https://m.imgur.com/a/75KOAXY streamer ZeRo who has done some fucked up shit w a minor Also would post on his discord asking for the best anime lewds lmao wtf
Hanging in there Anxious and stuff always but at least I can just go lay down in bed now without anyone asking why
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
that's my secret cap im always anxious
Sc now
Pretty much Being able to manmanage my Manage my downward spirals by going to bed helps though.
I slept from like 2pm to 3:30pm today cause things were getting heavy, and it helped a lot
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
naps are powerful shit when you don't do them too often
Sc now
I'm not convinced I'll not do thethem too often
ToN
thugged out dirt nap but in a bed
Sc now
Stressed out, but yes
Sc now
I've been having Thoughts about like, relationships and stuff lately too, so that's a whole other other thing Life is hard
Sc now
Like I don't think I could do relationship But I also feel feel very alone But I also don'tdon't want anyone to start a relationship with who I am now That'd be wrong I feel like
Sc now
Chrome still isn't suited for moe
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Chrome works fine for me on /moe/. >>854255 You worry too much about shit like being worthy. You're not the one who makes that determination.
>>854258 90% of my /moe/ posting is phone posting with Chrome! I'm chrome posting right now!
Also while it's not upto me if other people go into a relationship with me, it is up to me whether I'm open about a future transition that may never come, or if I hide it And being open aopen about it isa surefire rejection And hiding it, I think it's unfair
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
why is being open something that necessitates rejection
Sc now
Because nobody wants a pre transition
Sc now
Trans we Oman.
See chrome aucks
Sc now
Besides I don't think I'm good enough
I don't have real income or anything I'm 28 anda virgin, that's pathetic i think
Sc now
Am I even really up fora relationship? Yknow?. Our do I just want someone to love me? I don't think think those are the same, I think what I really want is really cruel.
Sc now
Maybe I'm just damaged
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
you are really overthinking it and working very hard to ensure you don't have the things you feel you need
Sc now
I don't think I'm over thinking it Nobody would want to dato date someosomeone they have to always pay for Nobody wants to speto spend time dealidealing with my in secin security when there are otare other options, it's not lnot like I'm the last unhitched person out there
Besides there's a limit to how old old you can be before virginity stops being being kinda cute and starts being a real red fred flag like like this person should be avoided?
But I'm still lonely
Sc now
These things don't mdon't matter ina vacuum, but they mattematter when there are otare other options
Doesn't just the fact I've yet to be in a relationship signify like, an issue with me? "not trying" isn't an excuse, it is an issue in itself
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
those are all things you're assuming other people are thinking or believe but aren't you surrounded by similar people on twitter?
Sc now
No I'm not? Everyone on twitter is either somewhat social irl or "dating" some other person on twitter They're not voluntary social rejects internally pining for some sort of contact with another human being
I'm not, actually, surrounded by people who want to be in a relationship but just haven't ever tried at all Besides I want another human being, not a text box
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
no, but you're surrounded by people with crippling self doubt and anxiety, some of which are virgins, virtually none of which have jobs and none of which will judge you
Sc now
Yeah but I can't... Date those people or anything
Not being judged by equally strabded people doesn't really do anything
I don't live in like, a city I live in a shitty sub 5k Town. Just statistically speaking the chance of there being a person who isn't just ok with trans people, but doesn't mind me b Eing pre hrt, AND actually ends up liking me and vice versa is worse than mining a bitcoin using pen and paper
FormerRei@mobile
>>854262 My best friend is dating my other best friend who is Oh wait by pre transition do you mean pre srs or pre hrt? CCause I have a pre srs friend who is dating my other friend.
Sc now
Pre literally everything except wanting
Sc now
With high enough numbers basic lly any wacky fucking thing can happen, but I'm not talking about there being some girl in Bangladesh who's on my exact wavelength
FormerRei@mobile
Well I'm sure you could find someone if you're in a big enough area.
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
they don't necessarily have to be in your town you have a car
Sc now
I have a car and no fucking money
Sc now
You really think someone would really date me, pay for more or less everything involved in that, and accept it being long distance? I don't think that's possible.
Maybe if that's how things shook out after a while, but that being the start is absurd
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
dating does not have to cost a lot of money and many people will understand if you don't have much money you are assuming your own biases are what everyone believes
Sc now
Yeah but they have options
Why would they... Try Why would fucking anyone try When there's oceans of people who aren't this amount of red flags and obstacles
Sc now
Like would you even try that dumb shit? It's ridiculous, you could just like, date anyone else who's at least approaching normal, or stable, or at least nearby, or not going to drastically change later
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
you are the one deciding those are red flags they do not have to be and most people will not even see those things who tf is gonna know you're a virgin? come on
Sc now
Those are obvious red flags
Sc now
It's gonna come up! Eventually those things come up And it just adds to the obvious, caricature of a train wreck I am as a person.
