I don't have the ability to be empty I am always fucking tense I'm always stressed because if I'm not at least a little stressed I don't fucking function, and besides my meds are stimulants and that does turn the dial on a lot of systems in the body and brain but while this means I'm good at dealing with "being stressed", additional stress from the outside is very difficult to process without feeling like I could fucking kill someone because I'm always fucking stressed, and I do not NEED to have to do everyone else's fucking job because they've fucked around for 7 hours
