do it, most studios afterall rent the voice recording booth etc so you'd have to actually rent a studio, the staff and so on to do it adding quite a lot of costs
ζ
i think you overestimate it you could do it with a phone camera and just two people
Maybe? I have no idea really phones have damn good cameras nowadays, tho but are they good enough to get that good references?
not to mention would your in-house staff have the skill for rotorscoping/tracing that kinda stuff I don't think it would be that hard to learn, but once again it would take time off of the main production
Kaguya had some top animator for that scene so I bet he pretty much did it as a side project or something but say you'd use it for a 2-3 minute footage every 2nd episode, that would be quite a much of investment to it vs just having one of your partner/subsidiary 3dcgi studios do it for you
I bet it wouldn't be that hard to do it or that expensive and the novelty of it would spark interest in the series, but looking at japanese animation industry... they kinda avoid doing anything novel or new or revolutionary as anime already isn't really profitable as it is but rather the side deals and merchandising is what brings in the money. >>704988 yeah, but that was in that time's tech, meaning you wouldn't notice small issues due to sheer graphical limits
But I think the sheer traditionalist attitude over there prevents most of stuff like this Maybe Sunrise would do it
ζ
yeah, i mean prince of persia's rotoscoping was the one single guy filming his little brother for like one afternoon with an old shitty video camera, and he did all the work himself it's really not complicated or highly skilled work to trace the images
!C0.PerkELE
But then again, if Kaguya sold lik hell with the chika-dance being as poplar in japan as it is outside of it then maybe we will see more of rotorscoping/other funkier animation techniques in the future
Forexample try it out with some short 3-5m anime at a start a whole season of mostly rotorscoped anime and see how it does
ζ
it looks nice for the dancing or for more active scenes but for general scenes where people are just standing around it ends up looking very stiff and awkward doesn't mean you can't do it, but a fully rotoscoped show has downsides too
is why I said "mostly" well i guess the point would be to use it for scenes that require it and even then you could step out of the rotorscoped footage, to make it more over the top cause why limit yourself just to what people can do and not go further beyond into crazy but having the basic movements as realistic as possible and then go crazy cartoonish with it as it advances might be amusing too
Kinda like Nichijou wich was just filled with weird stuff from "barely animated" to "holy shit"
DUnno how big nichijou was in japan, but that basically was a studio just being crazy with their budget but then again it was Kyoani, during peak Haruhi boom so...
Though, I do recall that series also being a kind of "animator training platform" for their new staff to learn the craft better, before they worked on their bigger brand series'
Wonder did nichijou sell well, tho
!C0.PerkELE
and I guess they did partially crazy stuff like that with Kobayashi
ζ
nichijou was in 2011 i believe quite a bit after haruhi it aired the same season as madoka i think although it was two-cour
I think most noticable that post nichijou kyoani started their "k-on face" but prior to making nichijou they made haruhi movie and ofc kons2 and movie so those prolly funded a project like nichjou, even if it sold little but then again, kyoani prolly sells anime merch and bds with just the name association
>haha, we did a cyber on Iran >Discord is affected by the general internet outage. Hang tight. Pet your cats. Hi /moe/, are you ready for the cyber war
>"We are working with networks around the world and are observing network routes for Google and AWS being leaked as well." This might actually be the problem concerning discord
Kirara π
Sounds like the server problems are causing a lot of discord
I definitely clicked this image. I have no idea how that happened considering the two aren't next to each other unless the sort finished as soon as I double clicked.
ζ
>>705035 do you have any evidence to support that claim im gonna call protective services
It's a quote from the stream of my fav Dead by Daylight player, Jendenise It applies to every single game out there. anyway I got in a game with russians and they ping abused so eh, >>705053
Anno
my local news station is running clickbait headlines when reading the recent news >see this bizarre japanese safety drill, you'll never guess what it's about! >show a man in a lion suit trying to escape steel barricades gee I have no clue
>>705057 try em out available in lidl for maybe 1 pound per pack
Kannagiβ
>>705059 A quid for a pack of salt and vinegar, thats pretty steep. Their a common flavour, I've had them loads before. Used ta have them for pack lunch
one of the guys in my groups today, the guy who is also a client at the other place i work, pulled me aside to explain that he was uncomfortable with me because I work at both places and he was worried about stuff from one ending up being known at the other. I explained how the confidentiality works and affirmed my commitment to his privacy, and he seemed satisfied and opened up more in group.
What a cool guy. It takes a lot of courage to bring that up with one of your treatment providers.
on my first day of group, the therapist lady for the group was already in session when the nurse brought me in she asked me why i was there and to introduce myself and stuff i explained who i am and that i need some help accessing healthcare and finding a new provider and her first question is "Male or female?" i was like uhhhh ????? no? very disturbed by her question
but she was meaning to ask if i needed a male provider or female provider
!C0.PerkELE
>>705081 you'd think she'd go with "which do you prefer, male or female provider" etc
yeah she picked a really bad way to ask that question she acknowledged it too after getting to know her though, i wouldn't be surprised if she didn't mean to ask that but realized she messed up and tried to save it with a lie she was kind of a bad person
Kirara π
would you hang out with oda nobunaga
Anno
Maybe for a bit. Don't think it would be a long-time thing.
>>705092 damn that's fucked up rest in peace homie
Maria
>>705088 Simply killing him wouldn't give him the atonement he truly desires. Instead I'd chop his arms and legs off so he can enjoy the satisfaction of punishment relieving a guilty conscience. Then he can be allowed to die
Maria
Nah I'd actually just ask him to help me raise a new army
I wonder would have Oda managed to keep japan underwraps, tho? the what was hit hideotoyota had the clever Korea plan, to get all the war crazy samurai to be busy somewhere else, while he bgan to unify the nation but then he died
Anno
Nobunaga was kind of the quintessential conquering warlord. If he'd united all of Japan he would have had to turn to Korea or something or probably run out of steam and be unable to hold his unification for long.
And did he even have a heir tht could keep the dynasty going? Tokugawa had the luck to live quite a long life, so that his heir could be slowly slid into power during his lifetime. and the chance to inherit a japan, where good chunk of the samurai had diedi n japan and then in the final wars toku fought against hsi final rivals
at that point he had a lot easier job to do with unification of japan, following two warlords who had laid out quite a good groundwork for him
Anno
I believe Nobunaga did have a son, yes. But in the attack on the temple that killed him I think they found his son and executed him first.
>>705105 I think he had 0 sons there, but the whatever face sieged several oda forts, thath oused his sons immediately, before he wask illed by hideotoyota or whatever his name was
Anno
>>705106 Yeah but I think Nobunaga's direct lineage didn't survive the Sengoku era?
