Thread #598415

Oh okay I'll go find a more suitable thread for myself.

come back

Okay I'm still here.

how's anime

We didn't get much watched over the weekend, so there's a good selection of stuff tonight.
Index and Spyce are consistently fun.
We're about to get started on this week's Yagate Kimi ni Naru.

exciting stuff

In other news I've sorted out all the Cultists save Deimos.
Collected all of Atlantis' artifacts.
Hopefully I'm near the finale of everything.

Good job.
How many hours?

Ninety-nine so far.
I'll probably break a hundred easily before the end.
It would have been far longer if I finally didn't lose my patience with just travelling around by foot, horse, and ship.
Fast-travel really helps, especially with some of the quests that have you hopping back and forth and back between islands.

Oh yeah, that gets pretty ridiculous.

>>598415 (OP)
guess I'll just have to make a thread for people with no girlfriends

wow not having a girlfriend is gay

I heard Kirara doesn't even have a boyfriend
What a loser

do you

n-no

I don't have aaaanybody.

>>598439
>>>/@my0nruri/1059322384065343488?s=19

>>598436
what is the term for nonbinary relationships
straight and gay aren't really all encompassing

>>598444
usually just called queer

or pan

my psychiatrist asked once if i was gay or bisexual
i'm like, uhh, i dunno i guess

ah shit i got a lot more work today than i thought i did
i just took some kratom too i wanted to chill out for another four hours or so

>>598442
>sayona Amuro
heh

>>598449
rip

>>598439
it's a shame your imouto couldn't come onii-chad, maybe I could be your girlfriend tonight puru?

>>598439
>>598440
wait i think i just made a match

Maria's not my type, sorry.

>>598449
man kratom is great they should legalize that shit

>>598446

>>598446
pan is pretty nonbinary

did y'all hear about the super fentanyl that got approved by FDA
10x stronger than fentanyl
because why not

I saved Alexios

>>598463
Yeah, I heard about it.

Oh gosh this is the weirdest family dinner.
They're really making me feel good about my choices though.

>>598463
yeah im familiar
i think it's fine

>>598463
carfentanyl already existed for a while though
idk what kind of application the new drug is going to fill since fentanyl already exists but I don't think it's going to make a big difference in the market
>>598470
yeah i know

>>598457
sorry but I got a date at the roller derby

>>598468
it's sufentanyl

>>598468
what the fda approved was a sublingual form of it
one of the meaningful uses for it is emergency type scenarios for pain
given its high potency, the sublingual form is fast acting and powerful enough to offer that emergency scenario function without needing to be IV or intramuscular like morphine is
that's pretty useful

>>598468
the VA is going to give it out according to CNN
it's basically going to be entering the market en masse

>>598472
cnn can suck

>>598473
so can i

jan can i ask you a question

>>598472
i def see that being a potential issue
but i don't think those sorts of issues should interfere with the fda's approval of something as clinically relevant

>>598475
sure

>>598477
what do you think about beebra

>>598478
what the fuck is beebra
not the bees

>>598471
also yeah that makes sense now
i don't have a lot of faith in the pharma industry to apply such a product in a responsible manner though

>>>/@Arr/1059167400451485696?s=19

this is beebra

>>598476
i think addiction and abuse potential should absolutely factor into FDA decisions
it's not safe for use as they want to use it

those are taken into consideration
i meant black market concerns
that's not what their approval is concerned with
addiction and abuse fall under safety which is definitely relevant to its clinical significance

>>598481
yeah well uhh hit it dude *slams bass guitar*

Nothing like a walk through a graveyard of your fallen allies with Socrates to be an epilogue chapter to the war.

nothin like. a high

>>598482
FDA doesn't really take that stuff into account though

that's why FDA approves 80% of new drugs
FDA is owned by big pharma, so

their approval rate is high because trials are expensive and pharma does a shit ton of research to understand whether a new asset will pass approval or not before investing the resources in its trials
and the ones that wouldnt, they wait until there's an indication that it can perform better than benchmarks for
nobody's pushing for shit they know is gonna fail

people are absolutely pushing for shit they know is dangerous though

i see good uses for sufentanyl, especially in controlled hospital settings with opioid tolerant patients and stuff
im not sure why the va would be distributing it
that's not the fda's choice to do though

man who would willingly want to be a press secretary
that is like a nightmare to me

man who would willingly want

Morning moe

morning

I need to get ready.
This week is starting. If I leave early I can go to a cafe and get a sandwich or coffee instead of rushing up that stupid hill.

I feel so stressful about this week.
I can't help but feel like I've missed something and not done reading I was meant to do.
what if the module that is closed for me is actually open for everyone else.
ugh

well there's nothing to it but to do it i guess
unless you got an itinerary for reference materials and stuff you need to read

i took a shower and my nose has been bleeding for like 15 minutes now
just a little trickle just enough to be annoying as fuck

that means you have too much blood and it's trying to escape

that makes so much sense
i should just let the blood out and drink it later if i need more blood

I had a nose bleed ... I can't remember when now.
both my nostrils were bleeding.

I've never had them both go at once before.
>>598496
My class today is a module that isn't open on the online site where they put all the materials.
I bet its closed for me and open for everyone and has like a fuckload of readings on it.
I guess I
'll find out.

>>598497
this also happens to bones

too many bones

>>598499
that's never happened to me
i don't typically get nose bleeds much if at all but I have kind of been assaulting them recently

gotta close your body's holes or the bones will escape

how skeletons are made

put pelvis onto pelvis
result is smol skelton

lewd

I should go and catch my bus.
See you later moes
don't lose your bones and blood

don't lose your booooones

>>598506
infant boneboy is wholesome just look at how happy they are

i can't believe i bought d3 for the switch what was i thinking

now i can grind anywhere
I'll never stop grinding

>>598508
gotta find out who put my bones in jail

>>598510
why

d4 on the switch

>>598513
I'm addicted to snorting skeleton dust
i have to grind these zombies for 800 Paragon levels at least

i dumped my laundry on the cat accidentally but she doesn't seem to mind

aw
cutie kitty

>>598504
you plant skeleton seeds

you ever had mcdonald's "Maestro" meals?P

are those like the premium sandwiches or something?

>>>/watch?v=b9WYHN-NlLE
is a premium limited time burger

always made on order, on premium buns, premium beef and shit
and still costs the same as big mac

it is actual burger
not fast food
like restaurant quality

that is probably a regional thing
never heard of it

yeah it was here last year for the first time
I think it popped up first in netherlands

yeah they don't do it here

you even get premium fries

yeah mcdonalds are generally better in other countries than they are here
some places they're pretty high quality
some here in the US are actually a lot better quality if they're in affluent areas
but generally it's garbo

mcd here is quite good quality compared to other places
not that i have eaten mcds much abroads
I mean
why WOULD I eat mcds when i am abroads...

but ofc, having higher quality standards and finland level minimum wages, means like a big mac is what...
8€ a meal or something

if that happened to me though, what you showed from that video, i'd legit just leave
i'd be too annoyed to eat

>>598530
yeah if that happened in finland it would lead to death

aah
comfy computer chair
I missed you

>>598530
same
id take my burger and walk out

Makes you wonder HOW many failed shots they have?