Virginity doesn't matter but it still tells you something about that person. Like they're actually awful to be around, or their social skills are sub zero, or maybe they're just uninterested, that's a problem too,
PANrela
just claim to be saving yourself for marriage, it works for the religious
Sc now
One of the few things I have going for me here is I'm not religious.
PANrela
i'm not saying BECOME religious im saying the religious folk save themselves for marriage and it works out, so you can just claim you're doing the same you don't have to claim to be one of them >>854290 im sure there are plenty of people who are
Sc now
Yeah but nobody else does
Sc now
Besides if all of this stuff is just irrational justifications what is my problem Am I just scared Rejection aversion?
I'm clearly struggling, rationally it Or not
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
bepis
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
there is no substitute for going out there and trying
wow the post is gone unbelievable it was some discord link with a picture of a rat with a person hand points // pointing at you
Mahou Shoujo Marsh-chan
i think you're having hallucinations, mate
PANrela
maybe you're right
Anno
this rat was pointing at me he wanted me to go to war
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
stock rat wants you for the ghost spider army
YuuPANrela
henlo
Yuu
hello hello
PANrela
have a fun 4th?
Yuu
yes and no I had a fun night with friends celebrating the first and then I capped the night off by sending angry and crazy texts to my sorta-kinda ex not-ex but probably ex now because he's been ignoring me for two days and I know he took another girl home tonight.
PANrela
well at least you got to have some fun for a bit this is the same guy from before right? i haven't kept up with your relationship much but this kind of ignoring you seems like repeat behavior
Yuu
Yeah, same as before and I keep trying to make it work and it keeps not working in increasingly horrible ways. I think I'm giving up on being a normie for awhile.
AnnoPANrela
it's almost certainly not going to work if only one of you seems to be putting in the effort and it's absolutely not going to work if he's taking other girls home, imo call me old fashioned normie life is a bust
Yuu
So annoying. I'm not used to not getting my way in such a spectacular fashion. I thought it was going to work out this time.
PANrela
when you say it like that it makes you sound like a spoiled kid! it's unfortunate but there's always going to be a next time, right
Yuu
Maybe there will be a next time. I'm getting old. It's getting hard to find good people at this age. Who haven't been married and don't already have kids and stuff.
PANrela
don't break my illusion of the eternally-17 rika! it's // i feel like 'at this age' isn't really necessary there, finding good people in generally is probably just hard might have to downgrade to decent
>>854359 me neither i feel like it's kind of hopeless cause nobody who will accept how fucked up i really am is gonna want something long term
Yuu
>>854361 That's really the source of my frustration. I put an insane amount of work and my heart and soul into this relationship and it blew up with him really not even giving a shit.
>>854364 kind of pointless to say now, but you really should have just given up on him when he exhibted similar lack of care and compassion earlier on seemed like a really solid red flag then, but i don't know
Yuu
>>854365 Giving up on people when you're in love is hard. I knew it was a bad idea but I didn't want to give up.
>>854363 If it makes you feel better I think I'm not really that fucked up and I am a good package but still nobody is buying. I don't know how that thought could make you feel better now that I've typed it out but still don't feel bad because I know how you feel.
PANrela
>>854366 Well yeah, but the whole point of giving up when you know you're in love with a lost cause is to save you from heartbreak or whatever just like this further down the line.
JaPAN
>>854366 well you're right that didn't make me feel better at all I'm sure you're a good catch you seem like a nice girl good with responsibility and you got a level head on your shoulders
probably just need to find someone who really wants that in a companion
I just feel kind of bad initiating relationships because I have a lot of unresolved trauma and shit I guess feels like I either open up and make things uncomfortable or havea weight on my shoulders the whole time
>>854371 why the fuck you think he drives around in that ute got ten liters of gasoline in the bed ready to kill some koalas
JaPAN
this 4th of July sucked ass guys
PANrela
my 4th was okay i played a lot of BL3 >>854373 what a fucker
JaPAN
i worked twelve fucking hours got threatened got tempted with drugs argued with my girlfriend about my feelings not mattering enough to me then got drunk and I have to fucking go to sleep to work 10 hours tomorrow too all while listening to constant fireworks and gunfire at least I threw the stuff he gave me away that's the only thing I'm proud of
Koi
i did nothing productive today i'm gonna see about typesetting more of this chapter
PANrela
okay im weighing the facts and tbh that seems like way worse than just a sucked ass
JaPAN
it wasn't that bad I'll get over it
Yuu
I can't say I had a super great fourth either Life is tough.
PANrela
I feel for you both
JaPAN
>>854380 im sorry rika I hope you have a better day tomorrow
>>854390 Kek I have an old testament angel illustration with all the eyes being cropped anime ryes. *eyes I would have to go through like 800~ images to find it though.
now that I'm actually doing the typesetting myself, i'm honestly kinda sad that we never actually show the COOL ATTACK NAMES All of the skils that the Nightmares and Yumeji use in Yumekui Merry have Primary Names but the scanlations only really use the main one most of the time.
Mahou Shoujo Marsh-chan
>>854401 i don't know what any of that means but i like the pretty pictures.
