like im thinking a lot about whether, if an oncoming death were unavoidable, would it be better to die in a hospital setting or die alone somewhere without intervention the lights and beeping and nurses/people constantly interrupting your dying moments might not really be worth the opioids and benzos
dying in someone else's warm embrace sounds comforting too but god imagine having your passing moments be spent experiencing someone else's emotional overflow yeah you want loved ones around but i mean in the thick of it i dunno
i can't cry when im around anyone else just physiologically impossible
moon
and your thalamus doesn't gate smells having your last sensory perceptions be of hospital room smell and not like the smell of home that seems like it'd make me sad. id feel so homesick in those moments.
Samu ／人◕ ‿‿ ◕人＼
oh man so macabre my man theres no point in fixating about methods of dying its not really a thing to optimize dor you might find gently directing your attention towards more immediate concerns to be spiritually helpful