>>598533
i'd lose my appetite
i'd just say "now look what you've done" and just throw the whole tray in the garbage and walk out

or i'd pretend like i wasn't paying attention and just start crying while i eat my burger and look as sulky as possible
and make them feel really uncomfortable

but that was a delish meal
also first time using drive through since...
2011 I think

I'd probably take a video and link it to moe like y'all get a load of this shit

>what is your name
>imgay

curiously what would they do if you were say a group of 10 who all ordered the maestro?

maybe act really worried like im having an episode or something

i won't kill for you again I TOLD YOU NEVER AGAIN

i still think i'd just cry and look like i'm having a really awful day
i wonder if they'd still try and press onward with the candid camera bullshit because they're assholes or if they'd just say "you know what, nevermind, turn the tv off and stop bothering her"

>>598543
in europe they'd come and apologise and prolly pay the burger for you

europe sounds nice

USA is famous for its huge lawsuits, but suing people and getting something out of it is much easier here
and much cheaper
not to mention all da customer protection laws

that must be nice
if i sue someone i will probably just get killed

amusingly you have more protective laws here, but less legal rights

nobody has to follow protective law here
for example the agency that decides what water is safe to drink responds to like 10% of complaints investigates fewer and holds even fewer still accountable for water toxicity violations

candid camera type shows really piss me off that they even exist
fuckin up people's days and you think it's gonna just be okay once they realize it's a prank
you're still disrespecting their time and still sometimes doing something awful

what was that one show where they'd scare people into thinking a murder or alien or some shit was coming after them

>>598549
here they find one tiny piece of plastic in one food item
and whole food item gets pulled back, everyone who bought it during "danger time" is refunded and so on
and then huge investigation is done to see during which period the foreign item might have entered the food, and is there risk of more foreign items entering the food products

I mean we are speakingof a nation, where HORSE MEAT being sold as pork-beef mincemeat lead to a huge scandal

scare tactics
that was it

and it wasn't like horse meat but ,pork-horse-beef

>>598552
here, they'll hide that anything happened and hope it doesn't happen again

>>598550
only good candid show is that canadian just for laughs
since it is 100% harmless

>>598555
here in general it is better to say you done did goofed
tahn alter get a billion dollar fine

the government won't fine companies here unless the company hurts other rich people
if you hurt consumers, the government usually gives you money

Finnish government gives companies a damn good deal for operating here, as long as they follow the rules atleast somewhat
We actually have less strict rules than most countries when it comes to corporations
I think lower tax rates even tahn in USA or comparable

if i were to do a prank show it'd be like faux reporting
grab a camera and microphone and interview passersby on how they feel about the idea of drinking genetically modified water

20% corporation tax
damn low

>>598561
excuse me sir csn // can i ask you what your opinion is, on the recent murder of john lenin
what? no, he was killed just last week, sir
devout communist
had a band

>>598563
that seems high compared to here

also coincidentally tax information is public here
be it private people or corporations or organisations
all tax information is accessable to any citizen
just contact tax office and say "can I see TN's rax record for 2017"
and they hand you the documents

>>598564
there's something about subtlety that's not appreciated in stuff like candid shows
it's all so over the top
even eric andre's street stuff is way over the top
still pretty good but not the same

>>598564
your corporation tax is a weird thing, since there are lots of tax deductions and shit going on, but on paper it is way higher

>>598567
on paper it's 21%

our has been 20 aside from one government term for ages
ofc big corporations don't pay taxes in US in the first place
like activision, who transfers all their revenue from IP based income to some central american holdings company, through a satellite company in netherlands

>>598566
yeah i think the subtle absurd is really the sweet spot for comedy

as in, any product sold that activision owns the rights to, never ever gets taxed by US gov

in terms of the profit actiblizz gets

taxes suck

they fund a lot of things

unfortunately they fund very little of what id like them to and very much of what i despise

Time to "water the tree of liberty with blood of the tyrants" then
do as your forefathers would ahve

that's what im hopin for
soon please

Wonder can you do it without bloodshed at this point

with enough time, maybe
govt will come in and kill us if we let them though

Nah
they will just make protests illegal

and they already try to kill protestors who are protesting legally, so

Here they will just shut down your speech
try to organise without internet and phones and shit

Oh yeah hear this
>hey want a cheaper car insurance
>just sign up to us and use this CONSTANTLY TRACKIND APP THAT WILL SEE IF YOU ARE A GOOD AND SAFE DRIVER
>then we will give you cheap insurance
>we just want to CONSTANTLY MONITOR YOU WHEN YOU ARE DRIVING
a good deal right?

they do that here too lol

first people stop caring about their vote
then they stop caring about their privacy
soon theys topå caring about their rights
"it is our right to lose our rights"

>>>/@Rabbitsnap/883100365872300034?s=19

>>598586
>this one can never run away
heh

the pic looks like something from /x/

yeah lmao

aah
comfy office chair
leather anda ll

i want a leather jacket

leather socks

leather hands

wine bottle with flowers in it

can't wait for self-washing hands to come out

>>598596
s

i tried making a facebook just to use it for love nikki registration
so i did that and it was fine
then i kept getting emails about notifications and what has changed on facebook and i wanted to go in to unsubscribe from emails or just delete the account
but upon trying to log in, it wants me to put in a phone number so that they can send me a code if i ever get locked out of my account
there's no option to not do it or to do it later, and if i don't do it, i can't access my account to delete the account or unregister
and i'm not willing to give them my phone number

how do so many people use this fucking garbage
it's the most abusive site to its users that ive ever seen and people just gobble it up like it's gold

it used to require that i submit a photograph of myself, and it used facial recognition to detect if it was really a picture of a person and not a drawing or a picture of something else, and that it wasn't already used
that was really absurd and invasive
then after the zuccboi hearing and new privacy policy laws, i guess they changed it up a bit

now it's not a requirement to submit a phone number, but any information you've submitted upon first creating the account they now hold hostage until you give them more personal information about yourself before you can delete it

yeah facebook is really the worst

>>>/@Teacupchan/1059410446304849922?s=19

>>598600
it makes me angry
like actionably angry
maybe i shouldn't be not taking my benzos i forgot how much i crave sabotage

>>598601
nice

>>598601
haha
so that is the "ragdolls through windshield" of rdr2

arthur looks a lot like chuck norris as texas ranger in his default jacket and beard

>>>/watch?v=cP-BasqpAxI
how do people even fall for these

>>598606
what if they are all in florida so..

>>598606
im guessin they had to sign somethin without realizing it first
derren brown did that kind of stuff by looking for targets who replied to ads about potential filler roles in shows and stuff and people would sign something as part of the application
then he'd engage them months later and they wouldn't even think too much about it

i wouldnt be surprised if these people signed up for something but just didn't know what it was really
so some apprehension or expectation that they know something's gonna happen but just not what
they're probably legitimately a little bit scared but only in that kind of "this is still not real right? i'm pretty sure it's not but it's still scary!" kind of way
real true fear is way different than how people behave in this kind of show

that looks so acted
and I mean ALL parts and not just the acted parts

yeah they could also just be actors pretending to not be actors
that happens way more often than you'd think

that's what i think they are

or like
"hey wanna be on scare tactics? we'll do somethin to spook you but you won't know when it's gonna happen"
"yeah sure sign me up"

id do scare tacticd
they don't do the kind of thing that scares me

what if they turned your friends into hamburgers

>>598613
I wonder how many of their pranks ended up badly
if they indeed have real people in it
afterall, some do go more APE than shit in face of say clown killer

Today went alright.
Heading home now.