Koi
Like this one that's about to be in the next chapter The Kanji says one thing but the text on the side says another. but the Kanji one sounds COOL "THE SONG THAT ECHOES"
Mahou Shoujo Marsh-chan
>>854403 so they just bother with the main sounds instead of bothering with the more complex kanji name?
Koi
It's not that they can't. I think they do it with a few of them. Like Engi's. Most of the time they're usually only calling out the normal name. Like that one I put up is "Active Sonar"
whew almost missed the daily stretching and slight workout that sure loosened my back greatly
i wonder how much a back massage would cost at the massageur in the block next to me
AnnoKirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
me
!C0.PerkELEAnnoAnnoOjii !2Code3TV3M
woops forgot my name hello people
!C0.PerkELE
tresher maws in mass efect are one of those aliens that always take me out of the world how on earth does something that big exist in fucking wastelands where there is nothing to eat
reminds me of the sarlacks in star wars
!C0.PerkELE
I guess you could design such a species so, that it sustains itself through eating say just rock etc btu requires meat to breed but trashers in universe are carnivores so
Ojii !2Code3TV3M
sarlacs make sense since they don't do much and are basically just death pits of digestive juices like pitcher plants and are crazy old i dont know how to explain anything more active than that though, 'rule of cool' is the best i got for you
!C0.PerkELE
have you seen how large they are?
!C0.PerkELEAnno
Outer Wilds is pretty fun I teleported an alien shuttle back to its launch pad, got in it, figured out how to launch it, and despite it design ed to find me something they call a "Phantom Moon", it flew me straight into the solar system's sun.
Was half prepared for them to bend that spoon down and YEET that hamster into low-Earth orbit
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Yeetus Deleteus
!C0.PerkELE
can you even launch something into escape velocity with a single application kf force, without say completely destroying the object in the process >>854497 pokemon censors the gore
also ever wondered would revive work on people?
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
uh yes of course haven't you seen Pokemon before
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
no one ages or dies in pokemon
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
professor oak was born like that (incidentally, he was born from the hollow of a tree, guess which type)
Anno
Willow?
Mahou Shoujo Marsh-chan
artich-OAK.
!C0.PerkELE
mänty
Mahou Shoujo Marsh-chan
mänty-ray
!C0.PerkELE
turns you into a tree or on a miss #10d10 (8, 6, 10, 6, 10, 6, 7, 5, 2, 2 = 62) nature damage
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
what's nature damage feel like
Mahou Shoujo Marsh-chan
photoshop potential
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
those sunset eyes
!C0.PerkELE
where's the red?
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
sunrise eyes
wait-
Anno
A downside to this new fridge is that it makes a high-pitched hum when it's working the compressor that I'm pretty sure my parents are too old to hear. But I can hear it and it makes going anywhere near the kitchen kind of annoying.
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
blow it up
Anno
Tempting
!C0.PerkELE
>>854510 i've notedthat newer fridges make weird noises too compared to older ones
>>854542 I'm okay! A little anxious, tomorrow is the deadline for my appeal to get reinstated back in my doctorate program. How are you?
Yuu
>>854543 Oh, tomorrow is the deadline? Are you going to find out tomorrow, or do you already know what's going to happen?
I'm okay. Still going insane over relationship troubles.
PANrela
Reminder: ToN's dumb thank you for reading this reminder
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854544 Yeah. I have to submit my letter tomorrow. I think I'll be reinstated but you never know so I am a bit nervous. Everyone seems really invested in me completing the program, so I think they will allow me back in. But I'm still nervous, haha. I really want my doctorate.
What's going on now? I heard you were having some struggles.
>>854546 It's good that you have a pretty good idea that you'll get back in. I hope you're able to finish. Your program is insane, like literally bipolar.
>>854546 Uh, we're sorta fightig again. He treated me super super coldly this week, I had fun with friends last night and then capped my night off by sending him angry and maybe a little crazy texts about how he was an asshole and I was pretty sure he took another girl home last night but later I figured out they were together alone for about an hour. So today I'm giving him the silent treatment partially because I know I should just cut contact and get away and partially because I'm hoping he'll realize he's stupid and come around and apologize for being a retard (he won't)
>>854548 I feel like this is the same situation things were at the last time. Seems like your ghosting him last time didn't last too long, eh. Are you content to let things cycle miserably like this or are you going to make a more decisive decision this time?
PANrela
>>854548 absolutely they can i remain in the "just give it up" camp he really seems less and less worth it even remotely
You're going to stick with him after he took another girl home with them?
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
him*
PANrela
even if he didnt do anything with her that's hella scuffed
Yuu
>>854551 >>854553 Things haven't changed much, yeah. I'm terrible at letting go.
Hmm, I'm done if something happened but maybe something didn't. I realize that I'm being delusional and just need to let it go.
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854556 What could possibly happen when a man with the emotional maturity of a teenager takes a woman home with him on a holiday?