This is where my brief Japanese history starts to fall apart though so I'm not certain.
ζ
how many calories do you think are in kratom ive had probably like 35 grams today
But seriously the guy who did Honnouji, did he seriously think he was going to live through that that the two main allies of Nobu wouldn't avenge him? or that the coalition would follow him and not the two more powerful dudes? Or that the anti-oda coalition would rally behind him?
Kirara π
no? he 100% did not expect to survive
!C0.PerkELE
quite an idiot
Kirara π
no? they didn't care about living like we do today they trained to let go of their attachments to life their goal was to live as though they were already corpses
ζ
it's not a bad plan ive been doin it for like a decade or so
Kirara π
it's the only way to truly live your life
ζ
where are people supposed to meet people nowadays besides tinder that's not real
you can't meet someone in a library the librarian will yell at you if you try to talk to them dumbass
Maria
>>705118 how do you start social conversations that lead to connections and relationships in these contexts
Kirara π
>>705120 the contexts are inherently social (with the exception of the library) so just communicating with people leads to that stuff they encourage the discussion of mutual interests which are generally what leads to connection e.g. mutual interest in a hobby, let's do [hobby], which naturally progresses into conversations about things you can bond over
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i hope medicaid will cover EMDR i hope i can get EMDR soon the php only set me up with a regular therapist, not a trauma therapist for some reason so i probably have to chase down a diagnosis first
>>705129 >>705131 well you know it's nothing too crazy not like doing Elbrus or Aconcagua. It's only a bit over 4000m and it's nothing really technical. But still. should be good. something different. Get me out of the house. >>705131 1 week. >>705130 Of course. that's a given. I take Yunocchi everywhere.
bang do you want tickets to Korn live in Austin next month
bang
man i kind of do for the sake of doing literally anything outside of my house but on the other hand i don't actually like Korn that much that's a tough one
ζ
it just amazes me they still play live lmao they haven't had an album in 20 years and nobody knows who they are anymore
bang
wait what really i mean it's one thing for a band that old to still tour but it's completely different if they haven't made an album in that long that's actually ridiculous even bands like Metallica throw out random whatevers every now and then to justify a tour
ζ
oh shit they are still making albums i didn't even realize my bad man what a weird world
this is one of their more recent songs from 3 years ago just..... yeah
bang
one good thing about it is seemingly an attempt at saying "fuck you" to either their record label or some of their more annoying fans but god it just sucks
ζ
>>705157 lmao what the fuck i never liked korn and nothing changed there but this seems... idk even where's the motivation to make this song i dont understand it's terrible
bang
the video has a decent message at least i mean it's kind of edgy but pointing out that two radio conglomerates control 42% of what listeners hear is interesting
bang
i just wish it didn't sound so awful
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>>705160 i mean that's the entire late 90s/early 2000s trying to sell angst and anti-corporate messaging through a corporate CD label and merchandising
bang
man, tool still isn't on spotify and honestly i'm fucking pissed
this new medication was quelling my racing thoughts at first but now it's not anymore, not today at least maybe it was just the tiredness side effect that i felt before
now i can feel my mood bouncing around between distressing feelings like envy and unease to really excited feelings i can't control and want to tell everyone about it's really difficult to deal with i dont like not having control over myself
Anno
I had a couple nights early on when I started taking the SSRI that I think I felt stuff similar to that. It's why I switched out from taking it after dinner to taking it in the morning, 'cause I'd be laying in bed and my heart and mind is just racing on levels way too high to make it easy to sleep.
well it's not causing it it's still a little slowed down compared to normal, but less so than when i started
it was like really thick molasses that my brain had to sludge through so i felt slowed down but it didn't slow my brain down for very long and now it's used to it and it's playing its old tricks again it's definitely manageable but it causes some upset to manage
it's very easy to fall into a pattern of negativity, and in order to resist it i have to distract myself from the narrowing thoughtspace that's focusing in on the negative and i can keep doing that but it gets a little harder to distract each time until i get impulsive and have to whine about it on /moe/ or solicit someone else's excitement to validate my own it'd be nice to have a normal brain that likes taking it easy
nice enjoy the neverending weekend it's been a long time since i haven't had a job i didn't really get anything done with that extra free time though
Anno
It ain't cheap, livin' alone in the Large Apple.
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>>705319 what will you do next? move back somewhere else? or just land a new gig once you need it?
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
>>705322 probably keep living here for a while ive only gotten acquainted with this place
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
and yeah find a new gig
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i played this amateur pixelated horror game that was surprisingly good pretty good at building tension with such limited assets too though it still feels limited in how scary it can really be by the crude sprites it's called faith i recommend it thanks for reading my blog
whoever implemented this did a good job on scaling the faces to the bodies and that is a lot of combinations damn like 22500 or so?
Anno
It's what, quantity squared, minus quantity? If it's using all purportedly 807 Pokemon that's over 650,000 possible combinations.
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
itβs usin the original 150 or so idk if anything is missing so they cut out 150 faces and 150 bodies and made them all colorizable and got coordinates for each bodyβs head dimensions
Anno
Then yeah only 22,350 possible combinations before considering colours.
Anno
I mean I say only but that's still an absurd amount.
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
420
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Accurate.
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
you ever done any magic?
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
don do it it will ruin your aura
Anno
I couldn't magic my way out of a cardboard box.
Anno
my sticks and stones tokyo smoke i played the fool til i started to choke
that cop who shot an autistic mans caretaker was acquitted of serious charges i guess if you're a cop you can shoot defenseless people on the ground with their hands up and get a misdemeanor charge that takes three years in court
If I was a cop I would simply shoot someone whenever I wanted a paid vacation
Marsh shitposting on the go via Telephone
Is this a smart plan or retarded: Stay up all night tonight to almost guarantee i sleep through the flight tomorrow because I'm so tired
Anno
How long's the flight?
Marsh shitposting on the go via Telephone
Like 10 hours
Anno
Well if you don't think staying up the whole time will make things difficult and if you think you can get good sleep on the plane, that seems all right.