>teleport
>slash
>laser
>teleport
>slash
>laser
>teleport
>slash
>las
COME THE FUCK ON

>>598617
glad it went all right

>>598619
Thanks.
How are you today?

working
little tired i guess gotta slog through the day though

ive got 10 or so more hours today
ive been up for 6-7 hours already though
since fish couldn't sleep so obviously im not allowed to either

ive been up for like 14 hours but mostly relaxed most of those
i thought i'd get a nap in before work but i couldnt
now im getting daydreams while working and that's pretty bad

it feels like ive lived lifetimes in the past few years

I do not know how long or how many times I've been able to sleep for the past two weeks

being a mom is in my blood, runs in the family
my mom was a mom, and so was her mom

i wish my mom had been a mom

to be fair my mom wasn't a very good mom
she tried though
always made mistakes but she was passionate and tried

that's worth something at least

apparently when i was in infancy my dad cut the electric and was shouting and was gonna kill her and us so she took us up to the bedroom and hid us to save us
im not sure if that really happened but im sure she believed it
i could imagine the power just went out and my dad just shouting because he's loud and my mom having paranoid episodes where she felt danger that wasn't there because that's what she grew up around
both stories are probably true

but either way she saved us, or at least intended to in the reality she was experiencing
so that's pretty cool

then again, if it is true, my dad probably had the right idea
all of us woulda been better off dead probs

Sleepy

yeah im so sleepy
im doing these transcripts with my eyes closed and halfway falling asleep
the brain is really funny when it's tired
ive got my headphones on and my only input is this crystal clear audio of a school teacher being interviewed, given that my eyes are closed and no other stimuli
and my brain is half dream state so i'm visually imagining this person sitting there and syncing their body language and lips to the speech im hearing
then i pull out of dream state and i'm like oh, no, there's only audio here
there's no video feed

Ohio

I wish coffee would wake me the fuck up.
Half way awake and half way asleep is a pain.

wake up my music

>>>/watch?v=I9n6iMeIW8A

blue help

>>>/@wef/1058675216027660288?s=19

Man this week's probably going to be exhausting.

>>598640
nice

>>598640
I like that cats are worth less than criminals.
Dogs being worth more is also cool.
I have a lot of problems with the whole thing though.

Aaaaaaaahh
Things are already going wrong why do they always go wrong

I have enough going wrong already I really don't need this.

Whats wrong?#

I had an appointment with some one with academic accomodation today to do with my anxiety and other issues that are affecting my work.
I didn't get the location I was supposed to meet them at from the phone call I had with them, but the academic accommodation has an office in one of the campus buildings, so I assumed I just would have to go there
But after meeting with the front desk staff, not only do I not have an appointment registered with the department, they don't even have a staff member under the name of the person I was supposed to meet with.

I'm already strained for time since I have a makeup test in forty-five minutes. On top of that I'm pretty sure there's a missed appointment fee to pay.
I don't want to pay something like that.

And the counselor who set this up for me isn't responding to email so I guess that's that.
It's hard to care about making improvements when things inevitably go wrong when you try.

That really fucking sucks.
I feel you.
I went in to my GP about anxiety and he handed me a piece of paper with phone number.
and it doesn't work.
Getting an appointment with my GP in the first place was a huge pain and lots of waiting.

>>598647
Wow, that's really discouraging

>>598648
>It's hard to care about making improvements when things inevitably go wrong when you try.
yeah i feel that
i remember similar administrative issues that fucked my academic career up over very simple issues
sorry about your struggles

I've also got an assignment due in like six -four hours that I totally forgot about.
And I was supposed to have today's appointment done before I met with the counselor this Friday. I probably can't get academic accommodation without it, which means I don't really have much relief for the class I've been struggling with.
I'm coming up on the last day I can drop a class without academic penalty and if I can't get that sorted out before that date I don't know if I want to risk it.
But dropping the course would be a huge ball of stress in of itself.
I don't want to do this makeup test I don't want to do anything.
Just find an invisible corner of the world I could do nothing in for the next forever.

no AC at the office today
got fans everywhere haha

>>598652
you can get through this
it's ok to make a strategic retreat because that's better than failing but don't let it bring you to quitting!

>>>/@QuantaMagazine/1059492046866706432
oh mami quanta
two weeks before the big names start participating

Well the counselor got back to me about the appointment.
I guess I can call them and see what might be done about today's debacle.

that's great!

>>598655
wowza

quanta is a really good magazine
i'm glad there's a really appropriate article that focuses on the significance of the math involved and not the sensationalist pull

Well I need to call them back from somewhere quieter, but it's about what I figured.
Missed appointment, missed appointment fee.
I really don't feel justified in having to pay that.
But I also really don't want to bring that up.
Anything controversial like that just makes me abhorrently nervous.

I also wish I could either learn how to talk into cell phones or stop getting phones with shitty microphones.
Whichever one it is, it really doesn't make my phone anxiety any better when I know there's going to be at least several instances of "I'm sorry could you repeat yourself".

i've always suffered severe phone anxiety
what i've learned to do is to think about it as if i'm making the call for someone else
when i have to make a call to find out information from a doctor for my mom or something like that, i don't care nearly as much because i'm not the subject of it so i can be objective and just set my goal as information or scheduling something
with me i get all flustered and anxious
so now i just think about it as though i'm doing it for someone else and mentally prep myself that way
distance me from myself a little bit and muscle through it

Well the late fee's at the doctor's discretion so I guess I just send the most diplomatic email I can and hope this fucker is reasonable.

>>598662
I don't quite think it's the same for me.
I don't really like talking in focus much; I get self-conscious of it fast once attention is on me.
When you're on the phone that's often the main focus of whoever you're taking with. And so all the faults and awkward things in the way I'm talking feel right in the middle of a spotlight.
I can't be another voice in the crowd in a phone call.

if i have to take or make calls sometimes i say i'm my secretary
that way if i do something stupid i can play it off like im a clumsy goof secretary and not actually me
i guess that doesn't work for school stuff though

Whenever this shitty Chromebook I've got for mobile work goes into sleepmode for a long period of time, or just outright runs out of battery charge, it always reverts from whatever wallpaper I've chosen for it to a default wallpaper of one of those cliched, shot of the ocean, stock image wallpapers.
I don't really like images for my wallpaper but at this point I'm just tired of having to constantly change it whenever I ignore it for a while.

wow that girl recovers quickly in goblin slayer.
just finished the first episode.

The other ones, not so much.

Goblin Slayer-san has a weird kind of motivation on the people around him.

ahhh use spoiler tags please!
i have averted my eyes from the posts fortunately they may be safe but i'm not gonna look to find out

I'm kind of hungry but there'll be dinner waiting for me at home.
So I'm stuck trying to come up with something I can buy that's cheap and not really filling.
But also probably pleasant to eat. Don't really want to eat cardboard to temporarily fill the stomach.

the only thing I hate about making phone calls is getting put on hold
it's like shoving toothpicks under my nails it gets more frustrating the longer it takes

>>598668
goblin slayer slays goblins
lots of em

tomorrow is going to be terrible.
I wanna stay in bed forever

Yeah, same.

staying in bed forever sucks I get too restless

I guess I could finally check out H Mart and see if I'm weeaboo enough to find their products appetising.
Though I guess they're mostly Korean goods.

>>598671
wtf man.... spoiled the whole show

I ended up watching dutch youtube videos
I forgot it was in dutch and spend ages thinking I was hearing english all wrong.

Tadaimasu

>>598676
now you might as well just give it a 1 star review
shows fucking ruined

goblin spayer

goblin slayer au where goblin spayer is an animal vet on a quest to end the stray goblin over population crisis plaguing the animal shelters

Goblin Prayer

play it by eel

>>598682
goblin prayer is on a mission from Spain to spread the word of roman Catholicism to the indigenous goblin tribes

>>598683
glorious nippon eel folded over a thousand times

oh ive got a bad eel

i did some HVAC shit today at work because the people who came to replace our AC units were fuck ups

>>>/watch?v=lItkr3MR1I4

>>598688
you gonna get out there?

why is it that everyone im nice to is weird to me

why can't people just be normal and assume im busy if i don't reply to them

Why does the word "hiya" set off flags to me

hiya-
-hey
whats up-
-not much-
cool-

heya

Hi Rika.
How are you?
Did you ever find out if you were getting that job you wanted?