PANrela
especially while he probably thinks his girlfriend is completely ignoring what he's potentially doing
Yuu
>>854557 hmm, given the way he is I could see them just hanging out a bit. I think they probably did at least cuddle. But I heard from a pretty reliable source that he left after an hour and if they were gonna do that he wouldn't have left probably.
but I know it's bad and I should just let it go
>>854558 He's been ignoring me, not the other way around. I've decided to counter-ignore.
PANrela
>>854559 well if you're both in a state of ignoring each other id say it's absolutely time to just let it go
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854559 If my girlfriend went to a man's house without communicating about it with me, and it was a holiday, especially one where people tend to drink, I would probably consider that a violation of my trust. But I get pretty jealous, so idk.
Yuu
Well it's definitely a betrayal and I am definitely mad about it and those two have been getting along way too well lately for a number of weeks. But I hate losing and it's hard to give up. But I'm being good and trying to get away and not look back. but I do quietly hope he'll realize what he's missig and come apologize
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854562 I feel like you're putting yourself through a lot of extra pain here. This dude sounds like a total douchebag. Even if he does apologize to you, how are you ever supposed to trust someone who has been a shitter so many times?
PANrela
honestly i feel like you're losing more by sticking with it because then you just lose over and over when things like this happen more and more
Yuu
Yeah, that's true. I think I'm being unreasonable. it was a really good relationship when it was good, one of my best. He's don't he's done a mr.hyde thing lately which is part of why I'm really having trouble letting it go
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Yeah, it's really hard to move on.
I started talking to a corporate attorney on a dating app. She seems nice and is cute but something about it just feels off. I think I'm still attached to Fish!
But what can you do? Life's gotta go on. One way or another.
Anno
I've never let go of anything in my entire life
PANrela
I let go of things left and right
Yuu
It's so annoying. I think I'm going to give up on being a normie for awhile, though I'm at an age where I really shouldn't stop trying to be a normie.
PANrela
just stop being normie and meet a nice guy at an anime convention those exist right
AnnoAnno
>Anime conventions >In this age of pandemic shutdown
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854573 I don't know how to be normie. I probably should learn, though.
Yuu
One of the things I liked about this one is that he was a weeb too. I've never dated someone who shared my interests like that before.
In other news, did you guys see that Yoko Taro's gacha got an english version? Sinoalice. I played it a bit and the aesthetics were really good but the game itself seemed a bit dull.
Anno
Sounds like usual mobage fair then.
Anno
Fare, even
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854578 Yeah, I'm hoping to find a weeb or weeb lite. I don't have a lot of hope for it, though.
I've played the Japanese version, the game is boring but the characters are good.
Yuu
Well, Yoko Taro's stuff is always REALLY good. Gachas always have cute characters but yoko taro's work is always a step beyond just being attractive.
PANrela
>>854578 well being a weeb is slowly becoming more 'normal' so maybe you'll find another
ive heard a bit about the sinoalice thing from my GBF crew, but none of them seemed to like it either
Someone who's not a weeb would probably be a dealbreaker ultimately for me I think. I'm just so deep in this Kool-Aid by this point that it would likely inevitably end up becoming a problem.
FormerRei@mobile
I don't know if you guys know this or not, but its actually entirely possible to get someone into anime. Basically all of my irl friends who are really into anime are into it because of me.
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Yeah, she needs to veto that.
I don't understand how someone can get that close to marriage with someone and not know they're like that.
Yuu
It seems like she knew he was like that, just it's a surprise to her that he's trying to make the wedding a pokemon wedding. I imagine this sort of conflict isn't that uncommon, replace the pokemon obsession with a sports obession and you've got what is probably a pretty common scenario.
She needs to just impress upon him that wedding planning is a female thing and he doens't really get a say.
PANrela
being that diehard for a pokemon wedding at the old age of 28 is a yikes
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
I guess Fish would have wanted a fish themed wedding probably. fishcakes
>>854591 I think wedding planning can be something both people work on!
FormerRei@mobile
>>854593 A fish themed wedding would actually be cool.
>>854593 That's true, it's something you both should have a say in. The final decisions belong to the female half, though, I think. That's just how these things go.
Anno
>>854593 Hopefully we're talking fish-like cakes and not actual fishcakes.
it's a fish-'like' cake that has icing and everything but then you cut into and it's actually salmon cakes
FormerRei@mobile
>>854602 The priest is supposed to be professor oak.
Talesof !NuKeSlvmWE
UM IT'S NOT DOCTOR OAK IT'S PROFESSOR OAK????
Anno
But if he's a professor then he's got a PhD in something and would therefore be a Doctor
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
doktor oak
>>854599 I guess whoever has more family members coming should probably get to have more input, too. I don't really have family, but if I ever do manage to get married, they probably would.
FormerRei@mobile
>>854606 I've had university professors who didn't have a doctorate.
I can't really relate to wanting to have a themed wedding but you gotta compromise on that stuff somewhere. I'd cringe too hard at myself if I did something like a pokemon wedding.