>>705376 << moebius zero, bandit on your tail! >> now you see the joke is that ιΆ means zero so instead of mobius one it's mobius zero. This was well worth four failed posts
i was reaching into my bag to feel for a pack of gum i knew i had put in there but i couldn't feel it so i kept digging around but i forgot i had put a scalpel in my bag so now my hand is all sliced up none of the slices are deep but i look like a dumbass
or rather, i knew it was in there, but it was in a separated compartment but since it's sharp it cut through the barrier and slipped into the main compartment of my bag wwww
sometimes people need scalpels that's why they exist every scalpel is sheathed because the blades are sterile and disposable and shouldn't be used multiple times there isn't always a place to safely dispose of used blades though until you get back to somewhere controlled
mental health stuff is becoming really serious as a society i don't think it will be as easily dismissed as a generation or two ago
even though we're taking it a lot more seriously, there's still a lot of stigma attached to it even well-intentioned social networks learn to temper their expectations or loosen their attachment a little bit to the mentally ill maybe it's a two-way street with people isolating themselves a bit and being harder to accomodate too, but i think we learn to sort of brace ourselves for the impact we expect they will, or could, have
Anno
With Etika it seems he had friends reaching out trying to figure out what they can do to help, but he was pushing away the help. But that's coming from their perspective so naturally it's biased towards them feeling they were probably doing all they felt comfortable doing. Like you said it's not impossible they may have already been tempering their expectations.
It's difficult to know what to do to help even when you're 100% wanting to help.
Help is kind of a formless thing, too. A lot of well-adjusted people are comfortable with the social exchange of asking for help with things, so they have some internal perception of what it means to get help with something or give help Sometimes it's more difficult. I'm sure I've been difficult with you guys when I clearly needed help sometimes. It's difficult because when feelings of low self value are involved, receiving help feels like you're compromising everyone around you in a way that is not sustainable and you can tangibly feel the burden of your friendship on the group.
engagement is really important in those vulnerable scenarios. instead of generosity or typical perceptions of help, offering someone a sense of belonging and mutual benefit is sometimes the biggest help. somewhere to be and something to do whereby you feel valued and useful. A lot of times in my experience it's been "look, look what your friends are doing for you. look how much they're willing to help. that's how much you mean to them." And that kind of thing almost starts a panic because now my social circle makes me feel self-conscious about my presence, and i feel like everyone's going through a debacle and that it's not sustainable or natural.
i spent the last two new yearses with eku when she was feeling really bad i couldn't really help but i stayed in a discord/skype call with them through all the madness going on at home and terrible things and just patiently sat through it and spent the time i did that a lot with eku, but not since that new years prior it's really hard sometimes
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
iβd like to see social networks that are more warren-like where you canβt get an angry mob of 13 year olds piling on the hate because you gotta work your way into the community or a web of trust or somethin we already have highly cloistered bubbles due to the Algorithm and i dont see that stopping anytime soon
yeah that sounds nice. i wish there were more liveboards. it's a nice little nest sort of thing we've got going with the liveboard community we get stragglers who visit /moe/ along with various other liveboards exclusively, and it's a little interconnected with an okay amount of overlap i think if there were a more central hub for people to land at, then get distributed into their specializations a bit, that would ease up on "working your way into the community" kind of stuff
i have a few liveboard ideas i kind of want to try implementing too it'd be fun
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
yeah idk maybe ill find some time to hack on moe now that im quitting
i just walked into a pharmacy and bought a syringe
one of the access people told me today that they could help me get back into student loans if i wanted to go back to school ive been kind of pondering it all day
i wouldn't be able to get into a good medical school anymore but i could still get in one i wouldn't finish surgical residency until i was in my 40s though that's as many as four tens and that's terrible
i could whiz through a mathsters degree and start a phd but i don't really see a point in that i'd just be doing the same thing im doing now but with a lot more debt
ive got some big choices to make i feel so old
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
go to lambda school and get a remote tech jerb itβs the next big thing
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
there are so many girls walkin around with their highbeams on i am like βwtf is this the norm nowβ and also βniceβ
Anno
>>705422 Could you maybe daisy chain through academic accomplishment from a lower-reknown school up into better ones? That's probably some pretty intensive work but if you had the resources of a university/college that might help a lot too.
>>705423 i was thinking about one of those fancy cissp certificates i feel like it's a little bit of a scam though way more people have that certification than there's use for, but it still draws in more flocks of people by waving around big salary numbers it's ignoring that very few people in proportion have that salaried position
i like information and i like systems and that's about it crypto or cybersec stuff might work for me otherwise i'd rather dig around in someone's prostate and kidneys
>>705425 idk i only need a few credits so my undergrad gpa is bleh anyway id be going entirely off my gre/mcat stuff, i wouldn't expect much
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
thereβs a big setup in the park for national HIV testing day with stereo speakers blasting At Night
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
>>705427 yeah so much of this old world credentialism stuff is irrelevant to real hiring committees these days, besides very specific regulatory things
>>705423 what's the catch on this lambda stuff im pretty familiar with AI and ML stuff, what do i actually get out of their program is it something potential employers care about
>>705437 I would only need a few more undergrad credits if I still want to do med school. I'm 30 though I'm not sure I have the freedom for five years of residency anymore
i might do a math program or something so i can work information systems or cyber security stuff those seem like good fields right now and in my alley
It's a little anecdotal but the friend I've made at university, he's twenty-nine and pretty much starting his psychology degree from scratch at that age. Though to be fair I don't think he has much intention to go further than the four-year degree but well, he's only done like a little less than half the credit requirements for it so the future's still open. Of course he has the advantage of a wife who's finished her doctorate and between them they can sustain their lifestyle pretty comfortably. But in terms of age, it definitely seems like going back to school at your age is definitely not too late. That's ultimately your prerogative though.
Samu π !KW2DbpWwls
>>705430 itβs a coding bootcamp they donβt charge tuition, instead they take a cut from your first couplw years working afterward up to some reasonable macimum
>>705441 Yeah, that's a big advantage. I don't have anyone to help me out and I don't have any savings. That's the big issue in my case, more so than the age. I can't afford to wait until my 40s to get there when rent is due next week.
>>705442 it looks pretty neat but i think the same issue probably applies. the part-time program could probably work for me though im already doing that basically but with unaccredited educational sources on cybrary and elsewhere
today was a beautiful treasure lots of fun work groups were great i did my mindfulness group and my new self-care group
haha everyone thinks im like some kind of mindfulness master one guy was talking about how listening to me has helped him enjoy doing things like washing dishes or talking to his wife more i was like "that's not my fault!" someone else was freaked out because i said there are tons of times when im not mindful and i even text in meetings
Anno
I don't think there's a human brain that can be mindful every waking second anyway.
Kirara π
yeah, there's not even buddha wasn't
the groups always think it's hilarious when i say "the OG buddha" they think it's funny no matter how many times i say it
There will be internet where I'm going but I also kind of like to use these chances to sort of. Disconnect from things. So I'll probably stay away from online stuff.
I'll see you all in a week After I've Bagged another Peak.