Still waiting to hear back on it.
They're waiting on funding.

sounds fun

Oh, good luck.
I hope it comes through soon.

So I'm starting my research for a journal article this week.
It's going to be on training neural networks to tell bad jokes.

i wanna go on an antarctic cruise

>>598701
Wowme2

>>598699
That would be nice, I'd like to hear back on it soon.

Rika will become CEO

>>598703
Keep up the good work.

As much as I'd love to stick around and talk, my time has come

good night kirara

Sleep well aidoruu

rest in peas

Naito

Oh, are you going to sleep already?

I've only slept like 5 hours in two days thanks to Fish
im very tired

>>598706
>>598707
>>598708
>>598709
sweeto dreams

Oh well good luck!

it's sure gettin dark early now

>>598690
hey what the fuck I'm not weird
well actually

yeah nevermind

jerk city hd is a blessing

>>598713
Yeah, daylight savings time sucks.

benjamin franklin was a big ol jerk

nanananananana PIZZA

is it anchovy and muh shroom
water you up to

Hibang

boop

water you doin

oh shit. its 2am.
I need to sleep.

Night

haroo he

>>598729
https://www.quantamagazine.org/sci-fi-writer-greg-egan-and-anonymous-math-whiz-advance-permutation-problem-20181105/

a really good article for once
from a pretty high profile magazine

I feel like I burnt through pretty much my week's whole emotional stress budget in today alone.
Living is ridiculously exhausting

i feel like that more often than im comfortable with

i feel like /moe/ is going to fade soon
it's getting colder and draughtier every week

I hope not.
I don't have anywhere else to go.

Nah

toot

Thanks Mister Skeltal

I need things to be doing.
Stuff that's enriching and interesting.
But doing stuff takes money and requires me to not be terrified and I can't seem to resolve much of either of those recently.
And doing nothing only makes this feeling of perpetual dread even worse, which buries me deeper under my terror.
And so the cycle repeats.

yeah it's a struggle
im not really sure what to do with myself either

What's worse is winter is coming up.
I always feel so hibernate-y when it's really cold out.
During the summer I can bike and that gets me out of the house even if I don't have things to do.
But winter is an additional stack of bricks atop the wall I need to scale before I can be motivated to do anything.

I'm hoping I can find some means of coping or resolving my anxiety and lack of motivation from these counselling and medical health services offered by my university.
Or at least find the path to that.
Because I'm starting to feel like I'm burning kind of thin here.

every day is a matter of survival for me
ive got no cushion and im never more than a week out for planned finances
i have to make the money this week to survive next week, and i'm constantly falling further behind on taxes owed, not to mention student loans
ive been living like this for almost four years now, and shit pops up making things worse every time, like my pc breaking, my roommate in tennessee dipping out, cat infestation tearing apart the ventilation and not having heat making it very difficult to survive the winter, let alone keep working through it
and having to pack up and start all over in michigan with no possessions, no bed, no nothing, and now losing my bed
it's so desolate feeling
i'm getting closer to being crippled
i've got no friends or social life outside of some interaction here on /moe/
it's drying up too, half of people either won't talk to me or have drifted off because of being busy
a few others sap the joy out of what little interaction i do have
im too anxious to leave the house

life's really hard
i feel you on burning kind of thin
but i still manage to breathe through it all
i'm sure you'll find a path forward if you make sure to just breathe

I'll try!

This regular kind of dour talk probably doesn't harbour encouraging atmosphere though, hah hah.
Gotta vent it out somehow though.

Maybe I should get to reading again, I haven't really done a lot of that lately.
In the past I'd be tearing through a novel every one or two weeks but I haven't finished a new book recently.
Aside from one I pretty much read from front to back in one sitting.
But I use to bring a book to read on the subway and in downtime between classes.
These days I think I get too much distraction from my phone.
Maybe I should start by doing less of that.

Ganbatte

reading gives you a lot more room to breathe than a phone distraction
you need the big environment to really get deep breaths into your thoughtspace
a phone distraction is more like hyperventilating into a paper bag
you might be getting some breath but it's just recycled air
i think it's good to have that platform to invest a longer period of time and let your brain unfold abit and get breath to all the parts, to explore a bit

have you read everything is illuminated
it's one of my favorites

My biggest problem with books compared to phone stuff is that I can't resist books. Once I start them I'm often drawn in.
I finish far more books in one or two sittings/reading sessions than I do in bits and pieces over the course of a while.

I haven't read Everything Is Illuminated, no.
I'll look for it in the bookstore when I'm there next.

Going to bed
Night friends

I've been wanting to get creative again lately.
My mind's been feeling frazzled though and the steps just past conception seem to just slip out of my head.
How to just do things.

im very fond of the real-time conception approach
conception and realization in the same process
that's what i do when im painting. i dont set out to do something specific
i just let the end product be a result of the interaction between me and the medium

i do some polishing up when it does start to take form and it becomes a clear vision to me, but untl then it's just raw curiosity

I'm not really driven to abstract art, I can't really get into that.
Creating is all about trying to bring into physical conception the thing I have in my head.
It's weird and frustrating to have what feels like a crystal clear scene I could illustrate floating around in my head, but having no clue what the steps for converting that image from brain data into actual lines, colours, shapes, whatnot, are.
That's kind of how I had that music bug a bit back too. There was some ideas of music in my head I wanted to transfer into a more permanent format but I can't do that without understanding how the software I'm using is supposed to work.
Writing's really the easiest vehicle I have for converting ideas in my head into something more solid, and even then I get caught up because I have a hard time getting around my linearity and getting the ball rolling in the first place.
And lately the blocks have felt really, really strong, no matter how intensely creative I'm feeling at the time.

>>598747
i feel this kind of thing when people talk about stupid shit they've done

>>>/@ABCscience/1059662842146811904

Aurora Australis?
At this time of year, at this time of day?

>>598751
i dont do abstract art
it's usually landscape or just some play with shading and colors
im not particularly good, i just find the process rejuvenating
i do it with writing too and sometimes poetry though not often

i feel like watching an opera

Ah, sorry.
When I try to do something like painting or writing without intent I just kind of feel like I'm a ship in a lull or something.
Drifting without moving anywhere.
It ends up feeling kind of hollow.

the medium is really important
it's very much a tactile fascination
acrylics wont work for me, nor will watercolor or brushes
it has to be ink
ink and either a calligraphy pen or literally fingerpainting with ink
it's just about what feels good, not about the aftermath as much
it's ok though i think i talk about this too much as is im not gonna be too repetitive

i miss shibe memes

Bring about a revival of them.

>>>/@spacetwinks/965428890830344193

What kind of doctor prescribes a clown for treatment anyway.
Never mind suckass clowns what a suckass doctor.

>>598763
Oh, yeah, I'm familiar with the Watchmen bit the original is used in.

it's the punchline from a more well-known joke but redone a bit

oh ok i wont try to retell it then it'd be horrible

I tried retelling it to a friend off the top of my head recently and yeah it was pretty horrible.
You really need the lines for it down pat or it's just a lame joke

a man goes to the doctor very depressed
the doctor tells him that he should go see a clown
but doctor im a clown

two atoms were walking along one day
one stops and says wait i lost an electron
the other says are you sure
he replies yeah im sure

Knock knock
Who's there
Orange
Orange who
Aren't you glad I didn't say orange

i tried looking up old jokes and it just has a trillion resuls of the cringey af 90s-era websites that are jokes about old people
that's not what i want and it discouraged me to the point that i dont care anymore

What did the ocean say to the beach?
Nothing. Oceans can't talk

see you next tuesday?