>>854610 It's not really a new/old world thing and more a hyper-commercialization of the post-secondary education institutions. Too many universities and colleges are putting the responsibility of lectures on non-doctorate people because they can be paid less.
!C0.PerkELE
>>854612 yes but in an american unviersity I presume
PANrela
ton the type of guy to have a naruto themed wedding
FormerRei@mobile
>>854615 Yeah He was working on his PhD while teaching undergrad. He spent a llolot of time doing research for the government instead of getting his PhD. You can do a lot with a masters.
I need to get whatever leftover Tsugu there is and take them to be bound in matrimony with Toru forever
Samu /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
born of a tree
!C0.PerkELE
wait who killed tsugu?
PANrela
i need toru's tongue for my good friend Hallway Guy
Talesof !NuKeSlvmWE
did // was Tsugu who I was thinking of when I nope shit who did I finish off
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Soen got the final blow on Tsugu. But Tsugu isn't necessarily gone! You never found the arm with the kurisuball.
!C0.PerkELE
I was thinking of non-existing her, but it would have been a waste of a daily also I am 20000% sure matt's won't ever let me succeed in those 4x hard saves
>>854630 the waterlady whom I declared a heretic and turned into a spider to have a kaiju match and watched as the rest of the party got fucked over completely due to missing the primary healer
PANrela
you know who would make a great Range of the Three randy
>>854648 no, no of course not Weddings are one of those things in life you need to play straight.
PANrela
>>854652 yeah but you have to dress up as snake and love
!C0.PerkELE
Would work especially in japan since the series uses time relevant clothing mostly, with just extra colours and ... accessories
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854653 Don't you wanna wear a nice, beautiful, white kimono as you walk down the aisle?
!C0.PerkELE
hmm i've been to 8 weddings so far I think
Yuu
I've never actually worn anything like a kimono. I think white people look silly in asian clothes, anyway.
PANrela
im trying to show up to weddings screaming with no shirt on and a boar mask on my head
Anno
A kimono is basically just a robe and I wear a bathrobe all the time and don't look silly in it.
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854658 I haven't either, but don't you want to be a yamato nadeshiko waifu?
!C0.PerkELE
... 3 of which were my uncle's
kinda gets you thinking about sanctity of marriage
Yuu
>>854661 I couldn't pull it off, I'm way too white. My hair is light brown and my eyes are green. A yamato nadeshiko always has black hair and brown eyes.
PANrela
wow ive learned a lot about rika's appearence just now compared to the uh 8 years? ive known her nearly 8 years holy fuck ive known rika for nearly 8 years oh god
>>854663 Dye your hair black! Halfway is probably enough. You can be one of those weebs that everyone loves in anime. Like Karen.
!C0.PerkELE
I once saw like the finnishest finnish woman walking around in yutaka in the city looked so off platinum blond hair nearly white pale skin blue eyes
it was like dem chinese cartoons with foreign students
Yuu
>>854664 I've talked about my hair and eye color on moe before.
>>854666 I don't think I could pull off black very well. I've thought about dyeing my hair black before. Since my hair is naturally light colored I can do blonde a lot better I think.
Anno
>>854666 Are the weebs everyone loves in anime always blonde though.
PANrela
>>854668 in my defense, from 2013-earlier this year i only stopped by moe occasionally
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854668 What a shame. Black is the best hair color. I bet you could pull it off if you tried!
just aim gothic lolita then you can embrace your weeb nature at the same time
Anno
Ah shit PAN's cracked it
!C0.PerkELE
aside the couple who cut eachother but at that point I don't know was it some weird play or what and I never asked despite witnessing it once
Yuu
>>854686 I think that black hair is really pretty. I've never tried black hair though, I don't think it works. My complexion is very light so I'd just look pale and gothy.
Anno
You're saying this like it's a bad thing!
!C0.PerkELE
black hair is pretty, but I think for me it just is exotic appeal since it is really rare here
PANrela
rika's really got it out for the goths
!C0.PerkELE
as in appearing naturally
Anno
Maybe she was a Roman in a past life.
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854691 Teacup was the prettiest girl ever and she was like that!
!C0.PerkELE
I once dyed temporarily my hair black looked weird as hell
!C0.PerkELE
and to continue the story, I also had pink, green, blue,etc on the same day
messed around with a group of friends with washable temp hair colours
PANrela
i have never dyed my hair and dont plan too
!C0.PerkELE
same atleast with actual hair dye some temp colour that comes out washing, I won't mind
Yuu
It's actually a real pain. You have to maintain it so your roots don't show and it damages your hair. The process is annoying too.
Better to just embrace your natural colors.
Anno
Yeah my imouto's been really getting into serious hairdye lately and is always working some colour. It's thinned out her hair a bit.
!C0.PerkELE
my mother uses some amount of dye well atleast up untill she turned like 55 or so had to use a lot of extra products to keep her scalp and hair healthy due to it
PANrela
i embrace my natural colors by putting 0 effort into my physical appearance because i dont care it works wonders
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Now that I think about it, I've never been with someone that didn't have black hair, I don't think.