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Yeah I get that. Enjoy your trip Marsh. Bring us back some stories!
oh okay. the last few nights ive woken up to you guys being yellow and waiting for me by yellow i mean orange so i thought i would download everything before hand instead in case i nap again i don't really make a plan to nap but it sometimes happens
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Ah I see. I usually have everything downloaded ahead of time because I use my torrent program as a reminder of what's on the docket. So combined with how some days are pretty predictable I can usually guess what'll get watched.
life is a lot harder with one screen i would be able to multitask a lot better and stay on top of stuff like that if/when i get a second one
someone is supposed to send me a hand-me-down monitor and keyboard but they keep forgetting it's been almost three months now, but i can't complain too much if im getting it free
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Hm, a lot of what I'm looking at for summer shows are probably drop worthy but the first pass on stuff that we would either would be or might try out counts up to like thirty shows a week. We're currently doing 20.5 shows a week so there's definitely gonna have to be some consideration once the new season starts spinning up.
low 20s seems to be the sweet spot four a night and then two or three nights with a fifth show depending how we're doing on time
i didnt see a whole lot next season either but it'll be fun to check them out i think we'll have no trouble whittling it down
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https://www.livechart.me/summer-2019/tv I just ran through this and counted anything that was a full show that didn't look fundamentally horrendous. Which is why I said there was a good chunk of stuff that's probably drop worthy.
But yeah if there's an excess of stuff to watch it's easy to weed out the more mediocre stuff.
wow twinkle star is four cour wait i think i already knew that but i forgot i knew it
i wish everything was available there's always some fun looking cute kid's shows that i would totally watch i dont think anyone bothers capturing or translating those though
>>705471 Every now and then you get some niche fansub group that goes for them but yeah, it's a moon shot usually. Doesn't hurt to check in like the first two or so weeks of airing if anyone's doing it.
>>705462 nah i was gonna but ton got me fucked up into GBF again and i already got GFL and revue starlight if i end up dropping GBF again i might pick it up
today was fucking annoying people are so fucking frustrating
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sorry i'll stop being a people
what happened tell me about it
Anno
delivery was 14 hours late, it took them two and a half hours to drop it off, one of them didn't respond to english or spanish, the other one was so new at trucking he didn't know where the paperwork we need is, and we were short like thousands of fucking dollars of product that wasn't even on the truck when i looked we had four people in the store but only two of us were doing any fucking work one of them went to go eat some noodles and fuck around on his phone when we got a rush of customers my boss saw it on the camera and told us the truck not being finished by now is unacceptable, told him to get back to work, he came to me like 'fuck the truck im not doing that' then he went to the back office and shut the door and literally jacked off on the floor. so he's fired and we have few good applicants coming in for the shifts we are already missing people for it's all just unnecessarily difficult because people are being dumb and doing dumb shit and i really wish the other guy would shut the fuck up about smoking weed goddamn i am trying to stay clean not that you can expect anyone around here to not be on something and etika is fucking dead and i feel bad and sore and whine bitch moan ok im done
>>705484 it's alright now, I got it done and I have two (2) days off without any chance of getting called in as far as I know anyways my feet have been hurting a lot because my boots have worn out insoles, i think that may be making me more irritable than usual too people are really difficult to deal with sometimes but people are really nice to be with sometimes there will be good days to balance this dumb day out i'm sure but nothing will bring Etika back i guess. i'm really gonna miss him. though I was steeled for the announcement when they said they found his personal belongings on that bridge. >>705485 work is always a struggle with stupidity. I think I might just be stressing over it more than usual lately. my emotional state has been kind of wild. Now to get drunk and forget what I was mad about.
i really like this album especially this track >>>/watch?v=MElLEireGcQ i miss sharing music with like wavelength and mumu or what have you
also i found a cool trick to fool how youtube mutes itself if you switch tabs on mobile chrome suck my dick google
Anno
Tokyo Smoke's one of the new cannabis shops that have popped up here now that it's legal hah hah. A friend's boyfriend works there; I should pop in and say hi some timse. Times, even.
I thought I didn't know any Cage The Elephant but I learned the other day they're the ones that did Ain't No Rest For The Wicked so I guess I did.
>talks about weed right after i complain people are talking about weed and it's making it harder to stay clean
>>705493 it's alright man I thought it was kind of funny though I forgot they legalized it in canada Tokyo Smoke is a pretty cool name for a smoke shop
Cage the Elephant is one of my favorite bands, they're really consistent with their album quality and each album has a nice variety of themes and moods but they seem to only have a couple singles that ever got any attention on the radio this is the other one they played a lot you might have heard it >>>/watch?v=LKJ4j2rYvr0 at least they played it every fucking hour on alt rock stations and such here the other tracks on that album are better in my opinion especially telescope >>>/watch?v=9OCEh6g6whc
>>705494 good ass taste there stranger this is my second favorite song from that album >>>/watch?v=-jiPLpbx70M the mv is pretty good too >>705496 i probably should too i guess maybe in a bit >>705495 i don't have to anymore i got over the shakes and shit i just want to get drunk tonight haven't drank since like uh last tuesday actually oh wait no i had a mojito few days ago
kratom would be a nicer alternative but the shop i buy it from closes at 9pm and the last chance i had to stop by i had like -$11 in my bank haha
sorry i'm drinking when you'd rather i don't though i should have more resolve when it comes to the bottle since i occasionally get kind of psychotic when intoxicated
it's okay. im not going to make you feel bad about it. it was a selfish request really since id rather spend time with you but i can't when you wanna drink since i dont drink anymore
i hope you enjoy destressing from today and have some fun but dont get too reckless
there's a pornographic penis image in the archive i can't do anything about it i tried to remove the penis but it says out of sync cannot delete image once it's in the archive it's stuck
i have to consult samurai and have him remove the pornographic penis from the archive this is dreadful
>>705498 I feel kind of bad about it regardless My family and friends and shit all think I shouldn't drink and they're probably right But I'm stupid and have no productive coping mechanisms here I can't go anywhere fun or anything, working out is the only other option and I can only do so much with this starter weight set The gym's like 9 miles away so I only go once a week if at all Maybe I should just work out after work every day But then I'd miss anime every time and people would be upset either way
Why can't we spend time together if I'm drinking? I want to spend time with you. Aren't we talking right now anyways? Does it just tempt you to know the guy you're hanging out with is drunk? I'll stop talking about drinking if you want. I probably shouldn't anyways since there's other recovering alcoholics on this board. >>705499 Wow, where is it? Seems weird that you can't delete things from the archive. I guess they're probably in some kind of non-interactive format once they get pruned into the archive, or something. >>705501 >>>/watch?v=x4UGSuBnFUk Wish I had seen these guys live when they were in dallas last time. There's another concert at that place in august I might go to with my dad. The Bomb Factory has a lot of big names passing through!
you can talk about drinking if you want. it doesn't tempt me to drink or anything. i have zero urge to drink because im enjoying being sober and i have a very sober focus but me being focused on sober things is a buzzkill for someone who's drunk, and i can't really operate on the wavelength of someone who's drinking anymore in order to hold a conversation. we can talk yeah, sure, but we're not really going to be on the same wavelength. in fact i worry that i might say things that make you spiral into negativity again and i don't have the reach to stop you from doing dumb stuff, so i feel it's safer if i don't really try to connect with you when you're drinking.
basically yeah, i can still talk to you, but i don't feel like im talking to you if that makes sense
im not really sure what to say about coping stuff. i stay inside all the time and don't go to the gym i train my brain maybe picking up something you like to learn about would help you cope with your days well i look forward to getting done with work so i can bury my nose in literature or educational materials and make progress day by day. that's fun and motivating for me.