>>598770
Nah, that was the Australian

woah hey now let's not resort to stereotypes

Ah, yeah, sorry.
Australians wouldn't be so rude to a beach.

why do norwegian boats have barcodes
so they can scandanavyin

>>598760
i can't control the the worlds memes I'm not the patriots
i am just a bystander in this grand charade

>>598773
apologising like a true canadian

anime >>598777 →

I have a work thing tonight
I think I might not show up

Would there be a penalty or problem in missing it?

probably not as far as I can forsee
staying at home seems like the more preferable situation

I completed the azur lane event on hard. Three starred everything too.

x

>>598719
honey salami goat cheese and arugula on a flatbread
it was tasty
one ny pizza place down 999,999 to go

They'll probably be putting up new pizza places faster than you can try them out.

>>598903
i like this i would like to subscribe to the newsletter

>>598869
powerful

this is my winking face
it means that i like u

this is my HAI BUI
it means WE ARE CHAIR RETSU GO

But what about your T-Pose

tilde hasnt taught me the tilde pose yet

The tilde pose will be a secret I take to the grave.

~

>>598969

>>598971
>It's chair time, mother fucker

F
Today is going to be tiring.

every day is challenging in its own unique way

Apparently a night of sleep does not alleviate being stoned the night before.

you need NUTRIENTS and WATER

what are you a plant?

are you not?

what are you a planet?

yes

>>598977
yes
the sun is making me more powerful every day

>>>/@aestheticsweeb/1059732354879643648?s=19

>>598982
liked and subscribed

your welcome

no you're whale cum

Well, I'm running late.
Now I have to power up a huge hill
Fun.

me, an anime girl
and also me
an anime girl
bang x bang

>>598987
is this also you
>>>/watch?v=2ips2mM7Zqw

that song is on Pump It Up and I have an entire arcade machine downstairs

with TWO pads and everything

that sounds rad

>>>/watch?v=2Pr4mddRaek
wow this is neat

comfy wumfy beddy weddy

this comic is great

why wouldn't you be able to kill anyone
it's rockstar
in these kinds of games you can kill people

did he expect the kkk to reflect the bullets with their grand wizard magic?

women's voting rights is too ess jay double u

>>598998
>playable non player character
lol

the NPC meme that right wingers are pushing is the best self-own of the year

they probably don't even know how deaf people think
because they have small minds trapped in their skull
we should free them from their mortal prison and let their poor malnourished minds out of the brain

they don't think that anyone thinks
a study came out that said only a small percentage of humans self-narrate in their heads, which they took to mean that people are literally unthinking puppets
and so now they're accusing people of just regurgitating pre-existing lines that have been fed into them
and in doing so, they're all just regurgitating pre-existing lines that have been fed to them, essentially becoming the people they think they're mocking

some of them have started to wear "NPC masks" and go to anti-trump protests
and they hold a sign that says "trump is bad"
and they chant with the protestors
and they think they're owning the protestors even though they're literally helping them

cheese whiz
>>598998
there were some videos popping up in my recommended for that and I wasn't thrilled about it.

damn this looks sick
can't wait to play richter
>>599002
damn sounds like an epic prank they should keep pranking the shit out of these dumb lefties

>>599003
the one where the person goes around and kills women's rights advocates or whatever?

there was also some pro-eugenics dude in the game
i beat him up until he ran away sobbing

I would imagine. I didn't watch them to find out.

there are a lot of missions to kill former slave owners and stuff
and stealing confederate gold
i massacred an entire plantation full of former slave owners

congrats

too bad the game sucks though

someone told me the epilogue is really good though
well, they told me it actually takes place in the west
which is good for me because i got this game to see the west

>no don't worry the game finally gets good when you beat it trust me
this is like the ultimate form of goalpost moving
final fantasy 13 get outta town there's a new sheriff

yeah honestly every time i start up the game i want nothing more than for the game to end
i'm on the last chapter before the epilogue chapters and guess how much time i've spent in the desert

NONE

i've spent most of this time playing in SWAMPS like some bayou shit
there's an area like wyoming that's pretty nice but you spend virtually no time in it

>>599013
>>599014
40

oh I was going to say 60 years.

... or was it 40

>>599012
fuck I'm glad i spent my money on dark souls instead
i was getting a cowboy boner hearing about the game at first

also you spend a bunch of time on a CARIBBEAN ISLAND

it's not a fucking cowboy game at all
like

you can go back to the area in the first game in the epilogue or something
but that's after so many hours of gameplay

>>599011
I still have ff13 in its plastic wrapping on my shelf

I actually own two copies of ff13 and I'm not sure why.

>>599017
i have it somewhere but not in the wrap
>>599018
i own three copies of ff13
they have a different number at the end of the title for some reason and I'm not sure why
the picture of lightning on the cover is nicer though maybe the number is for how powerful lightning is on the cover

also if you kill someone in self defense and someone sees it and you /// and guess what happens
they report it as a murder unless you try to talk them out of it and guess what happens if you do that
they get scared and run away and you have to kill them or you'll have to leave the fucking state so you can come back and do missions while anonymous

if someone runs their horse into yours, they fall off, and immediately start shooting you every time

3 hours done.
I have ancient history next, I've had fun doing the readings for it.
Maybe I'll be more awake by then.
3 more hours then home. Gambare!

do your best

>>599021
ancient history sounds fun
it's always great to remember the classics

Its the most organised module.
Iy
All the others are haphazardish and less detailed.
>>599025
I'll propose that.

just play assassins creed if you want history

I remember using age of empires and caeser 3 as source for school history when I was tiny.

the newest doctor who was pretty boring

>>599027
it took me a while to realize this wasn't an incomplete sentence

>>599025
i would rather read an entire history textbook than play one session of assassins creed's combat

I've never played an assassin creed game before.
Most of what ive seen is running around roof tops and hiding.

>>599029
origins and odyssey has really good combat
have
it's like actual combat now you know you have to guard, dodge, light attacks, heavy attacks

I'm debating if there is any point to drinking this red bullm
I am pretty sure ill be just wired and groggy which probably suck.

red bull gives you wings and as much caffeine as a cup of coffee while costing more and tasting worse

red bulleit

>>599033
Far more portable and cold.

just take caffeine pills if you don't care about the taste

with cold water

>>599035
cold brew coffee

well maybe that fad hasn't reached the hipsters of great Britain yet i dunno

My kratom is due to arrive today. I'm pretty curious.
Nervous about arriving via mail.
*it

>>599040
http://streetfightwcrs.tumblr.com/post/150217861125/street-fight-radio-guide-to-kratom
this is a good article for you to read

>>599040
is it legal there?
don't take too much it'll give you an upset tummy

i overdosed on it once it's easy to do and it's miserable
you'll be too nauseous to move around but too stimulated to sleep it off
for 8 hours

>>599042
Illegal
>>599041
Ta. I'll check it out.

>>599043
I guess I need to be careful with dosage.
I have small scale for weighing stuff.

there is info about doing in the article
you should take .5-1g to start at the absolute most

i usually take 2-3g but im more experienced

i took 1g at first and it was nice
now i usually take 3g
i think it helps a lot with comedowns from other drugs tbh that's what I usually use it for
also helps with feelings of anxiety but i don't have an anxiety disorder or anything

the first time i took it i forgot how to feel sad
it was weird
i don't get that anymore but it does help with depression

it definitely has a habit of making me nauseous if I'm hungry though I always take it before or right after eating

Its a lot smaller doses than I imagined.
100g will last me a while then.