>>854703 Yes, it's very stressful for hair to be dyed. And you have to dye it more often that it really wants to be dyed if you're going to keep your roots from showing, especially if you have naturally dark hair and are trying to lighten it.
Talesof !NuKeSlvmWE
Hair DIE
!C0.PerkELE
#d20 (20) natural success
Anno
>>854709 Well she's been doing the unnatural colours like green and blue. I've jabbed at her at times that she seems to be rocking the Billie Eilish style.
Honestly I kinda like how the brown shows through personally, hah hah. I think my family has a really nice dark brown hair colour though and I think she'd look fine just rocking what's natural. But she's happy doing this so really, it doesn't seem like a problem.
Yuu
Ohhh noooo I've never done weird colors like tha.t Those are even harder to maintain and I think it looks horrrrible when your brown roots start showing under your green hair.
PANrela
pink haired rika when
!C0.PerkELE
>>854713 blond coloured black or vice versa can look quite good when the natural hair starts to show up
Yuu
If I were going to do an unnatural color I'd do white since I like white haired anime girls. But in reality that just makes you look old.
Talesof !NuKeSlvmWE
I saw someone rock the silver haired look and it was pretty good but it could have been a wig?
Anno
Depends on your complexion I think. Like it does add weight to making you look older, sure, but if you've got like a very soft, youthful face I think white/grey hair actually makes you look kinda elfish and ageless rather than old.
!C0.PerkELE
beard always makes you look older
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
I think unnatural colors can look good in certain contexts but look really weird in like, professional stuations.
!C0.PerkELE
depends on the colour setting clothing facetype and ofc what kind of clour you are rocking since some also trigger "poisonous" instinct
Anno
Hair for me really is more about style than colour. Aside from like super blonde I'm not a fan of that much at all.
!C0.PerkELE
only natural blonds coloured blond always looks so weird
Anno
Natural blondes are pretty eh to me too. >>854725 You're not going to No True Scotsman me on this, no, I just don't like blonde as a hair colour all that much.
!C0.PerkELE
you just havn't seen that platinum blond with as "white" hair as it can be without old age
>>854724 I can see your point tho it can look weird as fuck especially if not cared for blond hair gets obviously greasy dirty messy and so on
I bit dislike my own hair in the sense, that it is damn hard to style it in any fashion, without turning it into a mass of hair grease and wax and spray and so on
Anno
A funny anecdote, my brother when he was younger had blonde hair that ranged from platinum blonde to dirty blonde depending on how much sun he was getting. Around late middle school/early high school he started dying his hair and by the time that phase passed his hair colour had gone to brown. All my siblings had some form of this, though his was the most stark. I'm the only one in my family that was born with brown hair and kept it the same dark shade all my life.
i was very blonde as a kid and then my hair slowly turned brown
!C0.PerkELE
My dad was born blond and turned brown completely after army my mother is blond, but not fully platinum like me and my brother
it is a curious mixture of genes that we have as lightcoloured hair as we do us two
since most of our family is actually BROWN/dark haired >>854728 I was actually born brown haired but it turned to what I now have by age 1
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
It's pretty messy.
Yuu
>>854723 Done right, you can't tell the difference between a natural blonde and someone with dyed hair. But you need naturally light hair (like light brown) and light body hair to do it.
When I see girls with dark hair or darker body hair try to pull off blonde, they can't do it.
about 4th of my eyebrow hairs are dark or black my facial hair is wonky I have two coloured hairs at times like they start out blond, but the base becoems dark or the opposite
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
I have a client with green hair right now. She spontaneously informed the group recently that she is very careful when dying her hair because she wants to make sure her pubic hair and eyebrows match.
btw practically colourless body hair, when you are super hairy looks weird
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
I think a lot of the clients are kinda into me, too. I can't blame them! I'm supportive and offering unconditional support, I'm somewhat attractive, and funny. Vulnerable people usually fall for people like me! One of them was recently showing me the drawings they've made of me. She keeps making sketches of me. They're good sketches but it's still weird.
>>854744 I can't help it! I'm everyone's favorite idol!
Anno
Your high Charisma stat is too dangerous
PANrela
wow kirara, grooming your clients!
!C0.PerkELE
>>854743 you're gonna get a sketch of blood and "fluids" on a curious "leather" canvas one day
!C0.PerkELE
huh didn't know during early years of your rebellion, you lot used a Pine Tree flag as a standard that is neat
>>854750 My arms are My abdomen has some areas that are really hairy and some that aren't.
!C0.PerkELE
I am at the point where if you get hairier than me, you start to look beast like ie. hair in thick bundles on your shoulders and back and so on
FormerRei@mobile
Also I have like three or four different colors of hair on my face. Err face and neck I have black eyebrows, brown haur on cheeks and above lips, reddish brown on chin and neck and then weird transparent hairs that grow abovey eyebrows. *above my
Yuu
Dying your pubes is probably really weird. Such a strange thing to imagine.