>>705503 I don't know if talking about sober things is really a buzzkill for me! I'm really uncommunicative and reticent when sober. Being a little drunk makes me much more capable of engaging in meaningful conversation. Honestly, the last couple of times I lost my shit, I was being distant and keeping to myself. Pretty sure that's why I got so self destructive. I've never had an episode like that as a result of talking to someone. Talking keeps me from falling into the deep end. When I did, I reached out immediately realizing I'm acting crazy and looking for confirmation from other people. As long as you can say words to me you can affect me, be it stopping me from being dumb or otherwise. I do read your words and I hear even when I want to ignore everyone. Though I missed a post or two that could have stopped me a bit sooner.
You are still talking to me, though. A more emotionally transparent and less wound up me, but I am still here. It's not another person and I'm not going to forget what I did or anything. That's only happened like twice, and I don't touch hard liquor generally so I can't get quite that far gone.
I stay inside all the time too, but I like exercise. I've been skipping out on the time I usually used to lift for a little while because I got really invested in my XIV guild, though. It's rewarding to push yourself and the endorphins are a natural high! Makes it a little easier to do day to day activities when you're stronger, too, but I think the act is worth it in itself, even without the benefits. The only thing I don't like is that I have to be alone while I do it. One time a guy talked to me for a bit while we both used the curling machine at my gym, and that was really nice, wish I had someone to be my gym buddy instead of just listening to music or whatever by myself. Most people there don't even look at anybody else with their headphones in, haha. I practice the guitar a bit now, too, and that's fun but also a solitary activity.
Anno
I ran out of characters for a /moe/ post, what the fuck that's a rarity
>>705503 There's not really too much I want to learn though, honestly, I read about some medical science and chemistry sometimes because those are pretty interesting to me, but I don't really have much drive to learn as much as I can, I guess. I know a lot of basic shit about a ton of different subjects and don't care enough about them to pursue deeper knowledge. Studying isn't my preference as far as pleasuring myself goes honestly, I'd rather be laboring or hunting.
Ah, I probably need to go camping again, I bet that'd help me a lot. Too bad I only have a hunting license valid in Texas. Maybe I could go camping somewhere I haven't been to that has good fishing spots. Though national parks probably prohibit fishing inside the grounds.
see, you say "drive to learn" for me, it's not a drive. it's not something i exert myself to do. it's a state of rest for me to learn something. it takes more energy, costs more energy for me to try to subdue my thoughts than to just let them focus on something external and process that. it's just idle toiling, but it soothes me and releases stress. calligraphy does that for me as well, just getting to make smooth, rhythmic patterns on paper, even if im not writing anything special but just practicing pen strokes.
there's probably something that feels that way for you. learning was just one example from my point of view. i could sit in place all day and read material or watch lectures or listen to conference presentations. i couldn't do that when i drank. my thoughts were really impatient and hurried like i was looking for something to entertain me or distract me. it's just a totally different state of mind than how i usually am.
camping is really good. i really want to work with clay and make some pottery it's such a simple thing but it's so hard to do in modern society unless you sign up for a class or spend a lot of money to buy a potter's wheel and make a studio work area for it. out in nature you just have to survey the area, know the territory, collect the clay and water and that's it all the space you want to make it. i really like crafting stuff and working with raw materials like that, and dirt and stone and stuff
>>705507 I can kind of understand, but it's not really applicable to everything for me. Things I enjoy are really easy to learn more about, but they're mostly really simple subjects as far as written knowledge can convey. Learning new tricks on the guitar was really fun, too, but playing too long hurts my hands and it's kind of lonely. Most scientific subjects are a bit uninteresting to me, I guess. But doing things like climbing, hiking, hunting, fishing, I could do it forever and never get tired. When I was climbing with Matt there were a few times I jokingly asked him something like, "Think I can climb that?" and he was all "Haha, no fucking way" so I went and fucking did it easily. I like things that are physically challenging, especially regarding stamina or dexterity. On the other hand I get really restless and uncomfortable sitting in a library or at home or what have you and reading about things.
When I drink I find it much easier to sit still and concentrate or pay attention to one input at a time. In any non-sedated state I just can't help but bounce between what I'm attentive to, most of the time I'm playing a game and watching a video and listening to music and reading or posting on discord or /moe/ etc. at the same time, on the computer.
Camping is really great for leaving your stress and anxiety behind and living with immediate purpose. Plus it's nice to be outside and enjoy the sights and sounds of nature. Living in the city feels kind of depressing to me because there's not enough greenery and critters.
Though I guess I mainly enjoy camping with other people, come to think of it. By myself it's just kind of a really long meditative session and I spend more time thinking about myself than doing anything rewarding. My favorite camping trip is still the time I went with Eku's friend and her friends. They had all gotten the time off for the weekend but there was an enormous storm that developed a few days before the trip was slated. Scouring the site for wood that was still capable of serving as firewood, erecting tarps in the torrential downpour to cover the whole little settlement, sleeping on the cold hard ground with the feeling of rainwater rushing underneath me, it was a truly memorable experience. >>705510 Yeah, it was with her. Well, rather she invited me when I was over at her house and it was for a friend of hers who was either getting deployed in the military or going to basic, I don't quite remember which. She seemed fairly upset with how the weather messed with everything and how her friends were acting, I guess? But I had a great time. She seemed to like me a bit too much, though, and I'm not really interested in most people. She was nice company, though. Had a lot of fun watching her play Hyperdimension Neptunia and cracking jokes about the goofy english dub. Wonder what she's up to these days. I'll probably never know though.