I got 100g of g maeng da yesterday
I've still got about 30g of red and like 20g of g borneo though

i can't get any more from the guy i liked cause he bailed after getting his shipments stuck in transit
isn't that pretty weird for a legal substance

they should legalize all drugs

yeah that's weird

make me president I'll legalize it

did you vote yet
write yourself in for governor

I'm gonna vote in like an hour

they didn't let me vote lol

what why

because florida voting registration went down two days before the deadline so apparently everyone who registered around that time missed the deadline for registering to vote in this election
lol

Wait what
do you have to register more than once there?

i moved so i had to re-register

ohhh
damn that sucks
i never really thought about that since I've lived in the same place the whole time
I'm sure it was a completely random technical failure that affected every single person and isn't a fucking charade

Here you're automatically registered to vote when you do your tax filing.
Though I guess I'm not sure if that would re-register if you moved afterwards.
As long as you can identify yourself legally you can usually vote though.

oh you can change it when you change the address on your driver's license or state ID here

Huh...
I guess Cherokees migrated to Russia

>>599066
they spirit walked on over

>>599065
i did that but what a surprise! it didn't change my registration even though i told it to
>florida

I think it's been some level of rainy or at least overcast for six days straight now.
At the least I haven't seen the sun in over a week.

>>599067
I figured it out
they traded that region for gerogia
which was then traded to me for technology by russia

also the cherokees trid to take it from me, but some gold and tech satiated their blood lust

I IN AMERICA NOW

>>599068
Florida man loses all ballots except one: Bruce the Dalmatian now governor of Florida

>>599071
now nuke yourself

>>599072
they should make me governor
ill abolish the government

turn Florida into the wild west

i will need to develop it first
and build an army
too busy and dangerous to send troops from europe there
considering I am in a war with france, spain and sweden (lol)
but spain has too many ships

>>599075
i hope to!
the savage swamplands!

>>599073
wish there was a total war game
with nukes

this tv dinner contains 2560mg of sodium

jesus

apparently john cena might join the marvel cinematic universe as the next captain america

that's pretty fucking cool he seems nice from what I know

i will burn my beard
bread*

Ever had a beard?

>>599081
that is cool but can he act?

>>599084
i have spent most of my adult life with a large and jewish beard

>>599085
idk

>facing 10k russians
naah not a challenge
>facing 9k french
bring it on
>slight more swedes than me
anxious

but damn do the swedish troops fight well
the stats don't appear any better, but there must be some hidden modifier for them

>>>/@Seinfeld2000/1059831425401143296?s=19

that was a lot less painful than it could have been

Going up the hills in hurry is tiring.
I'm knackered

https://www.theregister.co.uk/2018/11/05/busted_ssd_encryption/

>>>/@latimes/1059854230738087937?s=19

>>599091
tldr

>>599092
>come call him cujo others THE DOG
...
come on

>>599093
The hardware level encryption on pretty much every ssd on the market didn't use your password as part of the encryption key so any sd encrypted that wy could be decrypted by putting it into debug mode.

*any SSD

>>599095
why not just start with the gun

>>599098
why not start with llama

Home now.
I got my kratom.
fairly big package.

>>599100
gonna take some?

>>599101
I want to try a little.
I smells like green tea powder.
*it

>>599102
it's good to try it your first time when you don't have plans
just to be safe
i recommend taking .5g and waiting an hour and if you're good, take another .5g
just to start out
after that, you can experiment more
just important to be safe when taking drugs

kratom does have some addiction potential so if you start using it you'll want to take occasional breaks

I was thinking of using it help me focus on studying and getting some homework done.
How quickly does it kick in and how long does it last>

I have small scale, I guess I will weight out some and then dissolve it into a glass of water?

it won't dissolve into water
it will be and taste disgusting

takes about 30 minutes to kick in, sometimes sooner if you haven't eaten lately

the article i sent you has recommendations on how to take it

Thanks.
I'll give it a go in a bit.

when it wears off (6-8 hours after use) for the first few times you use it, you're going to get tired and you're gonna sleep so good

This little seating pocket I'm killing time in until my next class has ridiculous accoustics.
I can hear my humming bounce around me.
If there weren't other people here too I'd totally play around with that.

The murky green water looks so unappetising wow.

Well, most people use chocolate milk to hide the taste.
But bottoms up!
Don't let it sit in your mouth or you'll get powder in your teeth.

>>599108
Come back at night

jesus.
so fucking nasty.
I guess I will wait to see how it kicks in now.

>>599110
I'm done with class in an hour!
I don't really want to stick around for a few hours just to pass time until night.

>>599111
haha
that's why i parachute

There any things I shouldn't take with kratom?
or is it safe to drink and eat as normal

do whatever
basically
i mean don't go do heroin or something you'll waste your heroin

>>599096
kek

It feels so quiet and calm.

>>599116
Also since bitlocker uses the hardware encryption from the SSD it means that Microsoft's builtin Windows encryption feature also does not work.

>>599117
feelin alright?

>>599119
Yeah. I feel pretty good actually.

Autoresolve in tw:empire would be a fun source for very interesting war stories
take ths case
2 artillery crews, 36 men, going against 2 whole armies, outnumbering them almost 20 to one
and they kill almost 800 men before going down in a blaze of glory

ps the autoresolve is bullshit

The guy who produced Despicable Me is apparently working on putting together a new Shrek movie.

>>599120
You can probably take another .5g if you want to
or not
up to you

>>599122
oh no

>>599123
It is quite a mellow feeling, reading about it - it seems to have different affects at different dosages

>>599125
>Peterson, cackling madly in the catacombs under my Palazzo: "get walloped, Montresor!"
>"Yes," I said, "get walled up!"

>>599127
beautiful
absolutely beautiful

I saw your call to action on the bus ride home and my mind went straight to The Cask of Amontillado.
The rest of it was spent trying to figure out how to make it work.

yeah cask of Amontillado is exactly what i was thinking

Oh wow.
I remember first hearing the cask of amontillado.
I was watching this: >>>/watch?v=QUPBiyHbAFc
its a weirdly strong memory for some reason

>>599122
Shrek 1 and 4 are great movies and I thought the first despicable me was alright
I'll watch it

I only saw shrek 1 and 2 and two was still okay
kinda good even at times

I don't remember a whole lot about 2 other than that it really upped the pop culture references
Shrek has really fantastic growth as a character in 1 though.

>>599134
The second continued quite well where the first one left
and it has that awesome final scene with the I need a Hero song

>>>/watch?v=WI0mSEzttx8

I love how they actually have HOT MILK to pou on the gingerbread giant
like what the fuck
is that ac ommon threat in this world?

god. why does it taste like this.

what?
you started kratoming too?

Yep, it tastes so bitter.

so I have read

>>599138
hahaha

>>>/@akfamilyhomeak/1059827536815771649?s=19

Tadaimasu

Look at me actually starting to learn 2 admiral

And then the game reminds me "hey remember how SHITTY the pathing is for ships in this"
"well guess what"

AND THEN THERE IS NO "Oh friendly ship on the way should I shoot yes/yes/fire FULL BROADSIDE!!!/uuh no"
there is only
FIRE FULL BROADSIDE

>>598943
damn that sounds good

>lose 2 ships to friendly fire
>enemy ships despite having lost 60% of crew and cannons keep rallying
>enemy does not have an admiral
game PLS
the naval combat is already asinine because AI controls each ship with perfect micromanagement
while player can't entrust anything to the auto-ai, since auto ai is "enemy in range FIRE ALL (even if there are 10 friendly ships in the way)"
and "ordered tot urn, TURN" even if there is a friendly ship in thew ay and you collide with it and then take 5 minutes real time to untangle you from the mess you wound up in
and then the enemy CHEATS

way to take you out of a mood to play a game

and you can see that the AI is cheating when the ship that just gave up the fight
TAKES UP ARMS the moment your ships that were engaged with it have turned into bad position
and then it GIVES UP again after one shot
and rinse repeat for fucking 4 times
untill the three ships that engaged it surrendered
due to getting broadsides to their rear...