It's pretty common for people to fall for their therapists, isn't it?
>>854755 I don't see how being a man or not makes it any different, it's just weird.
!C0.PerkELE
especially if you are a man
PANrela
>>854754 just probably? >>854749 yeah those are really bad boundaries damn did they really expect you to agree
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854754 Yeah, it seems strange. You'd think you'd just shave or something, it seems way easier than dying if it's really that big of a problem for you.
I don't know if it's common, but I am the only real man around and many of these women come from bad relationship histories. So them falling for me, a reliable, supportive guy who listens to them and tries to help them, is a foregone conclusion for many of them.
>>854769 I think it's common for men to fall for their therapists, at least. Women falling for their therapists seems less common according to the studies I've seen in the past. But that's partially because male therapists are much less common these days.
your national authors are weird ours just either did stuff or got orchastrised for portraying finns too realistically, went insane and died in poordom
Yuu
>>854773 Yeah, I think if anything that's probably just because there are male therapists. A stable guy in a superior position to you in a relationship and someone who you rely on seems like exactly the kinda guy you'd naturally fall for.
ToN
i think you were looking for ... ostracized
!C0.PerkELE
whatever shitty language anyhow
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854781 Yeah, for sure. I don't think it can be helped. But I do have to be really careful about it, you know. It can be dangerous if I'm not careful. One time I had to grab and restrain someone because they were trying to hurt someone else and afterwards they were saying troubling things. If I wouldn't spend time with them, they'd say things about me, and things like that. But I am smart and got her to admit to doing that in front of the camera and was able to have her discharged after that, so I was safe.
!C0.PerkELE
btw are there any studies on how men open up to their therapists with the sex being the main factor is there a difference between opening up to a man or a woman?
Anno
Ostrich-eyed
Anno
I made my usual mistake when making chili in that I take way too large a portion and man I'm line
not really, stuff like personality type, socialization history, etc
!C0.PerkELE
so there isn't any trend, eh
age ofc, of the client and therapist prolly is the largest factor if I had to guess
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
nah 100% it's personality compatibility
in fact the single largest predictor of effectiveness of therapy is the quality of the relationship between the clinician and the client that's even more important than the content of the therapy, typically
Yuu
Different people have different preferences too. Some people open up better to the opposite sex, and some people open up better to the same sex.
!C0.PerkELE
I think personally I'd open up to an older male tho who knows I have nver been to therapy
Anno
Some people just don't open up at all!
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
people seem to connect with me really easily i don't do anything special, i just be myself, and people get really into it most of my clients want to stay with me after their IOP treatment ends for some OP treatment
and even the ones i've discharged still reach out to me pretty frequently
yesterday a client called me to ask my advice on what to do about some drug dealer dealing in his front yard haha
!C0.PerkELE
you are a very social and connectable and likeable person so...
Yuu
I get along with both sexes but i think it's easier to judge if a guy is trustworthy or not. You generally know if a guy is someone you can trust or if he's the scum of the earth after having interacted with him a few times.
>>854796 Oh, that's a picture from Arknights? Did you play that game?
!C0.PerkELE
did I ever mention about the stuff I found about my neighbourhood in winter? dead bodies drug rings etc
>>854800 "cool" is a way to describe it but yeah one 15? year old girl found a guy OD on drugs dead in a ditch while walking her dog after that the cops took a bit of a more active role in patrolling the hood and few weeks after they busted a huge heroine ring just in the building next to me
this information was amusing in a way, since in late february /early march, I checked up that a LOT of appartments had gone empty due to people moving out or selling their stuff I only later did the 1+1=2, with the result of those appartments were people arrested or people moving out due to finding out what was going on here
stuff you learn at bus stops
Anno
>>854798 But what about trustworthy scum of the earth like me
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854798 I was the first /moe/ to play Arknights and would be the furthest along if my phone could still play mobage!
>>854802 Yeah, that's me, too. I'm a bad guy, but a likable one. I'm an antivillain.
PANrela
kirara was an arknights fanatic
Yuu
Does your phone not get along with mobage anymore? I think arknights was a very well made game but the gameplay didn't agree with me. Tower defense is a bit too repetitive.
FormerRei@mobile
>>854801 Around here people od in fast food restrooms
!C0.PerkELE
>>854806 I live in middle of nowhere 48k people 8/100km county
FormerRei@mobile
>>854807 I know I'm just letting you know where people od near where I live.
!C0.PerkELE
tho in gesterby, it is one of them ost densest places in finland like 5000/km*2 which is also the total population and area of gesterby
FormerRei@mobile
Another spot in a town near me where people often od was in the McDonald's parking lot next to the police station. The theory was thst people from farther out in the suburbs would meet their dealer there and then just shoot up.
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854805 Yeah, my phone can't do it anymore. I need a new one. Can't even get gmail working sometimes.