Still feels kind of unreal about Eku. I thought he was doing better. It must have been really painful for him, whatever it was.
yeah, i envied eku's ability to make friends so easily sometimes it's really hard for me. i wish i had more friends to do stuff with ive just always been really bad at talking to people. i do pretty well with people online, and in those skype calls eku would pull me into with those friends in person im just so scared of people all the time though.
i definitely do better around girls though guys are wild cards
>>705512 eku was mostly shut off towards the end. she was going by she, though had a partner for a little while who i think was really unhealthy psychologically for eku but i had been on call for eku for // on standby for eku for years whenever there was an emergency spent at least three long, sleepless nights coaching through some hysterical and suicidal episodes. the fact that eku lasted a few extra years is some consolation, i think, though not a big one. but i think the fact that eku closed off to me for those last six-ish months indicated that there probably wasn't anyone who was in reach to help
i wish i could have done more. i remember getting a call one morning asking me very aggressively to watch the producers with her it was like 10am and i had a long work night just finished, dead tired, needed to sleep for work but i did it anyway and i can still hear eku's voice singing along with it and laughing so childishly at gene wilder it's kind of a special memory. there are lots like that but that one is really vivid
I wish I had kept in contact with Eku. I felt a little bit of a kindred spirit in him. But I kind of ghosted him and everyone else for half a year. Missed a lot of chances to connect with people and feel something. But that's all dust in the wind. >>705511 Ah yeah, my bad. When I stopped talking to her she hadn't said anything about that. But I used to text them pretty frequently, even though her parents said I was never allowed in their house again, haha. They had a pretty big heart, forgiving me for that display, which I still don't quite remember. Bang probably has a better record of that shit. She tried to text me a few times while I was MIA from /moe/ et al. I probably could have been a better friend. They weren't really too far away from me, assuming she still lived in that house in Denton. Was like 40 minutes away taking the highway. But, then again, I was also a mess physically and mentally, I probably would have been incapable of providing the kind of help necessary. I can only appreciate what they gave me and wish they're enjoying their afterlife. So it goes for all of them. Wish I had done more, miss you. Hope I made it easier, at least a little bit. >>705511 That sounds pretty cute. I wanna sing for /moe/. But they keep forgetting or shooting me down when I suggest karaoke in philly and so on! Eku was pretty good at singing, maybe they could've gone somewhere with that skill. >>705513 I sang for him once. He's pretty cool, but he gets angry easily! Not a very relaxing kind of guy to be around, but fun in a different way!
Maria
>>705512 >I wanna sing for /moe/ Have you met a guy called Perkele?
>>705513 I sang a few covers of songs I liked to sing along with a couple years ago and put them on soundcloud, but I guess I deleted them at some point since then. Maybe someone else downloaded the .mp3 of it. I remember being pretty satisfied with my attempt. Problem with being interested in singing and such is I can't write anything I think is interesting for the life of me. Everyone else is a singer/songwriter these days, so I'd be a big gay loser if I was a vocalist that couldn't write lyrics.
>>705533 Musical theory is too complicated man Just find someone with no voice and get them to write songs. You can be two parts of a whole, ying yang, that sorta duo
>>705541 Yeah, that would definitely be preferable. But I have pretty high standards for what constitutes meaningful lyrics, you know! There's a lot of local amateur musicians around here, but the general theme is glorifying sex, violence, and money. I am not really into it. I can't sing with my heart if the lyrics are so material. It's fun to go to the studio and listen to the amateurs and have a few drinks with the audio guys though.
FormerRei@mobile
>>705541 You don't really need to know music theory to be a good songwriter. It just helps.
>>705546 Well I guess it's time to start writing then Although if you aren't trying to make money I see nothing wrong with just singing covers of songs you know It's fun Compete with perkele to be top aidoru of /moe/
Even though a recording of me vocalizing horrible noises and rhythmically tapping a spoon on a ceramic bowl got likes on soundcloud, somehow I'm convinced what I try to write seriously is vapid and unworthy of anyone else! >>705558 Symphogear is fucking great. It's hotblooded AND musical. >>705560 I like singing blues and classic rock the most but I have a voice suited to a variety of pop genres I guess. I dunno, you've heard me sing, just tell me what you want to hear!
FormerRei@mobile
>>705554 On my backlog Err It is It has been for a bit but its moved up recently
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>>705557 ill write something for you what style do you want to sing
FormerRei@mobile
>>705557 >somehow I'm convinced what I try to write seriously is vapid and unworthy of anyone else! That's almost exactly why I don't write lyrics Although in my case its a little more "I'm convinced anything I write seriously I won't be able to take seriously" in addition
Maria
>>705558 It's so good Singing girls All the girls are gay And they have mechanical bits stuck to them And the main character is the goodest girl
>>705557 Well then you might as well not listen to music if that's your stance. Everyone's expressing themselves so either it's all vapid or none of it is
>>705561 It's why I don't do anything creative at all anymore! When I was younger I was a lot more creative and didn't hold myself to such an unrealistic standard, but I guess at some point I decided it isn't enough that other people like it if I don't think it's amazing. But nobody is ever really amazed with what they can do, are they? >>705563 Yeah, none of it is vapid, everyone is trying to make their feelings concrete.
It doesn't really matter if I think it's stupid or weird later on, if someone else found it worth the investment, that's enough justification to exist. I've abandoned a bunch of creative endeavors for that stupid reason, haha. As if I can say for sure what is or isn't worthwhile to someone else.
>>705573 So I've heard. I guess a few of you really liked it. I don't remember what I wrote really, but I do remember the experience of desolation. It really made me think about life and the permanence of our actions. Rather, the lack thereof. Seeing how nature was reclaiming such an enormous structure. How those hundreds of store fronts were all completely eradicated in some few years. It's kind of sad to think about for me, since so many memories were wrought in that complex, but they're forever with me, despite the actual building getting demolished a few months ago.
They built a parking lot, by the by. Needed more real estate for the people working at the General Motors factory to park. That lot's for people who work there but don't own a GM produced car, or affiliated motorcycle, however. If you work at GM, but don't buy one of their cars, you get second class citizen tier parking. Gotta walk like 15 minutes to the plant, lol.