oh and you can't actually fire upon surrendered ships on purpose

so the enemy gets free reload while being untargettable
and then gets a free shot at your ships weakspots
and then repeats it with minimal damage

you fucking what

and without an admiral to actually rally your troops
and FUCKING 4 TIMES IN A ROW
hell if one ofm y ships routs it is a miracle it returns to the battle
and that is with an admiral right next to it

Kratom is actually pretty good. I wasn't expecting much at first because of how subtle it was.

jimmies
ruffled

I think i will go play less aggravagating game
like dark souls

faito

>>599151
for sure

>>599151
you got it ad tried it?
i love that it has no kick
it's smooth the whole way through
you won't even notice a comedown

>>599138
i take 3g of it somewhat

idk what yall pussies are on about i think it tastes fine
not any worse than protein powder

>>599138
regularly but it still tastes like powdered grass and dirt
it's not bad if you take it with milk though

usually i just take it and wash it down with water because I'm lazy

i had some just a little bit ago and i was out of milk so i mixed it with yerba mate
and holy shit that was bad though
tasted like bile

the reds have a lot better flavor imo
the yellow sulawesi actually has a horrifying taste but it feels great

yeah red tastes better i guess it's more close to earthy than grassy

when i could still get the green suma from my preferred seller i just encapsulated it in 1g capsules using this thing i bought from a Chinese medicine shop for ten bucks

naval battles in tw games
fun when you manage to conduct them like a musical piece
and in the 9/10 cases, complete asinine

no wonder they cut them out in twhammer games

>>599161
oh shit did you get a capsule machine
i have one
they're so much fun

>>599164
Yeah it's pretty cool but my fingers cramp up after taking apart 200/300 capsules
filling them is fun though

>>599156
It really is amazingly smooth.
I was thinking how to describe it, I feel its weird to say but "normal" like everything was just too busy before.

yeah it's kind of a stabilizer for me i guess
except way less hellacious than lithium

it stabilizes me too
a big issue i have is that i can't usually eat because my mood and ability to function is so vulnerable, and just eating and having that change moves me out of my comfort zone to make me feel upset and irritated
kratom stabilizes me so my mood isn't so vulnerable and i can eat and change tasks and stuff without having it distress me
that's the part of kratom that helps with anxiety

i want to fill capsules with dirt

sand

>>599169
hey doc fill me some capsules with opium will ya i got a killer toothache

15 days without alcohol now
6 days i think without benzos

>>599172
impressive work
i broke my spree of not being a dumb ass fairly recently but I've renewed my vows to try and be less retarded

im not even trying to quit benzos
i just have been enjoying my former self so much that i haven't felt like taking them
i haven't felt any dangerous feelings yet so it's probably okay
>>599173
are ya feelin more at ease
i redose about every four to six hours

I definitely feel more at ease, I don't feel particularly productive but being this peaceful makes me realise how stressed I was.

it's kind of a milk tea and mahjong on a summer evening with the cicadas chirping kind of feeling

oh you can upgrade estuses to heal more...

and I think I used up the item that would have upgraded it...
wonder if that did anything for mea t the time...

The firekeeper soul?

yeah I think I just ate it or something

RIP

hirika

I am beginning to miss immortal skeletons

am I going to fight a giant slime
I bet I am

cutest boss in the game

oh neat I have a shield that gives me stamina regen

and I can dual wield scimitars...
wew

hee
it was not a slime

but that was a fun fight
quite easy though

Did you get the tail?

fuck no

Its a fun weapon.
I wish I could play dark soul again for the first time.
It is a lot of fun.

I'm currently in Anor Londo in the remaster. I forgot to get the peculiar doll
so I have to go back to the start again.

what a long dong diddly day

hmm actually where to now...

What a long dong

>>599196
near the entrance to the hallway to that boss there's a gate
you can open it now

>>599197
where

I'm pretty sleepy.
I'm going to nap.
I need to get up early anyway.

Nighty night moe
>>599196
Have fun with the next part!

>>599200
1 sheep 2 sheep it's time to sleep

oh, welcome to blighttown

>>599200
nighty night

i asked fish to start the stew like an hour ago so it would be almost ready when i got home but she didn't
even though she said she would an hour ago

fish stew

How are we all this hour?
ded?
should I set an alarm to ask this later?

my selves are doing pretty good thanks
good to hear you're swell

i'm doing just swell how about you're self

I've got cake.

ooo what kind
spooky glitch going on here

Well, had cake.

I'm pretty miffed

>>599211
Some kind of triple chocolate cake.
Chocolate cake blocks sandwiching a rich center of this kind of halfway point between creamy and solid milk, dark, and white chocolate.

I found someone's sex tou

>>599213
about the stew?
>>599214
sounds good but maybe way too rich for my tastes
>>599218
hope your hunger and frustations go away

man I can't read SHIT

>>599213
It's pretty annoying when you expect to be able to eat at a certain time and have to have it delayed.

>>599216
Yeah. It's very frustrating.

>>599217
Yeah.
But I can't stay up to cook stew, so I'm not eating tonight, partly because I'm very frustrated.

i tried to kill the sex toy from behind but apparently it is immune to buttsex

Good luck with your frustration!

I'm just going to get more frustrated about it!

>Former Labor leader Mark Latham has joined One Nation
lol

>>599222
aw thats a really cute picture

deshou?
it's like he's got little stool legs

>>>/watch?v=2c9TyeKnGGk
not super big into godspeed but this kind of nice

oh fuck off clive palmer
hope you sink in your stupid titanic
ruining my music time

>>>/@tyrantasorus/1058223980715233280

Yeah that's a great prank.
I'd love to see more stuff like that.

very wholesome

I found falchion
is id bedded dan scimitar

also how to get rid of wall sex toy?

wall sex toy takes damage but its health bar is so awkwardly positioned it's hard to see.

meh
falchion has slower hits

you ever play Slay the Spire tn?

how would I play it when I don't own it

how would I know that if I don't have your steam or similar

this song would probably be better without the speech stuff but I guess that's a godspeed thing

well I do personally like it

I rammed my projectile rods into its ass
and it died

blight down is best place
blight down is happy stuff
blight down is merryment
for the whole family folk

you're gonna love it in blighttown

why am I COLLECTING LITERAL SHIT

Because blighttwon is a shitty place to be

euuuuu
this place is horrible

Yes, blighttown is horrible.

If you're concerned about where to find a bonfire once you hit the bottom, and you probably will be, I can direct you.
It's pretty close.

okay where
I ran into rock people

oh and you lived
good
Basically from where you first hit swampland hit straight right until you see the opening in the wall.

By which I do mean opening in the structure of the wall and not just an alcove.

I sense a trap

I think I found the god of the rock people
as the emissary of the wall god
I must go slay this false god

Also I think THIS IS CHECHNYA

Have fun with uh
that

I will go there last
I think I already found the way out
weird watermill lift

yeah, if you'll recall that way you went in and got owned, that would be it.

ugh
are there any smiths nearby
should have bought the "upgrade weapons/armor at bonfire"
I want to make a spear better

nah, andre'd be the only useful fellow around.
Climbing out of Blighttown is a chore.

oh poop
I need 13 str to wield winged spear

if you two hand it you might have enough
two handing treats your strength stat as 150% of its value

NOW THIS IS ASS RAMMING
the dmg is horrible since str 10
but
THIS IS ASS RAMMING

Oh
she had an aoe attack

she is a witch after all

dead witch
that was a fun fight
you pretty quickly learnt the pattern

the aoe was only thing that surprised me the first time

Quelaag is cute.

how do I shoot fire?

Also I found my Wall Goddess

>>599265
you need a puromancy flame
theres an npc in the sewers you can save

wat

>>599267
the one in the barrel with butchers?