!C0.PerkELE
what the fucking hell gesterby is named after the NOBLE family that owned the plot
!C0.PerkELE
you always learn soemthing
fun fact Gesterby as most of Kirkkonummi was part of Soviet Union 1944-1956
Yuu
I need to replace my phone too. The glue that holds it together has gotten old or something and popped apart. The back of the phone is separating from the front and my case is really old and busted now too.
I've been meaning to go to the phone store to get it fixed or replaced but haven't wanted to because all of the coronavirus stuff happening.
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
I won't have money to get a new phone until later in July. How old is your current phone? My is 4 or 5 years old, I think.
>>854815 i have been so lucky with my phones always when my old breaks, some of my immediate family has replaced their phone and is willing to part with the old for free or for a minimal price of 50 odd ees
Yuu
>>854815 About three or four, I think? It's a samsung galaxy S7. Which I think is why the glue failed, because those run really hot.
!C0.PerkELE
what is the glue holding anyway?
Yuu
The back panel of the phone.
!C0.PerkELE
you might be able to get it fixed atleast for cheaper than getting another samsuing or another flagship model of the mainstream companies
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854818 Oh, we're in the same boat. Mine is also an S7.
!C0.PerkELE
whatever you do don't get a huawei tho I don't think those are sold in USA anyhow
Yuu
>>854822 Ah, neat. To be honest it's my own fault. I was using it to run youtube to play ocean sounds over a little speaker while I was sleeping and I think it got hot doing that and killed the glue.
!C0.PerkELE
good phones, but you need to do a lot of work to get them to NOT SPY ON YOU nonstop for the ccp
!C0.PerkELE
not that the spying prolly does anything, but it drains your battery at like 2x the rate
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
>>854824 My glue is relatively fresh since I got a new battery a year and a half ago.
I was thinking about getting a Pixel 3.
!C0.PerkELE
how much are phone repairs over there?
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Depends on the repair and the phone
!C0.PerkELE
well the two big things are screen or battery I'd say either is 50-150 here so 100 average and some models CAN'T be repaired since the parts are hard to get by or well too expensive
shit sucks cause just 5,5m people here >>854831 good price
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
battery was like $45 for me
!C0.PerkELE
I would repair my own phone but getting the parts would cost MORE than getting it repaird by a shop and getting it repaired by a shop most likely costs more than buying a new one (provided you don't buy a flagship)
!C0.PerkELE
it doesn't cost more, but relatively say you get it repaired and buy a 1-2 years of more usage and then have to get a new one compared to getting a new one and thato ne lasting 3-4 years
!C0.PerkELE
>>854831 btw have you checked the monsters in bestiary 2? 13th age
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
nah, don't really use stock monsters anymore
!C0.PerkELE
>>854835 check the eidolons and even if you don't they have a lot of good stuff to get inspired by even if you don't use them 1:1 but eidolons man check those out
!C0.PerkELE
and if you didn't notice I gushed about them on discord
Yuu
>>854827 I'm thinking of getting a new one too. My current one is out of storage and it doesn't have a slot for a SD card. I'd like some more memory.
When I broke my last phone I went to the store the next morning and had it replaced. I was without a phone for about 10 hours total.
What's the point in paying for a backup phone if I'm never going to use it?
!C0.PerkELE
last time my phone broke completely I had 8€ in my bank account, just enough for the next two days of travels tow ork and back and I needed ap hone to for example call for ressupply of goods and other shit
Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\Kirara 🍄 /人◕ ‿‿ ◕人\
Keep dropping!!
>>854848 And given how weird the world is now, I think a more reliable phone would be nice.
aaa damn it feels kinda bad even to me going all "how can I help your colony" when I know i am going to 100% exterminate them come the end of the mission storyline that was a real hard blow when I first played ME not because it was a big moral decision, but because of all the work I put into the colony and then I have to actually wipe them out
also fuck you bioware for making the renegade option just "wrong"
well mass effect 3 was wrong in itself in so many things
!C0.PerkELE
>>854864 if you do still read manga https://mangadex.org/title/21562/kusuriya-no-hitorigoto here is a recommendation
JaPAN
I'm sad my sister's boyfriend is gonna go back home he's been here for over a month it's been awesome
!C0.PerkELE
good that he fits in atleast sad that you will miss him
JaPAN
he's great he's a hyperactive dumb adhd goblin basically me but Italian i wasn't sure I'd like him before he visited the first time but we became fast friends obviously
JaPAN
also he makes some bomb ass tacos for real
!C0.PerkELE
>>854869 you should have seen how my brother's gf "seduced" us with how aweosme and fitting she was and with her dogs
JaPAN
i can't believe he ate my last ice cream sandwich though. motherfucker >>854871 wow going for both brothers greedy >>854873 he bought me some ice cream as payment for his crimes
!C0.PerkELE
I'd declare vendetta
!C0.PerkELE
I just got the stupidest idea I'd need a LOT of people to form a block but... what if I start pressuring the people who did Undertale the musical
to do Legacy of Kain the musical?
!C0.PerkELE
>>854872 she ain't my type but i do like her doges