>>705569 I still remember that post about the mall you made on /magic/ It was pretty good I think you just described the mall in a way that really resonated with the nostalgic feelings people had about their own malls. It felt personal and real
Maria
>>705569 Yeah it's always a shame to see physical places change But I will always take the reclamation of nature over the existence of a mall I'm sure some kids are making memories of their own in its ruins
>>705573 I gotta be honest though, I was feeling particularly literate and prosaic that night. I highly doubt I'd be creative enough with my words to make something as compelling with any kind of frequency. >>705582 Maybe it struck me particularly because the city I'm in is so constantly growing and thriving. It's pretty rare for a staple venue to collapse, though not too surprising considering the place was only popular because it was the only indoor shopping mall in the city limits for a long time. Soon as another venue struck ground, at least half of the businesses renting space in the old mall jumped ships to the newer, more strategically placed, more technologically advanced shopping center. Even if the new place wasn't as great as it is, they'd probably have changed over their lease regardless. The older mall was horribly mismanaged and the owner spent next to nothing maintaining the venue, didn't promote it, and didn't go to any length to secure unique businesses to house. He just took the rent money, provided the bare minimum, and fixed broken pavement or walls given a month or two. When all the shops started cancelling their contract, he raised the rent for the few that were near the cinema inside the mall until they couldn't afford to operate anymore. Then he sold the land the mall was on and it got replaced with a parking lot. Rich get richer.
>>705614 Yeah It's really sad, isn't it. But surely you also knew, when they found his phone and wallet and such. >>705615 Time to code archive manipulation functionality for mods! You quit your job so you got time to make /moe/ great again, right!?
Maria
>>705584 is it like when people say "say something funny" Like you can't just be funny on command You can't be poetic on command
>>705634 The only dish I have in my room is indeed dirty. But it's a coffee mug from when I woke up. Tomorrow I'm going to go to the kitchen when I wake up and wash it and make more coffee and put more coffee in it so there's no point in putting it away.
Anno
That's kind of me with the two mugs I use for tea. They're pretty much in regular use that cleaning and putting them away just seems like a waste of energy.
Maria
yeah same I have one cup in my room that's used to put tea bags into once they're done steeping in the actual teacup And they get rotated out
Anno
I never take tea bags out of tea I make. I like my tea really strong though.
>>705641 I'm like the only person in my house that just washes and reuses dishes like that. Feels like a waste to put a plate that only got dirty for like a minute in the sink to wait for someone to load the dishwasher. I usually just reuse my coffee cup for everything. Most of the time it's that souvenir I got from philly at the MΓΌtter
Maria
>>705648 it just annoys me aa lilittle having them in there
>>705648 I like strong tea too but I don't like the tea bag being in my mug So I just steep my black tea for like 6 minutes and herbal for like 8 Green tea is kind of hard to steep for long though, it gets bitter really fast
Anno
If I'm making tea in a mug I'll just start drinking it once it cools enough that I'm not scalding my tongue. That's usually only ever Earl Grey which is done steeping well before that point hits. If I'm making tea in a mug that mug holds like 700mL of water so it maybe holds on to its heat longer than a normal mug anyway.
I've found that 4 or 5 minutes is enough for the boiling water from my water heating thingy to cool when it comes to tea. But I'm kind of stupid and have burned my tongue a few times trying to drink tea that's only steeped for a few minutes. Tea tastes a bit better to me after a longer steeping anyway so I wait for at least 5 minutes.
My sister waits like, 10 or 15 minutes before she actually starts drinking her tea, though. She's more sensitive to hot drinks I guess. Sometimes I'll go to get another cup of tea and she'll have like almost all of hers left and I'm like, wat da zog >>705659 Wait, 700ml? That seems like a lot. Oh, it's like 24oz. That's a lot bigger than my usual cup! Mine are 12oz, guess they'd be like 350ml mugs for you?
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Yeah, I've got a second mug that's about standard size too. I use that one when I've made a whole 1.7L pot of tea because twelve ounce cups fit almost perfectly into that five times.
Makes sense, i can make about four cups of tea with my 1.5L water heating thing. That little 10 dollar doodad has served me very well these last few years. Best birthday git ever.
Anno
Electric kettles are great. I made tea with a stovetop kettle for like three to five years and man I don't ever want to go back to that. Though I do some times miss the "FOOOWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE" of the kettle's whistle.
>>705673 Before I got the electric kettle, which I thank you for reminding me of the actual fucking term to use when referring to it, I just boiled water on the stove in a pot and it was a huge pain in the ass. I never had a stovetop kettle unfortunately. I got pretty good at pouring water from a pan into a cup carefully, though.
Anno
I've got this funny memory of once hearing the kettle whistle from my room so I leap out of bed and barrel down the hall leading from my room towards the kitchen only to get to the end of it, having passed my mother in the washroom along that hall. And it's actually like three or four in the morning and of course no one's actually put the kettle on and I must have heard the whistle in my dream or something.
The only time I've ever heard a stove kettle whistle was when I was at my old friend/ex's house. First time I heard it I was really surprised! I had no idea what the fuck that noise was I was just zoned out watching him play his night elf warrior in vanilla WoW or something I think.
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When I was younger my parents would make a pot of tea pretty much every night. I didn't really drink a lot back then because I was a kid and my parents were pretty responsible with giving kids caffeine at night. So I 've pretty much always been familiar with kettle whistles hah hah.
These days I don't ever pull it out because the electric kettle's faster and better for not waking the house when I make tea late at night.
>>705683 My parents didn't drink tea that much, but I did develop the habit of drinking coffee in the morning since my mom always drank it. All of us did, really. Guess I grew to like drinking tea because my great aunt drank it, if I had to point out some source. She was basically my mom since I was really antisocial as a kid and
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tended to evacuate wherever the rest of the family was. I shared the garage as a bedroom with her for a while, too, since there was a shortage of open rooms. She always watched old shows like Gunsmoke on TV and had this artificial rainmaker in her "room" to relax and sleep with. Made this sound of rain falling. Rain still makes me relaxed, come to think. I watch old shows on TV sometimes too, though I've probably seen damn near every episode of most of them. Huh, I'm rambling on some dumb shit.
Anno
It's some nice rambling though. A lot of little things come out in the ramble.
I remembered some stuff I hadn't thought about for a long time suddenly. Guess it's always been with me in a way, though. Everything stays with you until you draw your last breath, after all. >>705709 It's nice memories. I would play SNES games on her little CRT TV like Yoshi's Island, she'd watch a bit while doing crossword puzzles or reading. She'd comfort me when I felt scared. When she passed, I was at my uncle's, parents had gone to the grandparents house nearby where she was suddenly. They got back, my mom was crying, and I didn't even need them to say anything, it was like I already felt it. I cried for hours. Even now, I type this sitting on my bed in a room she once held, it's kind of comforting to be here, I have some of her stuff in my storage bucket. Though a good size of her stuff was damaged by water and neglect over a few years, when I cleaned the room out I saved what I could. I hope she's happy now. They tell me she always wanted kids but didn't have any, not sure if she couldn't or just didn't. Maybe I was her child in a way, too. I should do right by her.