>>599269
yeah
also you can try to progress down ere but youll eventually get walled off again until later
>>599271
fire link, which is actually a good place to go right mow anyway with both bells rung

where is he now?

I think I found lucifer

FOR THE WALL GODDESS
IN OUR SKIRTS

did you kill ceaseless

it killed me from something like 20 metres away with its attack
I love hitboxes
now it is spamming its undodgeable unblockable fireball

He's a big bully

man he has bullshit hitboxes
I am FUCKING MILES AWAY
no it hits this time
What about that time I was CLOSER to this slam attack
It missed
so it hits this time when i was FURTHER away
yes
kay

huehue I am ah ard boss
My difficulty is in that I hit you when I am not

this is one of the shittiest bosses since moonbuttergay

You eventually do need to beat him, but you can wait if you need to.
So you can punch him hard enough to shrug off his damage.

rip humanity

he attacked me thorugh the wall
I am going to ram my scimitar into your ass
BUT YOUR ASS IS IN LAVA
GET UP HERE YOU BITCH

this is equally anus fight as that metal gear spider fight in MGR

oh have you uh
used any- you haven't
do you have any fire keeper souls

I ate the only one I found sicne I didn't know what do with them

>ate it
I'm sad
It buffs your estus
you give it to a fire keeper
makes it heal-oh

yeah I know that now
but guess DID I KNIOW THAT BACK THEN

I even ASKED HERE
no one told me

well good news is there's one on the way up from blighttown if you go into an unpleasant hallway of poison darts and firedogs

and THERE STILL ISN'T ANYONE I CAN DUMB OFF MY STUFF
for fucks sake
so much cluter shit items in my inventory

Feed it to Frampt

He literally just unlocked frampt

So then he literally can just do it.

so what do you do agains this attack
it can't be dodged
you can't block it

I think it's actually dodgeable with a well timed roll but it's tricky.

no it is not
the splash fire dmg still hits you

That is not a good boss
>how do you fight it
dodge its boring attacks that sometimes hit you from 20 character widhts away despite dodging and then deal 4-5 attacks to it
rinse repeat

that is the WORST kind of boss
okay
the WORST design was the fucking moongay
>dodge its hits, taht sometimes fuck your FPS so that you can't dodge
>oh here comes a hit that can't properly be dodged and must be blocked
>and then rush over to hit it few times

if you have giant bosses make killing them somewhat engaging
not just hitting their ankles or shit
it is FUCKING ANAL
and how does the bsos even DIE from he hitting its tentacles...

not to mention once again
>it hits despite you being WAY away from its smash range
>as far away as EVERY OTHER TIME WHEN YOU DODGED IT
and then of course it has that fire attack thatj ust HITS

what annoys me the most is that I WOULD HAVE KILLED IT IN ONE BLOW on the first run
HAD IT NOT FUCKING HITBOXED ME

I will not debate that with you, ceaseless is pretty boring.

so is there a way to activate an elevator to wall goddess?

There actually is an elevator there but it's more of a shortcut to elsewhere rather than a quick way to get to her.
You'll be able to teleport after an important plot boss though.

there should be quick travel between bonfires FROM THE START

*between bonfires

>>599298
That's dark souls 2

Of the many things that went wrong in DaS2, some things went very right.

>here is a mechanic that would be REALLY USEFUL and SAVE SO MUCH TIME for players
>quick travel between checkpoints
>nah let's not add it, is not like they will like it

So many bad game designs in Dark Souls...
why do people like it so much?
those are not "features" they are game dev going "can't be arsed"

It's pretty satisfying.

I am nto saying it isn't a fun game
I am just pointing out how fucking flawed it is in terms of many game design elements that were common place in other games of the time

Hell didn't demon souls have quick travel to any big spot from the hub world...

Demon's Souls also wasn't open like Dark Souls is though.
The worlds were linear with checkpoints at each boss.

Even more so to add quick travel to das

and youi can't even hit the flame turds retard face without falling off

Oh yeah did the eggsack guy at the wall goddes shrine have any importance
I instantly attacked him out of reflex

did
well not really
he sells some pyromancies and can cure you if you get EGGified but there are other ways to get that
I hope.

Well I have one more anti-egg item
how do you get egged?

BY THE WAY DONT GET EGGED

>>599311
the parasites in the egg people spitting at yuo

I don't get the eastern europeans
What 100 years?
what about 1939-1989?

what do you do with covenants anyhow?

They have different benefits for joining and ranking up.
The spider gal's covenant is considered PVE content
>>599317
your kick gets replaced and your soul gain is halved.

also what do the eggs do aside prevent helmet

>>599316
eww

>>599318
yeah so don't

But fuck damnit
>finish tw session with bugged naval combat
>finish das with hitbox bug boss
sure was a day

they're gobbing her!
and then they're gonna gob me!

I didn't have much to eat today.
Missed breakfast and didn't really have a dinner.
At least I had a bit of sandwich for lunch.
Guess I could have some crackers and cheese.

i bought a couple soups with a gift card i still have
i got no money
winter gon be tough

I hope you can manage.
The winters can get pretty nasty up here.

hey blue we're setting up a mahjong game if you would be interested

>>599324
yeah we're basically neighbors at this point
you are a little closer to the lakes which can affect the precipitation quite a bit though

Yeah.
We're getting a lot of rain right now but winter's are usually pretty snowless around here until January/February.
Though the biting cold comes as it pleases.

i'm thinking im gonna get a table and a comforter and make a makeshift kotatsu for my room
and probably just not leave me room all winter
but by table i mean like a tall, long table probably that i can be completely under
the normal kotatsu table might not work here
it would if i had that kind of floor seat setup they have
i need my hands to be warm in order to work though

Yeah, I wish I had some better means of keeping my hands warm.
It's not bad enough to incapacitate me but man I hate the feeling of cold fingers.
i end up in a state of perpetual grouchiness when I'm like that.

Night

>>599331 →
abune
anime too

gonna take a risk a nd post this hoping it's not lewd
hope it pays off

it's a very nice image

Congratulations on your gamble paying off.

thanks I try sometimes

went from a real upper of a mood to a real downer
guess I gotta ride the rollercoaster
>autocorrect suggests imats
uhhh okay

The emotional rollercoaster is the worst.
I want to get off Mr. Emotions Wild Ride.

has marsh posted lately?
I'm a bit worried about him

What's lately to you?
I think he's been a bit around in the pastweek.

ELECTRIC SHOCK

Shibireru darou~?

i tried to hide
but i can’t help it

gonna give you my heart to break

No don't

it’s a shot in the dark but i’ll take if

gotta hack the gibson

>>599376
I guess I saw him one of these days the past seven gone
still I worry
the traveling life can be a lonely one

been tryin to repress these two weeks

Rough times?

yeah a bit and just making my life unnecessarily hard because I'm a stupid dipshit

I woke up really late.
So sleepy.
I might be late for class. Oh well.

>>599421
what's wrong

Hey moon.
Can kratom sit in a water bottle overnight or should I chuck the water and do it fresh?

>>599423
it's a bit much too explain in the truck on my break
it basically comes down to
money problems
people are fucked up and so am I
so nothing really new but that's okay

>>599424
i do it fresh every time
i don't know if it could or not
i never use water, only milk
if it's not wasting a lot i would do it fresh

Thanks.

>>599425
im sorry things are rough

it's alright things are rough everywhere

thanks though at least I go home tonight

what does kratom taste like anyway

grassy dirt

I could see myself eating that

>>599433
it's more something you drink
you could chew on the raw leaves maybe but you wouldn't swallow the leaves, just chew
you can make tea or mix the powder into a beverage

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