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That's a good thought to hold on to. I'm not incredibly close with any of my non-nuclear family. My dad's sister is kind of similar to your great-aunt though. Though in her case I get the feeling she might've been gay in a situation she couldn't really seek a partner in, and ended up growing up into a single old maid. She was one of the kids my granddad had before he moved from Britain to Canada so she's got a bit of that old British lady charm to her. She's a sweet woman who's fond of cats and loves all her nephews and nieces. There was a period of time she had to move out of her house and didn't have a place to stay so she stayed at my house for a spell, so in terms of time spent I'm probably most familiar with her out of the rest of my broader family.
>>705711 I'm not really that close with my nuclear family to be honest. Nor close with many people at all. I probably was closer to her while she was alive than I've ever been with anyone else, since I spent a few years out of public school being homeschooled and spent most of the day with her or talking to her. Maybe the second place would be my first boyfriend, but I only spent a few days a week or every other week with him. The rest of my family keeps a safe distance and regards me as a volatile and slightly scary pitiful thing. Though they're not too wrong on that judgment. I don't talk to my parents much other than about bills or when my dad wants to talk about his hobbies. I only talk to my sisters when we're playing games together except for a few times I was high on MDMA or drunk. My little sister apparently took my nonchalant point of view towards new things to heart and used it to visit a few of her internet friends when she was previously too afraid to meet people in real life. That's really nice, from my position. I'm really glad she's exploring what's out there and all. I didn't do anything other than what I felt like doing but I guess anyone can inspire people to do things. She's got a boyfriend and a job and a bunch of stuff she didn't have before. He seems pretty cool, though I was drunk both times he visited our house when he was in the state. Glad she's doing new things and less afraid. Don't know where I'm going with this. Time to finish the third can.
>>705711 Oh, I forgot something. My great aunt had a husband. But he was a bastard, and he beat her on the regular. My mom and grandma and dad went and confronted him one day and she moved in with us. He went to prison later on for something, can't recall exactly. When he got out he wanted us to house him until he found his own place. Aunt wanted to let him stay here, but both my parents and grandma said hell no. Probably for the best.
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Better safe than sorry. My extended family isn't really all that tightly connected. My mom's parents are up in central Ontario, her brothers and sisters all across the province and even some over in Manitoba. Most of my dad's family is closer, but even then they're scattered more or less throughout Toronto and the Greater Toronto Area. And now my younger sister's living four hours away on the Ontario/Quebec border. I think we're just more used to disparate living like that. Makes for nice get-togethers during the holidays at least; always something to talk about.
>>705715 It's probably good we refused, for sure. My extended family is mostly disconnected from the nuclear family. I guess we're kind of black sheep with how we live several cities away from most and don't subscribe to that conservative republican bullshit. They don't particularly distaste us, though, the greater amalgam of Kuykendall simply leaves us be, I'm thankful for that. Every event with the extended family is so damn stressful. My uncle on my mother's side and her family are cool, though. I helped my dad build their country house, me and him did the electrical work ourselves instead of them hiring a contractor. It was like a vacation except I got to learn about how breakers and outlets and residential circuits are supposed to work. Plus we got to fish a bit in the levy on their country property after the day was almost over.
I hate getting together with the extended family, though. They're always talking about some bullshit someone did and I don't know about that bullshit and don't know about that person doing bullshit. Last time I went to an event with the extended group it was thanksgiving and I took a bunch of Kratom and played Warframe and talked to my cousin from the Uncle's family about the game while the other folk talked about someone at their work or job that pissed them off.
>>705623 i meant the whole uhhh floor thing but yea that too >>705736 express yourself to the world! dance with the wolves under the stars
Kannagiβ
All the wolves in England were hunted to death a long time ago!
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S: whatever molten blob was on that pizza that one time A: idk brie? very thinly sliced medium cheddar? B: gouda, shredded parmesan C: gorgonzola i guess and that hard shit D: american unless its a burger duh E: trick question there are no other kinds of cheese S+: goat cheese
>>705729 trim plates, stuff in boats that make the boat more stable, this one didn't come up with any installed beforehand we slapped some gas operated, that basically automatically try to correct the boat to normal angle, instead of manually operated like we had in our previous one didn't get to test drive them tho, since >I
the big muscle man at work with forearms thicker than my skull (not even exaggerating) who has like knives hung in his office and stuff revealed himself to me as a comic book nerd yesterday and a star trek nerd it was kind of gap moe
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>>705747 >I forgot to take my shipyard+boat keys >my pop forgot his keys in his car when he fetched more powerful car and trailer to lift the boat from the water so that added an extra hour or so just driving there and back and the weatherh ad turned kinda windy, so we just skipped the test drive after
>>705730 My fella in the flesh Smoked Gouda and Summer Sausage and Greek Olives is my favorite collective snack >>705733 Babybel mini cheese wheels are like Cheese and a toy all in one I always end up messing with the wax afterwards
i should have a mushroom encounter in 2.5 campaign
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haha i went to research fungi in japan and saw this >Mushrooms of amanita family that some call Mario Brothers mushrooms do not give anyone super powers but are all extremely poisonous.
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>One species of mushroom in Japan called Gymnopilus Junonius, is commonly know as the βLaughing Mushroom.β It is highlighted in a medieval Japanese Tale (Konjaku Monogatari) in which woodcutters from Kyoto who had lost their way in the Kitayama mountains, became very hungry after endless wandering. Instead of dying, they ate numerous mushrooms whereupon they became compelled to dance and laugh for hours on end. Eventually the intoxication wore off and they were all able to find their separate ways home. perfect
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man i sure am starving let me eatthese hahahahahahahahahahahhahahhahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahah
>>705764 Well, cutting loose like this does usually brighten my mood, I just have a problem with doing it all the time! Glad to hear you're doing good though. >>705767 I want to eat the Laughing Mushroom.
I was looking at apartments in the city today to make up a shortlist that the friend and I that are talking about moving out together could go look at. And I found this one place with a studio apartment in the heart of the downtown going for $1150 a month. Which for that part of the city is crazy cheap. Like "I almost suspect there's something amiss here" cheap. They've also got a two bedroom for $1975 which is nice, but that studio is so cheap it's enticing on its own. Because while I'm sure this guy will be a tolerable flatmate, it sure would be nice to have my own place. But maybe not nicer than saving around two hundred dollars a month by having a flatmate.
>>705782 This is actually a common mistranslation it actually means a Fore Father meaning your golf-father it was passed down from the scotch as a tradition, however like most passed down traditions from the old world, it overall got mixed and watered down in the new.
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>>705783 as expected of American language fucking everything up from the roots
He gave me a ticket for showing him outdated registration but if I go show my most recent one to the clerk of courts, they'll dismiss the ticket and I'll only owe $10.
